by Olive; » Fri Oct 05, 2018 4:33 pm
The Diary
College. It was closer than ever now; two weeks away. I sifted through my belongings, each item I owned telling a story. I don’t need to bring my old stuffed animals, I don’t need to bring any of my SAT study books. As I continued to sift through my drawers, I found a nondescript book. Huh, that’s odd. I don’t remember that at all! I flipped open the front cover. "Diana’s Diary," it stated in a second grader’s wobbly letters.
A tiny memory popped to the surface of my mind. June, third grade. The day we all chose our instruments. I excitedly flipped through the pages, trying to find the entry from that day. I stopped on a page littered with tiny music notes and treble clefs. Yep. This was it.
Dear Diary,
Today, we learned about all the instruments that we could play in band! First, Mr. Holland told us about the common instruments, and played a video of each for us.
Flute - Though I do love the beautiful sound of the flute, I can’t possibly bring myself to play it. There’s too much incessant giggling going on in there.
Clarinet - Clarinet has a really nice sound to it, as well! But I’m not sure it’s the right instrument for me.
Saxophone - No. Just... no.
Trumpet - The sound is too bright and piercing! I would rather play something darker.
Trombone - While every instrument has the opportunity to play something pretty, I don’t think trombone gets very many of these opportunities.
Then, he told us about the other instruments. These were only for people who were willing to devote a lot of time to practicing. I perked up. I loved taking piano lessons, so maybe one of these would be my perfect fit!
The first instrument he mentioned was the oboe. It's a double reed instrument, meaning that two reeds were placed against each other, and they vibrated to make a sound. As one of the most difficult instruments to learn, he told us to get private lessons if we chose oboe. Most importantly, he said, it was for bubbly but studious players who liked a challenge. Then, he played the quick video clip. I was only ten seconds into the video when I realized that this was the instrument for me. Nothing would stop me from playing it.
I sat with the diary in my lap, my mind off in the faraway land of the past. A smile crept onto my lips. So this was how it all began. I closed the diary carefully, and put it in the pile of things I was taking to college. I would need this for music conservatory. But it didn’t matter, anyway. The origin story that I had only recently recalled was now forever ingrained in my heart.▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪ ▪
Hobbies
Hobbies. Some of us have many, and others have few. When I think back to my high school career as an oboist, I can’t help but think of the event that started it all. That day, my oboe was no longer a hobby. It was my life.
"Honey, you’re never going to get a career as a musician. Your oboe gets you into college, and that’s it." I winced as my mom delivered the truth, but inside, I knew that she was right. It only made sense. I had to go to college, become a doctor, and maybe, if I was lucky, I could keep music in my life.
"Now go do your homework, and you can practice after you finish." A big stack of books welcomed me as I sat down at my desk. I really should get my homework done. My grades are especially important if I want to go on the band trip. My mind wandered as I thought about the excursion. We left for the festival in two days! All my idols were going to be there, from Anna Flores to Brett Whitney. I could hardly wait to see them all in person.
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Before I knew it, we were seated in the hall. Our director’s baton started to move, guiding us and showing us the meaning behind the music. There was nothing quite like this feeling I got when I played. With my instrument, I could go anywhere. I could soar over lush valleys, over sparkling seas. Through music, I could tell any story I wanted. All too quickly, the first movement ended, and our last note rang out through the hall. There was a rustling of music as people turned their pages, and then the director nodded at me. I took a deep breath and began my solo. As I played the bittersweet melody, I spoke of longing, loss, and even hope. My notes, sweet and clear, seemed to float above the soft trombone choir, in an ethereal moment. I was in a daze when I finished, and I played through the rest of the symphony on a high. Pride filled me when I stood up with the rest of the soloists, smiling broadly. After the final note of applause, we were led into the clinic room, where a judge came to critique us and help us fix issues with our performance.
When I entered the room, I could not believe my own eyes! Our clinician was none other than Anna Flores, the principal oboist for the LA Philharmonic!
"First of all, I’d like to congratulate everyone on a job well done. That was an excellent interpretation of the Giannini symphony! Though there were some technical issues throughout the piece, I really sensed the heart you all poured into it. You have bright musical futures!"
She flipped through the score, and picked out parts for us to work on. After our thirty minutes were up, she pulled me aside.
"I’ve never heard such young musical talent. Your solo was phenomenal! I know that I’ll be seeing more from you in the future." She pulled a method book out of her bag, and quickly scribbled down a note inside. It was her number. "If you ever need anything, don’t hesitate to call me. Us oboists have to stick together!" At a loss for words, I spat out an awkward thank you and a smile, and shook her paw. I couldn’t believe it! Someone thought that I had the potential to be a professional musician. From then on, I wouldn’t hold back. I would devote my entire life to music.
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I was hit by a wave of nostalgia, but this time, I was seated at the adjudicator's chair. This was the very same concert hall where I decided to follow my dreams. I didn’t regret a single thing. I now was the principal oboist of the San Francisco Symphony, and I got to play, teach, and even write wonderful music every day.
A lush soundscape filled my ears as the first band took the stage. An American Elegy. Frank Ticheli. I let myself get lost in the music, feeling the raw emotion that radiated from the band. Though my brain went through all the motions of adjudication, my heart was fully connected to the music. When I heard the young oboist play their solo, tears pricked my eyes. They reminded me of my young self. Passionate, but conflicted. Eventually, the piece ended, and I followed the band into the clinic room.
"Now, who knows about the reason this piece was written?"
A horn player answered, and we discussed the meaning of the song, taking the time to fix certain passages along the way. All too soon, our time in the clinic room was up, so I dismissed the band. They were young, filled with emotion and potential, truly a joy to work with.
"Wait!" I called after the oboe soloist. He turned around. "I wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed your solo! You truly have a bright musical future." I reached inside my purse, for I had come prepared. Grabbing the method book, I wrote my number on the inside cover, just as Anna did all these years ago. I extended the book to him, and he took it. "Call me if you need anything. Anything at all."
"Thank you. I promise I won’t let you down." The kalon took the book, shook my hand, and walked away, whistling his solo as he went.
I smiled to myself. I knew I’d see him again someday. Music is a funny thing. Where words fail, it speaks. And I knew that this kalon had something to say.
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Olive; on Mon Jan 28, 2019 1:47 pm, edited 1 time in total.