by Toy Cutty » Wed Aug 02, 2023 1:54 pm
Remarks on July 30th___Weather: Fair__ Wind: S 8knots__ Barometer: 30.11__ Visibility: 10 miles__ Temp: High 103F, Low 77F
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__Damn house cat. Woke me this morning with constant meowing all because she wasn't feed soon enough.
__Yesterday mother said something to me that revealed how fragile my state truly was in my family's eyes. "He can kick you out at any moment you know." This threat had been made to me one before by my previous church. Though both instances were "jokes". The threat still looms very real, especially since I had left the church then my parents were kicked out.
__If curious no, none of had sinned before the church or done anything wrong. All we did was ask the right questions to the wrong people. The leadership only cared for their own egos and not the salvation of their congregation. To say the least that is a falling church and not all churches are like they are. We have a new temporary church that is quite loving and kind, though a bit silly and loud.
__Sister says she wishes to be like me. I do admire the look of pirates and outlaws. I adore silver colored jewelry. So when I get up I grab rings, earrings, bangles, necklaces, and ear cuffs. And to finish off the look a pair of leather boots. Soon I wish to not have it be just a look but my lifestyle. Except the stealing and hurting people (unless I need too..haha that's a joke).
__The stand in pastor nothing he said really stuck with me but the scriptures read before hand, and some of the prayers convicted me.
Galatians 5:16-26 "But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh. for the flesh sets its desire against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are opposition to one another, so that you may not do the things that you please. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the Law. Now the deeds of the flesh are evident, which are: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, outbursts of anger, disputes, dissensions, divisions, envying, drunkenness, carousing, and things like these, of which I forewarn you, just as I have forewarned you, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit. Let us no become boastful, challenging one another, envying on another."
I am guilty of many things listed. A sinner will not know they are a sinner lest you tell them. I am angry, and hold strife against people who have hurt me, but I can hold assurance perfect justice will be acted out one day.