Prompt: knitting-needles & grandparentsxxxxxxxxxxxTheme: angst & softxxxxxxxxxxxDay: 09xxxxxxxxxxxWords: 432
xxxxxShe crept up the stairs with feather-light feet and her heart in her throat. Every step flooded her with memories; most rosy and bright-gold, but a few with the hollow gloom of heartache. Her fingers brushed the wall, and she remembered a time when there was no wall; only straw cobbing, built up by the loving work of many years. She remembered, as she climbed, a time when there were no stairs; when the house was an expectant skeleton, just waiting to be filled with laughter.
xxxxxThe walls had caught and held the echoes of all her joyful yells and the laughter of her playmates; the very stairs rang with the remembrance of bouncing feet. This house held so much love.
xxxxxSo it was weird to be feeling so sick.
xxxxxAt last she reached the landing, and turned left. There was the curtain, slung haphazardly in the doorway; it used to be the only door. There was the coffee-table, the ragged old couches, the sun-stained plywood floor and photo-splattered walls, bright with smiling faces. All from years ago.
xxxxxHer steps were like lead, she felt sick to the pit of her stomach. But this was something she had to do.
xxxxxNot daring to hesitate, she fled through the stifling room and into the next. She doesn’t remember, now, whether she eased the door open slowly — slowly — as if wary of some horrible beast, or whether she ripped it open and forced herself inside before her courage deserted her.
xxxxxShe remembers sun beating down relentlessly against the roof, flies humming against the window. She remembers light cutting across the bed in vast swathes; the bed that didn’t look like it had been slept in since that horrible nightmare so long ago. She remembers half-expecting to see a body on the floor.
xxxxxTearing her gaze from that area, she was met with all the belongings of the dearly departed. She remembers wanting to remember it, but being so, so afraid; she remembers wanting to leave, but wanting to take in everything. She saw the drawers, the clothes, the necklaces, the watch that was so familiar it ached, the knitting-needles that had begun so many projects but finished so little, still with half-wound yarn attached, and her eyes stung.
xxxxxShe remembers not wanting to be found but wanting to leave, hovering in the doorway with her heart on her sleeve and her pain in her eyes.
xxxxxWhat happened next is foggy in her mind, but she knows she leaves the room. And she knows no one caught her. But then the memory ends.