ೃ⁀➷ 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕓𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪

[pearljam]

you were my age once,

in the grand scheme of things, it wasn't too long ago

i do wonder why you think the way you do, i know you tried your best

workaholic you are

take a break for once

or am i only talking to a mirror?

[pearljam]

thank you for getting me this far,

i know i sound greedy but, could you please help me get to the finish line?

[pearljam]

i did it,

i did it?

i'm capable of this, the light at the end of the tunnel, what i've prayed for for years is now in the palm of my hands.

thank you

you are worthy of this - and there is no going back to your old life after this..

i love you & never let her words eat you alive like they once did, this is the start of your life.. not hers

oh how proud of you i am little me

[pearljam]

less than a week to go,

i wonder.

i wonder what you’d think of me? i know you’d be surprised it all came out this way
like a damaged spider web
i’m the spider mending it back together
but i hope you’d look up to me, at least a little..
i’m sorry i couldn’t rescue you at the time
but i’m rescuing you now

i wonder what she’ll think
how she’ll behave
i know i can only control myself & my own actions
but i wish she behaved more motherly
more proud
i don’t want you to be envious of me
i don’t like you talking negatively about me when i haven’t done anything wrong
only because my wings are ready to fly
i wish you could self reflect on your actions
why would i treat someone who treats me badly, well?
a parental figure surely would encourage me to stand up for and distance myself from an unhealthy individual
surely?

[pearljam]

time doesn’t stop for you

[pearljam]

i’m realising who you really are

why i had to leave you behind

why you came here in the first place

but i wish you cared

i wish you cared about me as a person instead of caring about losing something you wanted to control forever

[pearljam]

could you tell me what life could’ve been if we stayed in the snow?

[pearljam]

i was the bigger person
why can’t you treat me the same
instead you spread lies on my name like we never had those memories together
what were they to you?
someone who loves someone doesn’t treat them like that

[pearljam]

i'm really starting to have hope now, it's starting to sink in

i really am leaving,

i'll be in control of what i do..

[pearljam]

seasons of emotion