I look around the surroundings I had put myself in: the tornado shelter under my house. There's no tornado outside, nature isn't threatening me in any way. Someone else is. For several years now, since my mother died, my father hasn't been himself. Him and I, we were close. We would play catch, go fishing, do things that most people do with their father. But when mom died, he left me. Not in the physical sense, no, but he was never the same. He apparently thought that I could never help him to deal with this hurt-that I was also experiencing- so he turned to alcohol. I've never understood his motives for doing so, and I don't think I ever will. However, I've always tried to help him.
Until today. Today, he's crossed the line. He didn't hurt me or anything, he's decided that nothing is my fault. That should be a good thing, right? Except for who it was that he chose to blame instead of me. My mother. My mother who died at the young age of 31 in a car accident. He's decided that all of his troubles were her fault, that it was her fault she died. I had thought some horrible things to reply to him in that moment, but instead I ran away. I ran here, to the cellar. There is no danger facing me, but I wish there was. I wish that right now, the skies would get dark. Dry lightning would crack it's way through and pierce the sky. An amazingly powerful whirlwind would spin its way over to my home, picking up everything in its path. It would blow away everything in its way, and with it, it would take all of my problems, all my troubles. They would be gone, just like that. They would be blown away.