
Blue October wrote:I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape,
to remind me that I'm alone Playing movies in my head that make a ***** feel like home
There's a burning in my pride,
a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see whats goodfor you
I'm sober now for 3 whole months,
it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself,
you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so f****** far away that I'll never cross your mind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hands
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away" just make a smile
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How could you do this to me?"
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.

Name:"Hello there stranger. You are probably wondering 'who is this dude?'. Well My name is Chogan James Hawthorne. Yeah it is an unusual name and all, but I like it. Chogan stands for crow, in an indian language, and it is unique. Anyays there is others you will neeed to know about me so bye."
Nickname: "Well alot of just call me James. Not alot like my first name very well."
Age:"I am around 18 year old. One more year from being able to leave home. My birthday is October 31. Yep it is halloween. I find it pretty awesome."
Hair: "My hair is as black as a crows feathers. I have it long and always have it covering my face. It's a weird self concious thing."
Eye color: "My eyes are a stormy stone gray. Nothing really special about them, but I enjoy the color. I think it matches my personality."
Height: "Well if you must know I am around 5'10. I am not a giant, and I am not a dwarf."
Weight: "I am around 167. I am not to suure though, but I am not fat which is a good thing right?"

Chogan in not really a social person. He keeps to himself and doesn't really have friends. He normally stays to himself and doesn't talk much. He has Anthropophobia, The fear of people. He has been scared to get close to people ever since his old girlfriend Ashley drowned 4 years ago when she went out to the ocean. He also has aquaphobia from that too.
Chogan May be shy but he is a really friendly person. He will help anyone who needs it, even if it was a person who was rude to him. Chogan also will speek his mind. If he finds something wrong, he won't keep it to himself. He will tell anyone and everyone how he feels about what they say, but he won't be rude about it.
Job: "Well so far I have been a waiter at Chinese buffet since I was 16. I get decent tip, and a decent pay, but I'd rather work somewhere else with better pay, but no one will hire me yet which sucks, but someday I will find a better job, well hopefully I will."
Pets: "I have a King Sheperd named Crow, but he is really up in his age, and the vet says he has 7 months to a year left."
Likes: Being alone
His dog
Dislikes:Large crowds
His home
Being in large area
Fears:Water
Crush: "None yet."
Girlfriend: "None yet"
Kids: "Seriously? I am defintaly to young to be a father."