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[Snowseph]

7/2/13
2:04 PM EST

Dear Journal,
This is outrageous. Maybe I only want to be friends, no more. I have realized that my friends and family are torn because I am dating Divine. Yet, if they absolutely truly loved me they would be happy for me. If Ara loved me, she wouldn't act like this. I did not act like she was trash, I want to be friends. I don't want to be anymore than that... I have known Divine for a long time and I have the feeling Ara only loves me for my wings... just my opinion. She loved before I even know who she was -- before we even met. I don't understand that at all... Divine showed me that she was the one for me, the one I know I could spend my whole life with. I just met Ara not too long ago... I love her, but not more than Divine. Ara could've shown me she truly loved me and that I should change my mind, but she did not. I would be delighted to be friend, more than anything, but I know she only wants to love me... more than being a friend.
I will say again, I will say it a million times, but I have the complete right to love whom I wish.

- Neige

[Snowseph]

7/2/13
2:33 PM EST

Dear Journal,
You know, I don't care if I post twice in one day here. I was told by someone what was in Ara's journal. I do not think highly of myself... to be on hundred percent honest, I hate my wings. Yet, I've known people who have loved me for my wings. My wish, my desire, is to be normal. Does anyone know what's like being me? These wings... they are a curse. I would've happily ripped them off if it wasn't for the pain.
Ara, if you are reading this, do not return to England. I can guarantee there is someone else out there, besides me, who is loving you at this moment, but your blinded by pathetic me to notice. Open your eyes, I know there is someone else out there. I am willing to help. I doubt you would like help, but you know, after all of this... I am going to be better than what my dad was with his incident. I am going to enforce helping... I highly suggest it. I would love to help you, Ara, finding a new love. <3

- Neige