ೃ⁀➷ 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕓𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪

[pearljam]

focused on your potential
not your actions

[pearljam]

i wish my hurt didn't bleed onto you

[pearljam]

dear creators,
do you even know me?

[pearljam]

i miss you so much
i miss you so much
i miss you so much
i would do anything to see you again
i miss you too much
the only way i can sleep comfortably is if a soft toy is in your spot, pressing against my chest
why can’t you just come back and lay at the end of my bed
please start purring again
please
please
please
please
i want you to come back
the thought of me never seeing you again is incredibly painful
why did you have to go

[pearljam]

9 months ago the song i related to the most by the smiths was “you’ve got everything now”
sometime in-between then and now it was “please, please, please, let me get what i want”
now it’s “back to the old house”
now i’ve reached a destination i thought was impossible,
thank you, whoever and wherever you are..
“rubber ring”

[pearljam]

my baby teeth live in this purple box
they have for years
the girl who gave me it is now a mother of two
i wonder if you remember that birthday party, because i do
kmart where it was bought had a different layout
one that i dearly miss
you’ve housed the pink angel necklace my grandmother gave me
now she’s widowed
i used to stare back at myself in the same mirror
i was the same, yet so different
im met with the same crooked teeth looking in my reflection
but i no longer have the innocence i once did
i didn’t know what was going to happen in the years to come when i first saw myself in your mirror
oh purple jewellery box, how many memories you hold
you used to live in the first house we lived in in this country
i will keep you safe
you’re one of the only consistent belongings i have left

[pearljam]

and you looked so much more alive
i don’t blame you,
things will end up working out
but there will be pain in the process
some people will need to go
some may have to leave your life abruptly
some in a slow, painful process. i think you’re experiencing that right now
you’re allowed to say no
you’re allowed to leave
how he was treating you wasn’t okay
how she was treating you wasn’t okay
you will talk to who you want to again
others don’t have to understand why you don’t talk to them anymore
you’ve gone through a lot for a 17 year old and older me is proud of you
and how glad i am for 2021 to be over

[pearljam]

how i wish the world would go away
will i ever live a life feeling satisfied with myself
or will i always feel like nothing is enough
i want to feel how listening to john peel sessions make me feel
instead, your words haunt me
your words were poison

[pearljam]

will everything be ok?
you said it will be
but i'm not sure
what have i gotten myself into?
i don't have any money
maybe i shouldn't of left
but i had to

[pearljam]

her heart will determine the future