by Aliria » Sun Jun 19, 2016 5:25 am
The rock flies from my hand out over the surface of the water and hits the surface with a splash, where it sinks down deep into the lake.
"Hold is like this," says Mordecai, positioning my hand around the stone. "Throw it like a frisbee, parallel to the water."
"That's what I'm doing," I tell, him, somewhat exasperated. He makes it look so easy.
"Clearly no, or the rock wouldn't keep sinking every single time."
I slap him, gently, and pick up another rock to try again.
I throw another rock as far as I can. In my head, the perfect still surface of the lake is the road, that one road where we were driving that horrible night that I can't keep out of my mind, no mater how much I try.
The stone is the driver of the other car. The driver, falling asleep after spending the day driving across the country. Losing control of her car, until it slams into the front of a little green Ford where a teenage boy and his girlfriend are driving home after a friend's birthday party.
The teens are happy, slightly overtired, but laughing together about their inside jokes and silly stories. Two teenagers, traveling home the night following a perfect day. Doing nothing wrong, nothing to make them deserve anything bad to happen.
But of course, the universe couldn't care less what we deserved. The universe couldn't care about a thing. Random chance, bad luck, nothing more.
I throw another rock into the lake.
I throw the stone, just how Mordecai showed me. Just like last time, and the time before that, it splashes down below the surface of the water.
"You'll do better next time, Eli," he says, picking up another rock from the stony beach.
The stone slams into the surface of the water, throwing droplets everywhere like the glass and metal flew that night. When the boy who I loved most in the world was crushed by a four thousand pound beast of roaring metal and screaming glass.
One severe concussion. Two breaks in my right arm. Three fractured ribs. Four other assorted breaks. Uncountable small cuts and bruises. One critically broken heart.
The injuries I suffered from my place in the passenger seat. If I had been the one to volunteer to drive, maybe I would have been the one crushed. Maybe Mordecai would have been the one to survive, to come home from the hospital, hurt but alive, to his parents, his little brother, his baby sister who will now grow up the youngest of two.
Mordecai throws a stone. It flies far into the lake, where it hits the water and lands flat, throwing up a spray of droplets but then leaping up into the air again. It bounces across the surface of the lake, not one, not two, but nine times before finally, the rock turns onto its side and slides under the smooth surface to join the stones and silt that cover the lake floor.
"You have telekinesis, right?" I say, my voice bubbling with laughter. "There's no way that's possible without it."
He smiles. "The only magical thing on this beach is you."
And then he leaned toward me and we kissed for the very first time, right there on that beach.
As the next stone flies out into the endless depths of the lake, I remember the time he kissed me at the party. A quick kiss, all too soon over, because of course it was never supposed to be the last. Nothing was supposed to be the last.
There would always be another day. There would always be another date. We would always be okay. Until, one day, there wasn't. There would never be another day, another kiss, another moment. In the moment of time it took for one driver to fall asleep at the wheel, the entire future spiraled off into an endless void of chaos.
"Come on Eli, try it one more time," says Mordecai, pressing another stone into my hand. It's flat, all the better to skip. The shape is close to the circle that he has taught me would make the stone a perfect skipping stone, except one side has a large dent and the opposite is a little bit pointed.
"It's a heartrock!" I exclaim, and we laugh at just how perfect the rock is. How perfect the moment is.
"Well, throw it already," says Mordecai, faking the impatience with me he never feels, even when I know he should.
I fling the heartrock out as far as it can go, and it hits the water, throwing up a big splash, a spray of droplets flying up into the air. Then, it leaps up again from the water, flying out to the side where it throws up another splash, this one even bigger, and then sinks down, down into the lake's depths.
I reach down and pick up another stone from the endless beach of almost-perfect rocks. A flat rock, almost a circle but just a little bit off. A heartrock, just like that one so long ago on that most perfect day, so long ago right here on this very same beach.
I throw the heart away from me, not out to sea, but towards a large boulder behind me.
It hits and shatters into pieces.
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Well, thought my last story was dark? I just somehow wrote something darker. I promise to try making the next one happy!! But this was weirdly fun to write.
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I'll send out my soul
To worlds more beautiful