- [myar] ;

[taichi]

Had I known that the small figure of his imagination was an utterly vital part of his mind, to condemn the idea of him writing a letter, I was only yet afraid, but had I known the letters were to him, himself, his younger ideal. I would've accepted it with open arms. Only then, did I realise that for once in my life, I could openly admit I was scared.

[taichi]

When the moon changes, the sky falls dull, the stars seek vengeance on all that casted them away, for they shine so bright, one so beautiful compared to others. Let a singular twinkle brighten the sky, but only the star that twinkles so bright, I aspired for to be mine. It tears me up inside, a tsunami in the ocean, but in my fragile heart. It shows no mercy, with that star so out of reach, the constellation's own dear royalty is precious, and me a mere mortal attempting to sweep it from underneath their noses.
I can admit I am not no moon dancer, I cannot skip from planet to planet, I can not jump from Jupiter and pirouette on to the rings of Saturn, nor can I braid the colours of Neptune in your hair, I know, I know, dreamers fall hard, however if I am to cut to the chase. Well, I have already fell, and the comfort of the solar system has yet to soothe me.
This one is so old and bad x.x

[taichi]

The lady's whistle is so mellow, she carries the songs of the ancients in just a simple note, the beauty flurries through her chest and out to her throat. She controls emotions like a button on a remote. Her eyes round and soft, green and blue, it's almost hard to let the enticing moments, fret you from saying "I love you."

[taichi]

Calm down, life isn't over yet.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off.
I'm holding a heart, I hope it isn't yours.
Don't give in, it's hard to stop living.

[taichi]

may the forest fires tear it apart and contaminate our previous purity.
excitement is the last day of our forever and misery the first day of our remembrance.
bliss throughout the days that we spend in company.
that i miss.
that i will miss.
may we, meet again.

[taichi]

i could only start with an apology that is full of endless regret.
for i am, so truly sorry. about things, things of many.
the words i should have said, that i refused to: do not worry.
everywhere you go, my hopes are that you were never reminded of me.
reminded like a criminal and their deeds.
if you have forgotten me. thank you, it is okay.
do not worry and panic as you notice that i am still alive.
my conclusions only draw to an end when everything is over.
a perfectly sported smile, only to be wiped away by a single dice.
there is much to love again.
laughter, such a sugar, a sweet. trickling upon our glazed skin in moments of retreat.
endless monotone mornings, where you danced and painted my sky all but grey.
only to be followed by the presently exhausted wishes upon the night.
what there is that i miss, shall never be returned.
that was our hello, melting down in to a goodbye.
waver away the hours drained in to creative ideals.
how it will be mourned for, in it's funeral of green.
our company will part now, i come to the final floor of the game i guess.
goodbye i suppose, but who will drain the life i so sorrowfully mourned for now?
the slate will no longer sound.
our story.
it is done.

[taichi]

hello. it's me again
the one whom hoped to be your dearest of friends
unsuspecting to our end.

its me, the one who was a fool for you.
only hoping that you'd be a fool for me too.
priceless moments, our world froze
only us, thrown to the throne.

thinking it would last forever
here i realise.
our beginning was created on nothing that a mere thread -
thread of lies.

it's me, nobody else
whom craved so strongly for your loving eyes
to no surprise, you are my re-inventor.
the one who taught me to feel, that lonely december

and although i cannot be the one to help you flourish
i hope that the future you stays well nourished
smiles and warmth, all you are meant to obtain
a loving person by your side, an absence of pain
from now until the end of time.

my love, it's me.
it's i, who wishes to say goodbye.

[taichi]

i was out on the street
far away from you, far away from us.
crying my heart out from mistreated trust

a thought so accrete.
the undying memories of love
could begin to push
and make me desire
something more than us.

i was out on the street,
collecting my thoughts
piecing together, which feelings were caught

heart strain, such a damper

[taichi]

i loved you once
that i know i did.

i loved you like rain loved the shine
two polar opposites who’s worlds intertwine.
the ways you walked, and talked - reminiscent of heaven
you occupied my thoughts, twenty four - seven

i loved you, but i don’t know why
looking at it now, all those things i never, i want to try.
my heart was yours, and rightly so
there are responsibilities we swore to never let go
but in moments so fleeting i saw your true face
fickle, sullen, fallen from grace.
not half of what you were sworn to be,
your true identity remains a mystery to me.

as i sit here, shadows crawling down my shoulders
this hatred i bear, this hatred i shall smolder.
my thoughts begin to unravel, escaping this forborne, tassel.

for a moment i shudder
was your love for me, all-in-wonder?
the second i show you the real me,
you deal in thoughts this crude, and so effortlessly

yeah i loved you once,
that i know i did.
but back then, i was just a kid.

[taichi]

just feel, really feel
one more time, this is my premiere.
one more climb, doomsday is near.
to be besieged for my crimes, to be the sacrifice of cohere.
the flagbearer of prestige, i ought not to hear.
and all the people, i can hear their sneers.
and all the people, i can see their cheer.
i have seen a thousand lifetimes, i wish not to see a thousand more.
all those dull night times, are nothing to adore.
all those dull night times, are nothing but a bore.
swallow your pride, tell me can you adhere?
swallow your pride, tell me can you see how severe?

just feel, really feel
it bellows in my head, what minor words he had said.
and with that one continuous moment, i take my last breath.
for my sanity, had finally fled