Poetry.

[FaerieBoy]

Birthday Party
By~ Kisu Kanashi

It was all fun and games
Until you finally came
I don't remember well
But into pieces everything fell
And when I awoke all alone
All I could see was blood and bone
I apologize for the gruesome fate
We through the monster's birthday party one month too late.

~~~

True Friends
By~ Kisu Kanashi

I was all alone
No home
No phone
I blamed you because you were there

I felt afraid
All the mistakes I'd made
And on this bed I laid
As I began to forget to care

I left you alone
No home
And no phone
Yet you never once frowned

You just smiled back at me
And muttered oh so quietly
Together, nothing is as bad as it sounds.

[Krenko]

I gaze out my bedroom window
Darkness is all I see
A scream I hear that must be near
The dark vision turns to a leer
A smile so evil and dreadful
Scares my right to the bone
A fear so terrifying it must be put to rest
You see it everyday, yet when you blink, it goes away
For souls for supper, it throws a fest
Better bring your Sunday best!
The fear that bothers and won't go away
The fear that lasts more then a day
It lives in your home
You see it all the time
But you say there's nothing there and expect everything to be fine
Webs and rattles
Demons and devils?
Stingers and biters
Creepers and climbers
What do you fear
Because it's here
I gaze out my bedroom window
All I see is fear
So many phobias
Thirteen each
My safe walls they try to breach
Everything that you can think
They are all here
Outside my window
They're all there
Outside my window
But, not here, with me
Still, tonight I will not sleep

[Medusa72]

Security
by: KK


Security is a false notion.
I think it's just an illusion.

Because everything you've ever had,
Can be ripped away...
Just like that.

I don't know if love is real.
But if it is, I can tell you this.

I don't want it,
Not at all.

Because you took everything from me.
When I thought I at least had your security.

[Medusa72]

"I'm no saint."
"I know."
"Then why..."
"Because," I said, getting frustrated that she wasn't understanding. "You are fiercely independent."
She paused, confused.
"I've never seen such lonliness in a person."
"I'm not lonely," she instantly defended herself.
"Really? Are you sure?"
"Yes. I'm sure."
Now she was the one getting frustrated. I needed to make my point, and quickly.
"Your confidence is intimidating. You live and breath... no... you thrive off of your reputation. Where you don't need anyone. But I can see through that, and I want to the person that you need."
"But why?"
"I'm ambitious."
"Clearly."
This is why I liked her. She was sarcastic. And one of the most imperfect people that I'd ever met. That's what made her so perfect though. There was no hope for me. I knew I would be enslaved the moment I met her. Everyone kept telling me I was pathetic. That she would only disappoint me; hurt me. I knew this, of course. I might be pathetic and hopeless, but I'm not stupid.
I just couldn't ignore her. She's the kind of girl who demanded to be seen, without even realizing that she was doing so.
"Look," she said earnestly, "I'm flattered and all, but I'm not interested."
I paused and looked at her. Like, really looked at her.
"Okay," I shrugged.
She looked surprised, but responded with her own, "Okay."





"Where've you been?" She asked in her demanding way.
"Right here," I didn't look at her.
A wave of emotion passed over her face.
"You said..."
"I know," I interrupted her.
Her face turned to stone. She started walking away but soon paused and stalked back.
"Look, I don't know what your problem is."
I began to say her name to interrupt her, but didn't get very far.
"No," she said firmly, "let me speak.
I don't know what going on. But in my experience you can't depend on other people you pick you up. So don't hold your breath. Get off your ass and do what you gotta do."
She paused and I had no words to respond with.
After that, she was gone.




Scenes reserved for future use by KK.

[Medusa72]

Neither of us ever asked each other what happened. We both knew it was over. So the question had to be silently pondered, 'what kinds of things did a person have to go through to understand such a level of pain. To never question why and just accept the inevitable of what happened.'
And so we lived.
We lived in misery and silence, but we still survived. Because that was the one thing we ever had in common. Knowing how to survive when we didn't want to, even when the world told us we would never make it.

[Medusa72]

After everything you put me through. I never thought I'd see the day where I could say goodbye forever and be at peace with it.
I never thought I would be able to let you go and still be happy.
But here I am.
Moving on.
And I'm happy...

I'm amazed with myself, that I've come this far.
After all of the pain, the tears, the emptiness...
After I hurt my body because you made me believe I wasn't good enough.
I never knew there could be a silver lining.

But there it is...

And I'm happy...

[Medusa72]

Half of me is still pitiful and feels like I'll never find anyone who will truly make me happy for the rest of my life. And I'm weirdly at peace with the idea of being single for the rest of my life. Like, I have friends and family, so I know I'll never actually be alone. So... why even try?
And then the other half of me is just like, "My god, I need to find me a man so we can raise hell, kiss a lot, and laugh at stupid jokes all the time. I want to be able to trust someone with the darkest parts of me, and likewise I want someone who is so comfortable with me that he trusts me with everything. I want to be able to tell people that I married my best friend even when we're so old and frizzled that we have to be in a nursing home. I want to have kids and tell friends and strangers alike, he/she looks like her daddy (pray to god they don't get my nose)."

[Medusa72]

"It's the circle."
She looked up wearily.
"You're okay with the world, and yourself. Not great, but okay. Then a person comes along and flips your world upside down. Suddenly, you know what greatness feels like. You begin to realize what happiness is. You get addicted. Then something starts to happen."
"What?" She croaked out.
"Someone gets bored, or distracted, or just decides that they're not good enough, or even too good. When that starts to happen, people drift apart until they are no longer together. Then you grieve and mourn that original feeling of greatness they brought you and what couldn't happened if one of you didn't screw up like you did. But after that, you're okay again. And it starts all over."
"But I'm not okay," she whispered, "It's been ten months and I'm not okay."
"That's because you really loved him. And there is no remedy for that."

[Medusa72]

It was 6 pm and I looked down to see someone calling me whom I hadn't spoken to in almost a year.
"Hello?" I answered. Of course I answered, I would always answer for him.
"Jane?" I could hear a touch of panic in his voice.
"What's wrong, Noah?"
"They said I was in an accident," his voice was shaking now, "And they... They said we're not together. I don't understand."
"Ok, Noah. Calm down, it's okay. I'm right here."
"Will you come here?"
"Of course, where is here?"
"Umm, I don't know. Jane, I don't know where I am. Please help me!"
"It's okay, Noah. Are you in a hospital?"
Noah was panting with anxiety, "I think so."
"Is there a doctor or nurse around?"
"Yeah."
"Ok, just give them the phone and I'll be there as soon as I can."

[Medusa72]

it's been five years since he broke my heart.
five years.
then he texts me out of the blue to say he's sorry.
five years.

five years later and I'm engaged.
i'm independent.
i have all the love and support in the world.
all the things he said i'd never get.
so he can have his apology back.
five years.
and I don't need it anymore.