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[LittleMaple]

Excerpt 4 from "Diary of a Despondent Mother"

A Lullaby For An Angel

Gentle eyes
Rest your head
Fold your wings
Little angel
I will hold you close
Little angel
I will love you dearly
In my arms
Your delicate breaths
Sweet angel

[Something has been very intensely scratched out and a small drop of blood is by the scratches.]

My babygirl. Where are you? Sweetheart? I know it and her fault. Not mine. Not mine. She killed you. This is her fault. She was never a good mother. Betrayed me as a child. Betraying me now. By killing you. She will be first. The land will savor her body.

[A drawing of a hill with a long mouth filled with sharp teeth is below this.]

[LittleMaple]

Gentle waters
Soft spoken
Delicate feathers
Beautiful eyes
Grace-filled steps
A dance to the stars
Take me away from this land
Into another daydream
Where I am loved
By a plethora of people
Who are so much better
Than you could've ever been
You just seek to destroy
I seek to bring life
A life-bringing pebble
As I am meant to be
I will heal this land
I will bring those in need to safety
Joy is all I will spread
The shade that tries to dishearten me
Will die when they feel my sunlight
I will love so strongly that I will block out the night
But when it is time to rest
I'll fold my wings away
And sleep on a bed of moss
And I will be missed
But until then
I will be strong
I will ignore the voices that seek to harm me
And i will keep spreading love and joy

[LittleMaple]

Excerpt 5 from "Diary of a Despondent Mother"

The journey has began. I made the first sacrifice this morning. New, young, fresh blood for the mother of all. I could hear her thanking me as I dumped the body. The joy she feels will be in all of us. The world will become a better place. If I can just fix it.

In other news, I met a girl at the market today. She reminded me of Maddie. Her hazel eyes, her brown hair. Just like Mads. God how I miss her already. I have experienced loss before, of course, for the great mother. But this? This is different. I do not believe the great mother would want her most faithful daughter to feel this pain.

[LittleMaple]

Wake up, baby
You don't belong here

[LittleMaple]

I've been phoning you every night
You don't pick up anymore
Maybe you never did in the first place
Either way
I'm stuck here again
And this time
I don't have anyone to take me home

[LittleMaple]

Excerpt 6 from "Diary of a Despondent Mother"

Those men claiming to be the law appeared at my house today. Of course, I was furious that I hadn'tbeen told they'd be showing up. I told them to get out, but they said they wouldn't unless they could have a look in my yard. I didn't want to let them, but then I heard the Great Mother speaking. She told me to let them and then take a chance. I'm not one to disobey the Grear Mother, so I did just that. She was so happy when I brought the sacrifices.

Other than that, it was a mundane day. It stormed in the morning, like the Great Mother was clapping in joy. She sounded very happy in all today. I wonder why? Anyhow, I went for a walk. There was a great stag in the forest, with white, glowing eyes. It looked right at me, and it was like She was looking at me. It was very calming. It made me so grateful to be one of Her children. She is so amazing, I cant wait to bring Her to the world.

[LittleMaple]

I have made many mistakes in my life
I just regret that trusting you was one of them

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It can be easy to love
But that doesn't mean it is easy to love

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Remember to show affection to the child side of you
Embrace them
Forgive them
Please forgive them
They were a child
They didn't know any better
But you can show them
Love and understanding

[LittleMaple]

Tell me that life is easy even though its a lie
I need to be lied to more in my life
It's a struggle to pretend things are easy
Things are hard
Things suck
It becomes easier to believe that isn't true
When others tell you it isn't
Sometimes it's easier to pretend things don't exist
Than to face the hard truth

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Sometimes
I pretend things I don't like
Don't exist
So that I can be happy
For a moment
Without the fear
That the thing I'm enjoying
Is somehow bad
Or problematic
Or created by a disgusting person
Bad things are happening everywhere
And it's getting a little overwhelming

[LittleMaple]

I have a problem with obsessive love.
I will attach to person and talk about them, think about them, nonstop
And every single time
Something will happen
And it will feel like I've just crashed from some sort of high
Maybe it's because they aren't everything I've made then up to be in my mind?
Because after all
They're only human
But every time
I'm left feeling like there's a wall between us
Like we will never be as close as we once were
And I can't stop it from happening
It is so painful
And has lead me to fear love
Because I dont experience it the "normal" way
I love very strongly, and the minute something happens to disrupt that, it's like falling
So i just pretend that there are loves I have
I still love the real people, I love them so much!
But it isn't this overwhelming feeling anymore
Is that a bad, or good thing?

[LittleMaple]

I want to be a love letter
Written to all of those around me
I am beloved, dearly
I want to write love letters
Like myself
To all those people that make me so happy
I want to love everything
Romanticize life!
Find love in everything!
In your coffee!
In your own face!
In your music!
Find it!
Love is everywhere
If you just know whete to look
It can be overwhelming
Like there's too much
But there isnt enough!
So be part of that love
Be something to romanticize