by huddson » Sat Oct 15, 2016 3:31 pm
teenager
Sel held her breath, once again feeling the weight of her backpack, and the situation itself. The school loomed in front of her. Crowds of other Kalons were hanging around the doors, chatting and laughing, already having friends due to it being the middle of the year. She exhaled. Checking the time on her phone and rubbing her worry stone again, she walked into the school. The map she held was still blurry, and so she narrowed her eyes to read and follow it. Echoes of an argument between her parents rang in her ears as she stood at the door to the classroom. It was wide open. She narrowed her eyes again, blocking the blurry points of light on the ceiling from her view, covered with a black that she assumed was the back of her eyelid.
"Llo. Ust bay Eelna... Eela Vin? Lcome to i cass. Eem mess flmmng. Er aims Slena Kee Evin, ut oo t callh i er ull naym or uhm vvh sem?".
Selena blinked. This teacher sure was talkative, but that didn't mean Selena knew what she was saying. Hesitantly, Selena raised the back of her right paw. It held the words 'Please repeat what you said'. She felt hot, and though she couldn't see them, she knew the other students, her fellow classmates, were staring at her and the ink on her paw. She inhaled silently, trying to breathe deeply.
"Are oo Eelna Eel Der?".
Selena thought quickly; nod, or stay sitting there confused? Hesitantly, she nodded and exhaled.
"Oo. M miss flem. Ake eat".
She slowly made her way to a place at the back of the room, bumping into several desks on the way. She rubbed her worry stone again, but it didn't help. Though everything way blurry, she knew where she was at home; here, the colours and locations were unfamiliar, and she started to get a headache. It pounded in her ears, blocking out what little she could hear. It hurt.
"Ee zelc mm Selna. Elna, what oo unt ee khall dh? Leena, Eela, Ehbin ah ing s?".
Selena's head shook involuntarily. She blinked again, trying to make out which of the large shapes was her teacher. She raised her paw again.
"Hut oo lled?".
That was even worse. Her headache pounded more in her head and she rubbed her worry stone once again. She kept her paw up.
"S.. Eela, Deh...".
Selena's eyes started tearing up and she tried to take a deep breath, keeping her paw up and shutting her eyes tightly. Her face heated up again.
"I ant oo ee... Elna?".
Selena wondered why she had agreed to this. Perhaps it was while Mom and Dad were arguing, and she had unknowingly nodded? She took another breath and opened her mouth.
"I... I... oont ere weh... wehll. Oh ee. Oh speak". She opened her eyes quickly. She had said a word properly! But she assumed the teacher wouldn't share the teen's joy. In fact, she imagined the face on Miss... Miss's face to be disgust, anger, even fear.
"Uht?".
Selena lowered her head. How was she to explain? She was stuck here, until the end of the day, and then Mom would force her to go back. Evidently the Kalon hadn't bothered to explain of Selena's... 'condition'.
She decided to try something else. Rubbing her worry stone, she pulled out a white square from her bag... Paper, yes, and a pencil. Shaking, she placed the lead to the page and tried to spell the words. I... c-a-n... t? Space... h-e-e-r w-e-l-l... Or... C... Or s-p-e-e-k. Looking down, it only appeared to be shaky, blurry black lines on a striped white background. She prayed others would be able to read it well. My... m-o-m-m, twold m-e to g-o h-e-e-r-e... I t-h ou-t shee toh-lld u... She sighed and lifted it up. She knew the teacher must be squinting now, to read her shaky paw-writing. She knew she had misspelled some words. Her eyes stung and her headache pounded once again. She blinked again.
"Uh?"..
She turned the paper around to write something else. Let me gu-st sit heer unteel it end.
She thought she saw the teacher nod. Exhaling, she rubbed her worry stone, letting herself relax with the cool feeling on her pads. She let her head slide onto her desk, closing her eyes so the new blurs wouldn't make her headache larger. Sighing, she let herself fall into a sleep.
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