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[Mini_vegan]

I Don't Understand
How are you Daddy?
It's been forever since we've spoken.
I guess we let this whole time pass,
And now we're completely broken.
Do you miss me the way I wish you would?
I can't imagine you do.
You've never sent cards or letters,
Even though I'm missing you.
My past attempts seem to mean nothing,
It's nice to know you care.
And even though you don't know how,
I've always wished you were there.
So, how are you daddy?
It's been a while.
I miss your laugh
And I've forgotten your smile.
I'm not even gonna ask,
If you've ever missed me.
Through the unanswered phone calls and the time that's passed
The answers I can see.
It's funny how fast the time goes,
But 13 years have come and gone.
Maybe you thought I didn't need you,
But you were oh so wrong.
How are you daddy?
I hope you're doing well.
I'm learning how to deal with the pain,
I think you can probably tell.
Don't ever try to make things right,
They'll never be the same.
In fact if it makes you feel any better,
You can just forget my name.
To you I doubt I even exist,
I don't have a place in your world.
I hope you're doing well daddy,
Love, your little girl.




Daddy can you hear me as I scream out for you?
I waste every breath and fiber I have, even though I'm being used.
You said you'd always protect me, always care
But where were you when he hurt me? Where, where where?
He crippled me and hurt my pride
Not once but 4 times, right under your stride
You have abandoned me, but I miss you still
I cry and doubt I become pale and ill
You know nothing about me because you left
I whisper and I yell yet you still seem so deaf
Life is never fair
My mother always told me this yet I will never care
Like a magician, you pulled and act
And disappeared, just like that
Daddy can you hear me now
I guess not, wow. Just wow.



Big, fat Santa bounded through my halls;
He made everything shake, even the walls.
He ate all my cookies,
Drank all my milk;
He had heavy boots,
And a coat made of silk.
Over his back he carried the toys;
Some of them, a lot of them, even made noise.
He smelled like fresh, tobacco smoke;
He gave my favorite tree an irritated poke.
A grumpy look came upon his face;
This guy is crazy, and I bet he carries mace.
He reached into his bag, so I thought for gold,
But out he pulled, a big lump of coal.
With an angry look, he set it down with ease;
Then walked up to my chimney, and gave his nose a squeeze.
I'll never forget the obese man in red;
I'll hate him forever, until the day I die



Drama;
Silence;
Who wants violence?
Dark dreams;
Evil screams.
Hold on strong.
The fight is nearly gone.
Fighting to breath.
Fighting to see.
It's hard to believe this is me.
I never saw myself falling to the blade,
But in the end this is how I'm paid.
Suffering from tears.
Torn from fears.
All I know,
I'm not sure why I'm here.
Told to live,
But living a lie.
Stuck in a place were everyone wants me to die.
Hurt and confused.
Broken and bruised,
Not sure what to do,
But I will fight till I can't move.
This is what I must do




Depression is a state of mind
But remember my dear, it is a crime
To cut the throat of a beloved soul
And suck the life from within the hole
Cross out the lies that cover your lips
Drink the blood with thirsty sips
Snap her bones into shattered glass
Hold your breath until the screaming pass
Shout her name from miles away
He doesn't move, he doesn't stay
Rip the wound with foolish tears
And cover the scars with dreaded fears
Taste the pain on your own bandages tongue
And drip the tears into her precious lungs
Shoot the smile from her face
And bring her to a forbidden place
Screaming she runs away
He doesn't move, he doesn't stay





The man in the cargo murdered my innocence and he took away my pride
He broke me down, shattered my trust, all in his stride
The man abused me, denied me, and watched as tears ran down my face
How could one soul do this? I believed I was in a safe place
Because of him, I fear just about all
And all I can do is blame myself ''how could I not escape? Not even crawl?''
My friends all dismissed me when I spoke of what had occurred
They ignored my my fearful plead for help, every last word
My eyes are now swollen, my bones nearly broken
For the man who stole my childhood holds it as his token
The people around me believe my words to be untrue
Congratulations, you fooled them, but they really don't know you
I told him no, even begged him to stop
Deafened by alcohol, he remained there on top
The man took away my voice, he is the bane of my life
The physical pain that night was comparable to a knife
Because of him I live in fear
I am afraid of any man who comes even remotely near
I walk alone now and I hope this guilt is a heavy burden to haul
Dear man-in-the-cargo-pants, you're not a man. Not a little not at all





The man in the cargo murdered my innocence and he took away my pride
He broke me down, shattered my trust, all in his stride
The man abused me, denied me, and watched as tears ran down my face
How could one soul do this? I believed I was in a safe place
Because of him, I fear just about all
And all I can do is blame myself ''how could I not escape? Not even crawl?''
My friends all dismissed me when I spoke of what had occurred
They ignored my my fearful plead for help, every last word
My eyes are now swollen, my bones nearly broken
For the man who stole my childhood holds it as his token
The people around me believe my words to be untrue
Congratulations, you fooled them, but they really don't know you
I told him no, even begged him to stop
Deafened by alcohol, he remained there on top
The man took away my voice, he is the bane of my life
The physical pain that night was comparable to a knife
Because of him I live in fear
I am afraid of any man who comes even remotely near
I walk alone now and I hope this guilt is a heavy burden to haul
Dear man-in-the-cargo-pants, you're not a man. Not a little not at all




I may be metal and have no heart
But in your life I become a part
Ask carve and carve at your tender wrist
I feel in your brain there must be a twist
Is it normal to turn to me for help
When if I scar another they scream and yelp?
You're feeling empty and rather alone
But I'm not left sitting alone in your home
In your bathroom cabinet I'm usually sealed
Although next to your heart your dreams become real
You use me to express your raw self hate
But should I be used in this way to create
The pain you long for, you yearn to feel
You want me for pleasure but your pain is real
What you're feeling inside, is not what you show
Unless its you and me in the bathtub alone
You try an keep your secret from those who protect
But is it right for this secret to be kept?
I know how you feel, cannot be ignored
But the slitting and cutting cannot be endured
I know that I hurt you and that's what you want
But you've gotten so pale, and withered, and gaunt
I shouldn't worry, you'll stop one day
But those deep dark scars will not go away
As the scarlet fountain seeps from your arm
I really wish you wouldn't do so much harm
But how can I protect you? How can I save?
When I am nothing but your trusty razor blade





From start to finish I wonder why
Te cuts look so good in this messed up lie
He blood that trickles down my arm
People all stare at the girl who self harms
''The emo'' they call me
I turn to my name
They act out slicing their wrists
I hang my head in shame
I can't help my feelings of being alone
I hide for the day
Just longing to be home
I sprawl on my bed
With my razor in hand
And take myself away
To a better land
I stare in the mirror
And let myself cry
Look forward to the day
I finally die



"Let me show you a secret" you whispered in the dark
You took me down the street and we played in the park
Yet once we go home your attitude changed
From happy to mad to joyful to sorrowful your mood quickly ranged
I was scared, it was dark, it was lonely and I was young
Slowly and timidly I saw your hands evilly wrung
You stripped me, of my clothes and of my pride
Told me "I love you" I hadn't realized you lied
You left me alone in this deep dark room
Staring down my immaculate doom.



Behind my smile lie my fears
Behind those laughs I hide my tears
I’m one of those you call fake
And the more I go the more I ache
I have a dark secret I cannot tell
Sometimes it feels like a wizard’s spell
I’ve been told it’s not my fault
How could I know it was assault?
I still see him everywhere
Why is that? It’s so unfair
He took away my innocence
He forced me into silence
They say I should forgive
But he’s made my life hard to live
I see him in my dreams
I hope he can hear my screams
It isn’t fair that he’s free
He ruined my life the day he molested me
I try to move forward
But it’s as if I’m anchored
I’m trying real hard
But still I’m so scarred
I try to hide my pain
Even though it drives me insane
To you I may seem happy
But deep inside I’m really angry
Because behind my smile lie my fears
Because behind those laughs I hide my tears
I’m the one you call fake
Some days I just wish people knew how much I ache




Mirror. Mirror on my wall,
I just want I be thin and tall
Mirror mirror, if I change my hair,
Maybe someone will start to care
Mirror mirror, if I starve myself
At least Ill be beautiful, forget my health
Mirror, mirror, if I cut my wrists
Will I feel like I exist?
Mirror, mirror, don't you see?
What you show is ruining me
For far to long it had watched her cry
So the mirror decided to reply
"What you think you see? It isn't true,
The misery is found inside of you.
Don't lock yourself in a broken soul
Or I promise one day, you'll lose all control."