Leo | Warrior | L-Pack | Tagging: Lucas, Louve, Rya | Location: Forest
Even with the rejection, soft as it had been, Lucas only insisted, encouraging Leo to try, and Leo's heart ached for his friend. The last thing he ever wanted was to hurt any of his Packmates, and especially not his best friend. For better or for worse, even when Leo had found himself in trouble, Lucas had been there to back him up in the end. Yet there he stood, rejecting his friend. It's not fair if I agree, not fair to anyone. He reminded himself. He was tempted to agree if only to spare Lucas the heartache, but he knew if he did that, he could miss his own chance, and one day, the relationship wouldn’t work out, and it might fall apart on its own from the lack of romantic connection on Leo's end. He adored Lucas, he would go to the ends of earth for him, would do almost anything if he was asked, but not this. He couldn’t do this.
"I'm not uncomfortable with the word mates, I’m not a pup anymore, but it’s just a strange concept while I’m still at a young age, not even an adult for a few more days to come." Well. That was part of it. Leo hated admitting that part. He was going to two soon and then officially an adult. He had other reasons why it caught him so off guard though. His eyes were closed so he didn’t have to look at Lucas, but he could still feel the other Warrior's gaze fixed on him, and it burned straight through his pelt and skin, to his heart. "Thank you. It’s…It's good to know." Leo wasn’t sure if that was true. It was nice to know he was loved, but at the same time, it put them in an awkward place.
Leo's eyes snapped open and his head jerked up again, so fast he swore he almost gave himself whiplash. Okay, so that stung a little, the accusation, but he supposed he deserved that. He could see where it could come off that way. "No. Absolutely not! I have zero issues with same-gendered couples, at all! I grew up seeing them all around, even if some of them were trying to be a little more subtle than the others. Your gender has nothing to do with this. You’re amazing, and you mean so much to me, but…" Leo trailed off. What was he supposed to say that wouldn’t sound harsh? There was no easy way with this kind of situation.
The words were hard to get out, like he was choking on them. This wasn’t how he had imagined it happening. He refused to look back at the white furred Warrior walking behind him. He would make it clear enough, but saying her name right now, in this exact situation, would make him too anxious. He didn’t know if Lucas knew all the facts, but he knew she would understand what he was talking about. Maybe he wouldn’t have to pull her aside and fumble over his own words trying to explain one day though.
"You asked me if there was someone else, and the answer is yes. The first friendly face when I came back after my absence, the first wolf to vouch for me when I needed someone's help. A wolf who spent so much time just making sure I fit in." Her personality played a large part of it too. Leo hadn’t a doubt in his mind that Lucas would try, but maybe that was part of the problem. "And there’s the other thing. Lucas…I don’t want a relationship where someone has to try. It ought to come naturally, and if it doesn’t, it doesn’t, and I won’t have a mate, and if that’s what the Sky-Dogs want for me, then that’s that. I can’t ask someone to try for me when I wouldn’t be able to try nearly as hard for them though."
Leo saw the exact moment his friend started to panic. How his breathing was a bit more laboured, like he was struggling to keep it under control, and the ever so slight shift in his tone of voice. Leo wanted to salvage the friendship, but hadn’t the faintest idea of how to start. "You’re going to find someone, you’re going to meet someone who's even more of a perfect match for you, someone who can give their whole heart and soul to you and give you an amazing life together, I just know it! They’re out there. Maybe…you just haven’t looked in the right place yet. And when that happens, you’ll forget me. You’ll forget you loved me, and it’ll…" he hated the words. "It’ll be for the better, because it means one day, you’ll get to be happy. If I tried to be the one you settled down with one day though…I don’t think you would end up as happy as you imagine."