Another suggested adopt! i accidentally drew the extras too small sdfjlsfdalkj
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doll wrote:- thick eyebrows
- large hands
- sharp canines
- a few chipped and crooked teeth
- shorter than average
- stocky/muscular
- scratches/scars
- braids small bits of hair sometimes
shadow wrote:- formed from teacup
- very small (teacup sized)
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End date: May 30th
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xxxxxxName Allah [All-i].
xxxxxxGender Male.
xxxxxxPronouns Masculine.
xxxxxxSong xXx
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xxxxxxName Saul [Saw-l].
xxxxxxGender Agender.
xxxxxxPronouns Agender.
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╚════════════════════╝______________________________________________________________________________________________________________Allah's Personality.Care to peek into the mind of the fragile ego deemed as Allah?
His personality is grouped within different categories. Each trait is shown in two ways; how it manifests in a positive way in him, and how it manifests negatively in him as well. Also note that i'm subdividing them at three planes -- physical, vital, and mental; divided in ways that relate to one's success and accomplishment in life, breakdown of traits amongst human values, and so forth. I will begin with core traits then go down into traits in play and so forth!
Traits Breakdown.
Sociability↳ Focus
Allah's attention is generally internally focused, concentrating on how the external affects his own personal world. He takes physiological measurements (generally heart rate) in different situations to assess his reactions to stresses and emotional states because he finds the way his body reacts without any mental control on his part to be fascinating. He's often interested in how he responds to things as much or more than the things themselves.
↳ GregariousnessAllah tends to have a pattern of unstable and intense relationships. It's almost as if he idealizes potential caregivers or lovers at the first or second meeting, demanding to spend a lot of time together, and share the most intimate details early in a relationship. However, he may switch quickly from idealizing other people to devaluing them, feeling that the other person does not care enough, does not enough, is not “there” enough. Which, again, may ither be real, or imagined. He can empathize with and nurture other people, but only with the expectation that the other person will “be there” in return to meet his own needs on demand. Allah has shown to be prone to sudden and dramatic shifts in his view of others, who may alternately be seen as beneficent supports or as cruelly punitive. Such shifts often reflect disillusionment with a caregiver whose nurturing qualities had been idealized or whose rejection or abandonment is expected.
↳ Forwardness
Allah doesn't mind working with those that he knows, but he'll keep to himself for the most part as far as working in groups with others other than the occasional murmur. He's afraid his idea isn't worthy enough to take into consideration or it'll just make him appear less appealing or intelligent as he already feels he presents. In all honesty, he's extremely intelligent and deserves recognition, but comes off as a little forced and awkward around others. Depending on who he's with, determines the reaction you can expect. If it's someone he cares about, he treats them almost like a child, even being a child himself. "Look both ways before crossing the street," "That's hot." If it's someone he doesn't care for, then the social interaction drains him, friends bring out anxiety.Allah is deffinantly a reserved person, as he is not good at vocalising his desires or emotions and he worry that he may put himself in a vulnerable place revealing too much without the establishment of some level of trust. He feels he has to know about people's motivations before he opens up to them, and even still it may be difficult for him to fully express himself beyond his anxiety at times. He finds it difficult to approach strangers, even if he and they have interests in common, unless he is in an environment where he feels happy and comfortable and secure.
↳ Attachment StyleHe makes frantic efforts to eliminate abandonment, however, this abandonment isn't always real. A great deal of it is in his mind as well. The perception of impending separation or rejection, or the loss of external structure, can lead to profound changes in his self-image, affect, cognition, and behavior temporarily; very rarely sticking for overly long period of time. Allah is very sensitive to environmental circumstances. He experiences intense abandonment fears and inappropriate anger even when faced with a realistic time-limited separation or when there are unavoidable changes in plans. He may believe that this “abandonment” implies that he's been “bad," and these abandonment fears are related to an intolerance of being alone and a need to have other people with him. His frantic efforts to avoid abandonment may include texting the person frantically, calling frequently to "check up on them," or even become anxious and nervous. Panicking during such a situation, real or imagined, is an understatement.
He finds it hard to stay included within a group, especially because his anxiety tends to get on certain individuals nerved who don't know yet how to help Allah channel his anxiety long enough to have a decent time in an outing. He is very prone to cliquishness because of this. Though, he enjoys having the advantage of being able to look over his people better this way, and is one way his anxiety is channeled. He sides with those he knows over the ones he doesn't, even if they're wrong he'll still side with them over the ones who are right. He may not approve of his friend's argument, but will go along with it anyway for the fear of abondenment comes creeping at the back of his skull. Though, as explained later, he'll make excuses for anyone.
Relational↳ Empathy and Sympathy
He'll quickly make excuses for others quicker than he'll blame. Such as: "Oh! He only did that because he thought this, this, or this." Then brush the encounter or problem, no matter how big or small, off as if it were nothing. However, of course, it has some pretty great advantages too! He manages to keep his cool under situations others would find difficult, and completes them with ease. His too-often cool demeanor gives off a respectable vibe when he steps into the room, something that many make haste to achieve, well, until they start provoking him to speak. Then, however anxiety floods the place like crazy. For good ole' Allah, it comes all too natural. Being open minded creates many doors, as far as his creativity goes, and helps him out a lot in the confidence apartment. Many things he does you may consider to be unique or not often seen, and that, my dear, makes him smile brighter than ever before to feel appreciated.
↳ Egocentricity
Realistic, optimistic, and yet sympathetic- they are a daunting trio that all lurk within the haven of Allah's brain. He tries to remain optimistic such as: he spilt his milk, but at least that's less calories he's consuming. He tripped and fell on his face, but at least he made others laugh. Most of the time, his decisions are very grounded and realistic, though he almost always finds a way to remain optimistic about it. Sympathetic on the other hand? Well, Allah is very easy to guilt-trip, so tell him a simple sad lie and he'll become all sympathetic and sad with you. Maybe even aftempt a few jokes to cheer you up while he's at it, as well. How do these traits clash, you ask? Even though Allah remains realistic about things, if it's sad, he's going to become sympathetic. Whether the sympathetic part was actually needed or not. He has the tendency to feel empathetic as well, which provokes his sympathy, to an extent. The situations during this occurrences, are rather odd as mentioned before, he'll make excuses for just about anybody.Allah puts the needs of others before his own. Also known as, Altruism. This changes on slightly depending on who he is around, though. When he is around strangers he still tries to help, but has a chance of declining. He becomes hesitant and weary and afraid at their reaction. He self-sacrifices a lot, it is a big problem with him and one that he is trying hard to balance in a more productive way. His priority is maintaining peace and harmony, even if that means giving up things he wants. It’s his default mode of behavior, what really changes is how resentful he is of it. He will back down from family conflicts or disputes with people he is not close to, to regain some level of harmony even when he is not in the wrong, but he will resent it and feel short-changed. It is another thing entirely with friends, where his priority is to make them feel comfortable no matter what he gives up. He is rubbish at identifying his real needs, object things. Such as, he's out of milk and his friend asks if he needs anthing from the store. He knows he's out of milk but instead of declining the offer and coming up with excuses for them not to go home or to leave just yet, or asking for help or for them to be fulfilled. He finds it hard to verbalise the things he wants of such nature and he worries about inconveniencing others. A lot of this is leftovers from living with emotionally manipulative people and falling into a habit of letting them make decisions for him because it would cause less conflict. His sense of self is strongest around supportive friends who defends his right to be himself, and weakest when he is stressed and absolutely ignoring his own needs to maintain external balance. He doesn't feel that his identity is drawn from other peoples opinions of him (it is still a very internally constructed thing based on his personal values and observations of how he interacts with the world) but the validation of his identity as a tolerable thing means a lot to him and strengthens his ability to express himself. He doesn't have a whole lot of needs, at least in his eyes. To everyone else, most particularly his friends, he comes off as very needy and high maintenance, emotionally. Truthfully though, there's nothing he can do to change this. He does try, however, to lessen his clingy anxiousness by meditating. It has helped him channel it, at times, and takes a small load off of his friends. Allah has learned, however, that when he is with others, it helps him feel less emotionally drained. This isn't just with his friends, though, as odd as that may seem. His friends are his main worries, but at times it's almost as if he worries about the entire world. You and I know that there's nothing he can do, but he seems bound and determined to make sure they're okay. He likes to walk down the densely populated sidewalks, as it makes him feel as if he is protecting 'his people' even though he's not even so much as seen them for they are in their houses. It's strange for someone who is seemingly weary and hesitant of strangers to want to help them, yes. But it makes him a little more calm and is another way his anxiousness is channeled.
↳ TrustHe is generally wary of new people in his sphere of experience, because he don’t like showing his vulnerabilities. He needs to spend a lot of time carefully probing people for their opinions and beliefs before he can establish if they are safe to trust. He trusts in others’ feelings/emotions or ideas/thoughts, but doesn't trust them as a whole. He is very suspicious of their actions and so comes off as even more anxious with them than he is with his friends. Though, he does worry if they're okay or not, even though he's not close to them, as mentioned in the Egocentric section. There is always a level of emotional empathy required for him when it comes to trust. Once he has warmed up to them he becomes more open and willing to share with them, and with the people he trusts the most the only limit to how much he is willing to tell them is his ability to vocalize his feelings (which is unfortunately quite stunted, he just exhibits the actions that tell his friends that he wants them to stay. Such as, getting anxious when they speak or mention of leaving). In regards to entrusting things to others he tend to have faith that anyone he has observed doing something proficiently can be relied on to do that thing and takes mental notes of it for later use. He is not good at delegating because it takes almost as much effort and energy to ask someone to do something for him as it takes to do the thing himself so he tends to be fairly self-reliant for, again, objects, as a result. He isn't vocal about his feelings neither, though he expresses it through actions and makes it clear to the other person he is expressing such feelings towards/friends.
↳ Straight Forwardness and ManipulationHe considers himself to be quiet the manipulative person, but in a benign way. He is very good at reading situations and moods and maneuvering around potential conflicts to head them off before they start. He puts a lot of effort into doing this to protect himself and those he cares about. He feels that if he was more motivated to play social politics he would probably be a dangerous person, but he don’t have the energy or drive for it. He plays people to keep the peace if he is going to play them at all, which is something that doesn't happen often at all. He is, however, very, very naïve and can be played and manipulated easily. He knows how to do such things well, but doesn't know how to pin point it when others are doing it to him. Conscious of one's weaknesses and strengths, yet never puts them to the test, he let's them lie there within the depths of his mind. He vows to use them to his advantage on day, though he most likely won't. He likes to create mental situations an contemplate how the Doll in mind might react towards it. Though, he never creates situations like this in real life. He does like to take mental notes of how they react to certain things when he's with them and possibly reassess their weaknesses and strengths later on. It's all in his mind though, so it's not like he writes it down or anything. It helps him decide whether he should do this or that with them based on what they're best at. As you could probably already tell, Allah's very detail oriented. He notices the smaller things most people ignore or just fail to see. He feels as if it's vital for him to notice the smaller things. Even the smaller things like to be noticed, too! Allah's communication skills? They're awful! He can talk to a friend or maybe up to four friends, but when it comes down to talking in front of a crowd or a largeish group, he freezes up and panics. Which, is also why he can't excersise authority or leadership. Anything that revolves around speaking in a group or crowd, he can't do it. We're not sure if it all boils down to not having courage or maybe even his insecurity. Of course, you have to have verbal skills when it comes to being in a team, right? Wrong! Allah would rather happily do whatever the leader of the group instructs, rather than voicing his true opinion, his open-mindness comes into play here. He's easy swayed in his decision and remains naïve, so he doesn't really have the problem of holding his tongue. He just rolls with the punches! Now, onto Allahl's negotiating skills while we're talking about verbal skills. Or rather, the lack of it. They're very poor. Allah should never be left in the hands of a good sweet talker. Geez, or a salesman. Because man, they could talk him into buying the whole lot of cars if they wanted. This also sways his views on negotiating as well. He'll believe the other Doll's bargaining is far better than his own reasoning, and it'll end up reasulting as what the sales Doll, or a Doll trying to win an argument, wanted in the first place.
Structure↳ Assertiveness
He's not one to challenge authority. Rather, he accepts it. He'll look up to anyone who claims to have authority and listen to them without bothering to ask for proof. Which tends to make him more than just a little naïve. Though, he is loyal and devoted. Once he becomes loyal or devoted to you, it's hard to shake it, and he won't believe rumors until he hears it from the source. Which makes him the prime target for others looking for someone who will believe every word they're saying. Once is loyalty and devotion is broken, there is no gaining it back. Being open-minded and tolerant completely has it's advantages, such as taking in more opinions, scaling more options, listening to others quietly while assessing all probabilities in a situation or problem, however, his naïve nature tends to sway into motion in his life here as well. Because he accepts authority, he automatically trusts higher figures decisions. This doesn't really change much in other situations, though you do have your rare occasions, of course. The situations in which this might happen is when he knows without a doubt what he's talking about. Facts, that is, not gossip. He'll speak up and voice his facts, but he won't stay engaged in an argument. He'll voice his opinion and back out of the argument very early in. Though, very rarely does this ever happen, explained in the section Egocentricity.
↳ Boundary-keepingAllah doesn't think he has boundaries beyond those the average individual might possess, and for the most part, he's right. Though he is still an extremely private person, and doesn't like to be pressed for hounded for information. He can share space pretty well even with people he is not terribly close to, and am happy to share things about himself so long as he doesn't tell them things that they can deem as being used against him (interests and job and background are fair game, details about his identity and interpersonal relationships are not). Once he feels safe around a Doll these boundaries break down entirely and he is generally happy to share anything with them. He is uncomfortable when people he doesn't consider close to him act overly familiar with him but generally doesn't assert himself in any way to stop them from doing such. Again, he deals with breaches of his boundaries with avoidance, but he generally does not have many situations in where this comes into play. He is very receptive to other people's boundaries and tries his hardest to be respectful of them and check where they are so that he does not cause any distress, and he will defend his friends’ limits from people who are pushing them, slightly, anyway. As he tries to avoid confrontation as much as possible.
↳ CompetitivenessAllah is not a competitive person at all. He finds it stressful to have to compete with others, and when drawn into a competition will often self-sabotage or bow out to avoid nastiness. Competition requires drive, which he generally lacks when it comes to competition and confrontation, and it risks conflict, which he dislikes. He likes to be good at things in his areas of interest, but he tends to push himself in these instances rather than competing against others. He does the things he does out of enjoyment and personal satisfaction, which is something that competition doesn't do for him.
↳ RespectShowing respect to others is part of his pacifying/conflict-avoidance mechanism. Being respectful ensures less abrasive interactions. He tends to treat everyone on an equal playing field unless they are throwing their weight around, and he is only resentful if I he feels the person is doing so out of malice. He works fairly well in hierarchies, though he sometimes forget they are meant to be there (I.E.: Have recently become good friends with a client and sometimes find it hard to remember that professional distance and he struggles to delegate tasks at work despite being in a more leadership role than others). He will defer to greater experience and knowledge, regardless of where it comes from on the official hierarchy. But since he automatically accepts authority, he becomes naïve and oblivious when they tell him or others to do things out of malice, sometimes even when others point it out it is still hard for him to picture or see it clearly.
Emotionality↳ Sensitivity & Anxiety
ExperienceAllah has a identity disturbance, persistently unstable self-image or sense of self. There are sudden and dramatic shifts in his self-image, characterized by shifting goals, values, and vocational aspirations. There may be sudden changes in opinions and plans about career, sexual identity, values, and types of friends every once in awhile as well for Allah. He, sometimes, suddenly changes from the role of a needy supplicant for help to a righteous avenger of past mistreatment; or possibly the helpful servant to the citizens. Although his self-image is based on being bad or evil, he may be found at times to have feelings that do not exist at all. Such experiences usually occur in situations in which the he feels he lacks of a meaningful relationship, nurturing, and support. He'll show worse performance in unstructured places such as some work or school situations. He strives for structure, nurturing, and support. Allah display affective instability that is due to a marked reactivity of moods. Such as: intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days. The basic dysphoric mood of those is often disrupted by periods of anger, panic, or despair and is rarely relieved by periods of well-being or satisfaction. These episodes may reflect the her extreme reactivity to interpersonal stresses. It may also relate back to imagined or real abandonment and other similar cases. He is troubled by chronic feelings of emptiness. Easily bored, he may constantly seek something to do, and frequently express inappropriate, intense anger or have difficulty controlling his anger; he may display extreme sarcasm, enduring bitterness, or verbal outbursts. The anger is often elicited when a caregiver or lover is seen as neglectful, withholding, uncaring, or abandoning. Such expressions of anger are often followed by shame and guilt and contribute to the feeling he has of being evil. During periods of extreme stress, transient paranoid ideation or dissociative symptoms (e.g., depersonalization) may occur, but these are generally of insufficient severity or duration to warrant an additional diagnosis. These episodes occur most frequently in response to a real or imagined abandonment. Symptoms tend to be transient, lasting minutes or hours. The real or perceived return of the caregiver’s nurturance may result in a remission of symptoms. He is very sensitive to stressors, and criticism is one thing that for sure gets him every time. As explained above, his anxiety is caused by his friends and selected family.
↳ HostilityHe has a lot of small neuroses and there are a lot of things which irritate him, but he is generally an easy-going and placid person. He has a reputation for being a anxious influence, and has an extremely long fuse and he has a lot of patience (and can fake patience and tolerance in situations where he is irritated by people). He tends to shout his micro aggressions into the void more than he actually acts on them in the real world. Alternatively, he ignores them and distracts himself with other things until they build to the point at which he can no longer function. His anger is only effective if he acts on it in the heat of the moment, otherwise it boils away to resentment and sadness (most of his negative emotions melt into sadness fairly rapidly, which can get overwhelming).
↳ OptimismHe is probably closer to a realist than an optimist, but has the tendency to be both. A realist with high hopes, perhaps. He feels that life is always going to be a mix of good and bad because there are always going to be good and bad people (in a subjective sense). Being around people he personally sees as backwards does tend to tarnish his view of the universe. He likes to hope that things will improve and that the world will become more tolerant and inclusive, but he is aware that without a lot of work these changes he would love are going to happen slowly. At the end of the day he has idealistic hopes for the world, but a realistic understanding of how much work is required to achieve these hopes.
↳ ModestyAllah has the capacity to judge others. In many different ways though. You already know he idealizes others, however, he also tends to judge them rather quickly. He judges beans in his mind though, and it may not be in the way that you're thinking. "Oh, she's pretty skinny.. Wonder what her life story is. Think she might have an eating disorder? Or just a fast metabolism? Drugs perhaps?" Though his judging isn't final until he finds out for himself. Almost like his judging is nothing more than a hypothesis that he's trying to find the real answer too. Perhaps even becoming friends with them to run "experiments" and analyze the conclusion. Even while he's judging someone, he knows not to take it to the bank, because he knows that there's always the chance that he's wrong. He likes to call it safe-judging. He accepts what's given and remains thankful for what he receives. He isn't obsessed with material objects, and would much rather go and find older, broken miscellaneous objects rather than acquire something new. Although this sounds like the perfect trait to have, it has it's pros and cons. He's thankful for everything he's given, and accepts it whole heartedly every time. Which makes others, like family, feel as if he's being a smart-elic. So, they never truly know what to get him for his birthday or Christmas because Allah treats everything with the same reaction. (Unless it's something he truly, truly likes because then he gets overly excited!) Though, keep in mind that anything Allah gets, she puts to use in some way or fashion. If he deems it as unusable or something he knows he can't put to good use, then he will donate it to others who might be able to put it to use. Allah doesn't throw things away. Not even if they're broken. For the most part, his family estimates that he likes plushies, and they're right on that one. Allah keeps them all in a box in his closet, and when he's having a moment when he needs security, he'll cuddle with one.
↳ Self-confidenceOn a scale of one to ten, his self confidence would rank a three. He likes to think that he is largely aware of his capabilities and boundaries. He certainly has his limits, and they are the source of a lot of his insecurities. Most particularly when he struggles with things that are simple for most people, like basic mathematical concepts or remembering the faces of people close to him. But he is quietly insecure even about the things he knows in which he is capable. Merely because he isn't sure if he is good enough and always has a fear that someone is going to one up him. He feels that he can rely on himself most of the time. His self-confidence starts to slip when he becomes stressed and can no longer rely on things he is usually capable of. Such as: difficulties concentrating or focusing his brain due to overload from the environment, difficulties with motor function due to illness or fatigue, or when people he doesn't trust starts to focus on his insecurities. He's always slightly paranoid that someone is laughing at him or making fun of him, or he's the butt end of joke that caused the snickers and laughter when he walks out of a room.
↳ Impulsiveness
He is an all-round cautious person. He doesn’t like risk, he also doesn’t like putting himself in danger or exposing his vulnerabilities. He prefers to hang back and fully assess a situation before engaging with it, that way he is less likely to make mistakes which he will later regret or which will cause trouble for him. He is fairly stable and reliable once he does manage to commit to a thing.
↳ AdventurousnessAdventurous and curious, Allah will strike out on his own and walk along the line of nowhere to gain a sense of peace. Yes, this boy is quiet the adventurous one, although he's very averse to risk and will not attempt to place a foot anywhere he has to think more than once about. He will go out of his way to find the answers to something he's curious about, and the same applies with his adventures. "What's this?" "Oh, what's that!" "Why's this here?" and he'll often find himself walking and exploring further than he actually means. Though due to his excellent, photographic memory, he takes mental notes of what he's passed and where. So far, he hasn't gotten lost. Let's hope it forever remains that way! She doesn't do well when the sense of 'lost' overwhelms him. During these times, Allah loses his cool and becomes very panicked very fast. Although he tries to keep a steady head on his shoulder during these moments of crisis, it almost always gets the best of him and he somehow, some way, makes things worse than they were. Once, he got separated from his mother and got lost in Walmart. A sense of panic overwhelmed him and he ran- quiet literally-- all around the store yelling loudly for his mother. Of course, he found her. Or, well, customer service did after bringing him to the front of the store and calling her name over the inner com. He doesn't mind trying new things, and, rather, enjoys trying new things. He finds it exciting and an adventure all in iself.
↳ AwarenessHe is most focused on social and emotional dynamics, sometimes at the expense of awareness of what is going on in his physical environment (if he is hyperfocused on people this usually manifests as him forgetting things or losing track of tasks). He can often come off as vague as a result, because he sometimes hide how much attention he is paying to people’s moods in order to avoid being drawn into conflict, or to seem as benign as possible. He puts a lot of effort into interpreting body language and tone, and feels uncomfortable and vulnerable if he can’t read people. He tends to be detail-oriented rather than focusing on the big picture, since taking things one small step at a time stops him from being overwhelmed.
Work Ethic↳ Orderliness
Allah's time managing skills are actually pretty good! Considering he feels the urge to be organized, he also likes to manage his time. He likes to stay fit and in tip top shape so he has a strict schedule that he sticks to where he can exercise, and have a little spare time too! Even when he goes to a friend's house (very rare) he still exercises. They think he's silly, but truthfully, he can't live without schedules. He doesn't know how to act or what to do. He likes to have every single part of his day planned out.
↳ Dutifulness & Achievement StrivingGoal orientated would defiantly describe Allah to a 'T'. And although this should be a good thing, he's plagued by feeling the need to strive for perfection. What you view as perfection, he views as not good enough. Even when you think you can't add anything else to make it look better, Allah will always come up with something wrong that can be perfected. Allah is very organized a habit picked up from his -family member here-, however even his stride for perfection has a play here, as well. He's almost always rearranging his room only to rearrange it again in the next few days. A shirt didn't fold right? Fold it again; this time a little closer to perfection. As you could Imagine, all of this takes patience. Something he has plenty of. No one knows for sure why he remains so patient with having to do things over because they're not perfect. We assume it's purely because he wants things to be as perfect as possible, though, we may never know. Now, one thing everyone can brag on about Allah is his dutifulness. He has the desire to resolve and fulfill obligations and his goal origination helps in this aspect here as well, he sets goals to finish his dutiful duties and allows others to actually be the first one they go to when they need certain duties or obligations to be carried out. Success, to Allah, means doing something right, not to be the first one to do it.
↳ Self-discipline & Decision MakingOnce he is on a roll with a task he can be quite disciplined and will often work solidly until it is completed. He can generate a lot of focus once he has gotten over the initial difficulty of starting a thing. Procrastination is a real struggle in initial stages of anything, because he can’t start things until everything is right or will get overloaded and put things off if there is too much going on around him. He also has significant troubles with self-control in regards to things like his dermatillomania, where he cannot stop himself from doing a thing no matter how much he screams on the inside. He requires a lot of external help to keep these sorts of habits under control because he does not have the strength to do it himself. He is very passive and a poor decision maker due to his naïveness. This relates to his inability to assert himself and also his conflict-avoidance. He has spent a long time letting other people make decisions on his behalf because it made for less conflict, he is easygoing and can generally compensate and work with whatever is happening. He shies away from leadership and worry that decisions he make might annoy or inconvenience people. If he is consulting with others in regards to decisions he will often prompt them as much as possible so that he can get a sense of what they would like to do and tailor his choice accordingly, but hesitantly.
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