- xxxx▬▬▬𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐄 "𝐒𝐄𝐁" 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐓
xxxxcismale • twenty-two • homosexual • tags: aj/alex • location: courtyard
- His feelings all jumbled, the disheartened frown still etched on his usually peppy features as he shuffled off, Seb heard Alex call out to him and heard a pair of footsteps follow shortly behind, in turn stopping in his tracks. While he wanted so badly to just crawl back to the other male and forget this all even happened, the boy so heart-struck that it seemed more and more probable as he heard his ex near him, Seb was trying his best to hold up his front of confidence; by that, he meant the confidence to keep emotional calmness in this situation, and not blubber on about how much he misses Alex or burst into inevitable tears.
Turning around hesitantly as the other once again spoke up, the words strained and stammered out, Seb felt a twang on his heart and couldn't help but to feel nostalgic. What had happened to them, really? Seb still couldn't understand why the other had so easily called it all off, when their relationship had been so perfect; they had always been so open and honest, and the love between them only seemed to grow, the two of them having spent 90% of the last year attached at the hip. Maybe that's why it was so hard on the 22 year old- because he could only ever see the good, and was so desperate to shower Alex with all the love and affection he could muster, that he couldn't even fathom what had gone wrong enough for them to stop seeing each other.
As if brought back to the moment as Alex shifted uncomfortably, Seb offered a half hearted smile (he still had an image to retain, after all, and maybe if he tried to smile he would have less of an inclination to cry) and tried to ease the tension between the two "Hey, it's fine, Alex..." the name Alex foreign on his tongue, used to calling the other male by AJ or any pet name the American boy could come up with, Seb's smile faltered as Alex asked how he'd been but he tried to shrug it off "As good as I can be, I guess...been busy, at least, with moving in and all."
A moment of silence passing between his words, the male silently scolding himself for even trying to act like everything was fine, Seb hesitated but ended up letting out something between a sigh and a sob as he allowed himself to seek closure "Why did you just stop talking to me like that...I just...I don't understand. You know, if you had just told me what I did wrong, I could have fixed it. I still would, you know. I...I just want to understand. Help me understand." Ah, here we go again... I'm just pitiful.