ophelia - tryout for kalon #1110

[iuno.]

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[iuno.]

name ophelia
nicknames none
gender female
sexuality ↓
homosexual - although ophelia has never had a girlfriend in her life, she has still felt a couple of attractions to females in her life, one in particular. although she would probably never pursue her feelings, she still recognizes and accepts them.

history/personality ↓
octavia, her mother, and vince, her father, were not actually her parents, not in her eyes at least. for the first five years of her life, she received little to none attention, and absolutely no love from her parents. they took her to her grandmother, eloise, most of the time so they could go out and do whatever they wanted. when she was about five and a half years old, they left her with her grandmother permanently. eloise took good care of ophelia, but she didn't necessarily want her with all of her heart. she was already getting old, her strength wearing thin. she had already been a mother and she didn't want to be another full-time one, but she wasn't even like ophelia's parents who had just left her. even though she didn't fully want to, eloise took on the roll as ophelia's only parent figure. eloise's mate had already passed, so she was all that ophelia had. ophelia wasn't dumb though, and even though she was only five, she could tell that no one really wanted her. that was the first thing that contributed to ophelia's coldness.

as a young child, ophelia was very different from everyone else that she knew. she avoided most people and didn't have any friends at all throughout elementary school. kalons who tried to befriend her were simply pushed away. everyone in her classes learned quickly that she wouldn't make a good friend and just moved on from her. she spent all her time by herself, simply just watching her peers. she had absolutely no interest in making any friends or participating in activities that involved others. she often got in trouble for arguing with her teaches about not wanting to participate in class activities. she wasn't a bad student, she never skipped her personal class work or homework, she just didn't want to do things involving others.

things changed in junior high and ophelia hated change. there were lots more students than there were in ophelia's elementary school. at the beginning, ophelia didn't change a bit, but one persistent kalon changed her. giovanna, another female like herself, opened ophelia up to the world of trusting. slight color was added to ophelia's world because of giovanna. although she continued to not interact with others, she still had one friend, opening up a world of new experiences for her. ophelia became slightly more lively, now enjoying talking more and doing things normal young kalons did. the two of them spent lots of time outside of school with each other chatting and playing.

in eighth grade, ophelia began feeling some new feelings towards giovanna, feelings that she had never felt for anyone. she soon realized that she had a crush on the other girl, but she never ended up telling her in fear of scaring her away. at her school, there was lots of talk about gay kalons. most were not accepting of kalons who liked the same gender, and that scared ophelia. she couldn't get herself to understand why she liked giovanna in a romantic way. she hated it, and the more time she spent with giovanna, the more she fell for the girl.

in her first year of high school, things changed once again. her one and only friend left her for another female kalon named vivian. giovanna just left her knowing that ophelia would be alone without her. because of this, ophelia put up all of her walls again and isolated herself from everyone around her. throughout the rest of high school, she didn't make any other friends, nor did she have any interest in making any. she was angry most of the time, not just at giovanna, but at everything. anyone who attempted to socialize with her got her anger taken out on them, no matter if they deserved it or not.

as a young adult, ophelia continued to be cold. she still doesn't warm up to anyone, nor does she want to. she's a complete loner and has been ever since the event in which she lost her first best friend. she's very quiet and doesn't talk much, she prefers to keep her mouth shut and just observe everything going on around her. she's extremely observant and notices things many others do not. one thing that changed is that ophelia no longer felt lonely once she got out of high school. she began to love being by herself, just being alone with her thoughts.

at times, one of the few things ophelia dreams about is having a mate. she doesn't want friends, she just wants somebody to be in love with. it's not something she dwells upon often, but it's something that drifts around in the back of her mind. she's ninety-nine percent sure that no one will ever gain her trust to be that close to her, but that one percent is still there. she tries to believe that one day she'll get over giovanna and she'll be able to love someone else. it's a brave thought considering ophelia has her walls built up so high, but it's still involuntarily there.

occupation thief
about her job ↓
becoming a thief wasn't what ophelia wanted to do when she was a child. when she was young, she always dreamed of becoming a surgeon. something about it intrigued her, but nothing really interested her after her best friend was taken away from her. when that happened, ophelia decided she'd grow up to she'd steal from other kalons so they could see how it felt to lose. not small things or necessarily expensive things, she didn't care about those. ophelia only ever steals things she feels are important, such as a necklace that's separated from all of someone's jewelry and placed in a special case. or a scrapbook filled with memories of two lovers. she'll take whatever she can find that seems even a little bit important or makes her think of her loss.

ophelia is awfully good at what she does. she's only been caught once in the many years of being a thief and she escaped before the homeowner could call the police on her. she makes a good living off of thieving, selling whatever she finds that's worth value. if the special things she finds aren't worth anything, she'll burn them in the fire she has at her own house or simply throw them away. if she kept everything that doesn't have any value, she'd have piles of worthless items stacked to the roof.

ophelia didn't go to college and she doesn't have any other jobs besides being a thief. she was not trained by any other thieves, she does everything on her own. she doesn't trust anyone enough to work with her, but working by herself has always worked fine for her. ophelia's job is her entire life, she doesn't do much else besides it. she does her job at all hours of the day- morning, night, and everything between- and rarely sleeps. she lives off of very little sleep, but she's never tired.

[iuno.]

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ophelia's class was released a couple of minutes before the bell rang to signal the end of the school day. because ophelia did not have any friends in her class, she waited for her one and only friend to get out of her class. she sat on the stairs, silently watching all of the other kalon's talking among each other. she knew some of them from middle school, others she had no clue who they were. she could already tell she wouldn't like them, ophelia didn't like anyone besides giovanna, her best friend. she had always had trouble trusting others, and in her life only one kalon had been able to gain her trust. that was giovanna of course, the one who she was waiting for. how giovanna gained ophelia's trust is a mystery to the both of them. one day ophelia didn't trust her and the next, she trusted giovanna with her life. trusting someone was an uncomfortable feeling for ophelia, she always worried that giovanna would betray her.

ring... ring... ring... the bell! ophelia moved away from the stairs, not wanting to be stampeded on. she waited for giovanna, hiding halfway behind some bushes. a couple of minutes later, in all her glory, she finally came down the stairs. a large smile appeared on ophelia's face, but it was soon replaced with a frown.

but she wasn't by herself.

there was a weird feeling in ophelia's stomach. in middle school, it had always just been her and giovanna. there was never anyone else and that was how ophelia liked it. there was no one was there to bother her- to pick on her. " giovanna! " ophelia called out as giovanna walked the other way, not seeing her. giovanna turned back around and walked over to ophelia with a slight frown on her face. " you're walking home with me, right? " ophelia asked nervously. "ahh... i'm actually going with my new friend, vivian, in her dad's car... " giovanna drifted off, seeing ophelia's crushed look didn't make her feel good. " we can walk home tomorrow? " she suggested. " sure, " ophelia replied, trying not to act like she was upset. the two said goodbye and parted ways, leaving ophelia to walk home by herself for the first time in a long while.

step one. step one was not walking home with ophelia when you have every day for the past couple of years. that was giovanna's first thing she did to get ophelia's trust taken away from her.

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twelve on the dot, the bell rang. it was finally lunchtime! ophelia headed over to the table where giovanna always met her at. for the last couple of days, ophelia had felt a bit of anger towards giovanna. she had said that she was going to walk home with ophelia the day after she drove home with vivian, but she hadn't. and she hadn't the next day either. it made ophelia worry that giovanna was going to abandon her and end their friendship. that was the last thing in the world that she wanted. she loved giovanna, platonically and possibly romantically (even though she'd never tell giovanna that).

five minutes of lunch had passed. giovanna had usually arrived at the table by now, so ophelia was wondering where the girl was. she got up from the table and headed outside to look for hher. when she finally found giovanna, she felt completely left out.

out in the field, ophelia spotted giovanna sitting with vivian and her other friends. giovanna couldn't even tell ophelia that they wouldn't be sitting together today? she couldn't invite ophelia to join them? that wasn't like her. upset, ophelia decided she'd pay giovanna a visit. grass tickled the kalon's legs as she walked towards the other side of the field to talk to giovanna.

" hi, ophelia! " giovanna greeted happily. vivian gave ophelia a weird look which made the kalon's stomach boil with anger. " hi, giovanna. could we talk for a minute? " ophelia said, not happy at all. " of course! " giovanna said, not sensing how ophelia felt. the two walked quite a bit away from where giovanna's other friends were. once ophelia felt they were far enough, she turned around and looked at giovanna sadly. " how come you didn't tell me we weren't going to spend lunch together? and how come you said we'd walk home together, but we still haven't? " ophelia asked, anger and sadness mixed together inside of her. giovanna looked shocked at ophelia's tone, but simply said " i'm sorry, ophelia. vivian has been wanting me to hang out with her and her friends, so i just go with it. i promise i'll make it up to you. "

ophelia had a feeling that giovanna wouldn't actually make it up to her. she'd soon learn that she was right about how she felt.

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the first month of high school brought absolutely no joy into ophelia's life. after giovanna had promised that she'd make things up to ophelia, they never talked again. for a while, giovanna was always spending time with vivian and her other friends. then, vivian's other friends seemed to disappear and it was just giovanna and vivian. then, the rumors began spreading about the two. ophelia had overheard two other kalons talking about how giovanna and vivian were dating. ophelia wasn't sure if it was true, but it still crushed her heart. it just reminded her of how much she liked giovanna and how they had just been the best of friends a short while back. she couldn't understand what she did wrong, why giovanna just decided to abandon her.

it was lunchtime once again, but ophelia wasn't observing like she usually was. she had her head down in her arms, sitting alone at a table like usual. it was then, when she was alone with her thoughts, that she decided she should pay giovanna one last visit. ophelia got up from the table, wiping her tears away. for once, she had no idea where giovanna was. she had tried to convince herself that she didn't care, but she knew she did. ophelia decided to look where giovanna and vivian were most of the time- out far away in the field.

she left the cafeteria and, of course, giovanna and vivian were on the other side of the field. ophelia made her way over to them feeling awfully nervous.

when ophelia got close, heads turned. giovanna and vivian looked at her, vivian had a scowl on her face. " need something, darling? " she asked while giovanna laughed. " can i talk to you, giovanna? " ophelia asked, ignoring vivian. " sure. go ahead, " giovanna said, a fake smile on her face. giovanna knew that ophelia meant in private, she just wanted to mess with the nervous kalon. " forget it, " ophelia shook her head, clenching her teeth. how could giovanna have changed so quickly? " alright. bye then, " vivan said, her and giovanna laughing. ophelia had to force herself not to turn around and beat the both of them.

while ophelia was walking back to the cafeteria, she decided she hated giovanna. she decided she'd hold a grudge against her and every other kalon who she ever meets. every other kalon being seen as vivian in her mind because anyone can steal your best friend. she didn't care if she was being dramatic, she knew what she was thinking would become reality. ophelia had always been good at holding grudges and when she held one she never let it go. this one would be no different.

when the school day ended, ophelia walked home alone again and she decided she liked walking alone rather than with giovanna.

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[iuno.]

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How long ago that seems. Bringing it back up floods my brain with memories from when I was young. It reminds me of the day I began to hold a grudge on every kalon, one in particular. The one who left me for another when they knew how much I loved them, when they knew I'd do anything for them. I've never been able to let it go, I still remember vividly how I felt when I realized I had lost them. It was an awful feeling, a feeling that I'll never be able to forget. Losing is not something anyone enjoys, but I strongly believe that everyone should experience how it feels. You're missing something if you don't understand how it feels to lose, missing an experience.

Giovanna is the name of the Kalon who taught me what it feels like to lose. In my world that name means selfishness. It's a name that makes me so bitter. Giovanna needed more than me, I didn't satisfy her even though she satisfied me completely. She was selfish. Another girl, Vivian, was better than me in her eyes and so she decided she'd go with her. She decided she'd fall in love with her instead of me. She decided to make memories with her instead of me. Making memories used to be my favorite thing to do, but it isn't anymore. Sometimes I wish I couldn't remember the memories Giovanna and I made, but that's not going to happen.

Anyways, I guess I should tell about our relationship before I get to the whole ugly part. Give the backstory before I give the ending.

Giovanna and I met in sixth grade- the first year of middle school. She took interest in me and at first, I couldn't have cared less about her. She was no different than any other Kalon to me. I wanted her to leave me alone just like I wanted everyone else to, but she wouldn't give up on me. I never understood and still don't understand why, it wasn't like I was anything super special. Following many failed attempts came a successful one. I made the wrong decision, but I let her in. I let her befriend me and slowly we became the best of friends. Neither of us had any other friends, all we had was each other and for some years, that was enough for the both of us.

Sixth and seventh grade went by slowly. They were my favorite two years of school. Giovanna had such a good heart, she cared about me so much and made me feel so special. I'll never understand what happened to her in ninth grade, how her heart could've gone so cold so quickly. Anyhow, Giovanna and I spent all of our time together- during school, after school, and on weekends. We were practically inseparable. Spending so much time with her led to me getting foreign feelings for her. The new feelings I got for her scared me. I didn't want to have them, not yet and definitely not for another girl.

In eighth grade, I developed a large crush on Giovanna. When I saw her, I got butterflies in my stomach. I thought she was cute and I'd never really thought of anyone as that before. I was so scared of my feelings, especially with all of the 'being gay is wrong' talk going on around my school. I knew I could never tell her. I was so sure that if I would she would leave me. Little did I know, Giovanna would come out as gay in the ninth grade. It started out as rumors, but then Giovanna confirmed that she was dating Vivian. Maybe if I would've told her my feelings none of the bad parts would've ever happened. It's quite a shame if you ask me.

Ninth grade. How can someone turn so bad so quickly? It took Giovanna only two months to switch from being an angel to being the devil. It all started the very first day of high school when Giovanna met Vivian. It all started when Giovanna decided not to walk home with me for the first time in years. Not walking home with me wasn't too big of a deal, but when she completely stopped spending time with me, that was. She decided she'd spend all her time with Vivian instead and completely forget about me. Vivian changed Giovanna. Old Giovanna was never one to laugh at others, she was always so kind. New Giovanna thought she was better than everyone and that everyone below her was a laughing matter. That was not the Kalon I knew, spending time with Vivian had obviously changed her.

The second month of high school marked the complete end of our friendship. I hadn't talked to Giovanna in weeks so I decided to go and find her so I could talk to her and simply ask her why. Why did she decide she didn't want to be my friend anymore? Anyways, my attempt to ask her completely failed. I remember it as clear as daylight- I went up to her while she was with Vivian and asked if I could speak to her. It was obvious I meant privately, but she just said something like 'yeah, go ahead'. I said 'forget it' and then the two of them started laughing at me as I walked away. Nothing was funny, but they were laughing like hyenas. That was when I decided that our friendship was over. I decided I had a strong hatred for her. I decided I'd hold a grudge against her and everyone else.

Now I know that sounds dramatic, but I've always been one to be dramatic so I guess that's just how it is. Plus, I didn't just randomly decide to hold a grudge against everyone, I decided to because of Vivian. In my eyes, Vivian is every other Kalon out there. Anyone can steal your best friend, the love of your life, and so on. That's how I chose to hold a grudge against everyone else besides Giovanna. I've never let go of it since that day. Maybe I would've if they would have apologized to me, but they never did. I never expected them to, either. They were both too full of themselves. I'm not even sure I would've let it go for a measly apology. Who knows.

I guess that's the end of my story. Nothing happened between Giovanna and I after that day, so I'll end it right here. Sincerely,

Ophelia.

[iuno.]

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Hello, Diary. You are the first diary I've had in my life, probably because I've always thought they were stupid. I guess my opinion on them have changed though or I wouldn't have bothered to walk all the way to the store and buy you. I'm not exactly sure how this works, but I'm guessing I just write all my feelings in you, right? Well, I'm not going to do that all the time. Maybe some feelings, but I'd like to mostly write about events that happen that are more exciting than my daily life... I guess? No one else will ever see this, so I'll just write whatever I want to. There'll be no rules like there usually is to everything. It'll all be up to me, seems kind of rebellious for some reason.

Anyways... there's not really anything much I want to write today? Nothing exciting has been happening. My job's going good... still haven't been caught yet, but I'm sure some day I will be. You're not a real thief unless you've been caught once, so I'm still waiting for that day. I'm just too be good to be caught, even though that sounds quite arrogant, it's just the truth. I just sold a piece of jewelry for quite a bit which pleased me. It said 'for my beloved' on it. It reminded me of Giovanna which put me in a pretty bad mood. I'm over it now though. Well... I guess I'll say goodbye now. Goodbye Diary. I'll see you next time. Hopefully I'll have something exciting to write so I won't bore myself while writing in here. Sincerely,

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxOphelia.

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I got word that my mother died today. I don't know who sent me the letter, there was no return address on it and it wasn't signed by anyone. It simply said 'Mercury passed today' and gave some information about the funeral. The weird part is that it was hand written, and it reminded me of my grandmother's writing. Except she's dead, so that isn't possible. I don't remember what my father's handwriting looks like, so maybe it's his? I don't see any reasons as to why he'd invite me when it's obvious that I won't come. Why would I come? If it was from him, he should've gave me a list of reasons as to why I should. The list would be empty, the number one written in the top left corner on the first line, but nothing following it. Anyways, I just ripped the letter in half and threw it in the garbage where it belongs.

I'm not sorry. I'm not sorry that I'm not going. I would hate to see my father there and I would hate to see my mother being buried besides my grandmother. She doesn't deserve to lay besides my grandmother. Even if she didn't love me wholeheartedly, she still took care of me as best she could. My mother, on the other hand, just abandoned me. I'll say it again, her body does not deserve to be placed next to my grandmother's. I've only visited my grandmother's grave once and if I go again and see Mercury written on the one next to her's, I'll be sure to give it a good kick even though it'll hurt my leg quite a bit. Sincerely,

Ophelia.

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I got caught yesterday. I guess I jinxed myself when I said I was too good. It was a weird experience. I think it was mostly weird because I knew who caught me, his name is Roman. We went to the same high school together. It was a scary experience when I was caught, I thought I would go to jail or something like that, but I'm way too good to go to jail. I got what I needed- which was a watch that had 'for dad' engraved on the back of the watch case. It wasn't made out of gold or anything, just stainless steel. Right when I was about to leave, Roman came home and I thought I was going to die even though I knew I wouldn't. He almost caught me, but I was slightly too fast. While I was running away from the house, Roman was screaming something like 'that's my dad's! that's my dad's watch!'. For the first time in a while, I felt guilty.

I remember perfectly why I felt guilty. It was because he had never done anything bad to me. He had never bullied me or anything like that and that's why I felt guilt in my stomach as I ran away with the watch around my wrist. Even though I don't most of the Kalons I steal from, and I don't know if they're bad or not, I don't usually feel guilty. I have no idea why it was different this time, but I'm pretty sure one reason is because of his voice when he was saying that it was his dad's watch. I didn't sell the watch. I didn't burn it or throw it away either. It's on my dresser and ever since yesterday I've been considering giving it back to him. I'm not sure that's the best idea though as that could lead to me going to jail. I don't want that so I guess it'll just stay on my dresser. Sincerely,

Ophelia.

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I've decided not to feel guilty. I have no time for it. If every time I stole something I felt guilty, I wouldn't be doing this job. Bad or not, everyone deserves to feel what it's like to lose every once in a while. I saw Roman today out about in town and I had to hide and that's when I realized he's just like everyone else. Plus, I don't even know him personally. Who knows if he's bad or not? I don't really care. I still am not sure if I'll try to do anything with the watch though. I quite like it. Every once in a while I keep something I like, just like all thieves do, and this watch is pretty nice. It's stainless steel like I said, and that's my favorite. Anyways, enough about the watch. I'm not sure what else to write today, nothing interesting has really been happening. My life isn't that interesting in the first place, but I don't really mind.

Speaking of my non-interesting life, that reminds me of something. I decided a little while back to pick up writing and poetry as some new hobbies. If I ever read this when I get old, I'll remember how lame I was, besides the fact that I was a cool thief. I've discovered I'm pretty good at poetry. I'm sill learning all of the different types, like Haiku's, Tanka's, Limerick's, and so on. My favorite would have to be Haiku's though. Writing about nature is my favorite, and that's what Haiku's are all about. Seems perfect to me! I also enjoy writing fictional stories. Nonfiction is so boring, who actually likes writing about real things? I like all that supernatural and magic stuff. Post-apocalyptic worlds are also quite interesting. It's time for me to go out and do my job, so I'll write some more about this or something else whenever I next have the time. Sincerely,

Ophelia.

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Today I saw somebody that reminded me of Giovanna. The weird part was that it didn't hurt that much. I may be getting ahead of myself, but maybe I am finally getting over her. It's been so long, so many years. I've held this grudge for my entire life and seeing somebody that reminded me of her made me think maybe it's time to let it go. Now just because I'm getting over her doesn't mean I'll stop being a thief or being the Kalon I am. I still hate other Kalons and I still don't trust them, nor do I want to be friends with any of them. I still believe that others should feel how it feels to lose. None of that changed, but one thing did- I felt stronger. When Giovanna first broke my heart, I felt so weak. And I feel like I've felt that weakness my entire life, but now it's been lifted. I'm not sure if any of this is making sense, but it makes perfect sense to me. I want to be free of Giovanna. And I feel like this is the first step of being free of her. She doesn't have a full lock around my heart anymore. The lock was cracked today and someday the lock and it's chains will just fall off from around my heart.

I don't know... I don't know if this means some day I'll fall for someone else. That seems impossible right now. I have seen a couple of other females in my life and felt attractions towards them, but not in a long while. It'll take a lot for something like me falling in love again to happen, but I still have a bit of faith. It doesn't make complete sense to me- my feelings. I don't want to have friends, I want someone to love. More than one will overwhelm me, I think that's why I only had Giovanna. I didn't want friends back then either, just someone to love so I guess much hasn't changed in my entire life. I guess time can only tell what happens, but right now I am content. More content than I've been in a while. I'm writing this at one in the morning and now it's time for me to go out and do my job once again. Until next time, Diary. Sincerely,

Ophelia.

[iuno.]

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[iuno.]

all writing by me

first art piece by sixbane

#1 second art piece by winkatuck
#2 second art piece by steamplonk

#1 third art piece by steamplonk
#2 third art piece by saucycorndog

fourth art piece by -galaxie

fifth art piece by violenca

sixth art piece by clique

seventh art piece by iaan, human art of ophelia

none of this art is to be used by the winner, please and thank you! (so sorry ahh ;u;)