- Thought that since the last one I made will be gone in a few hours, I'll make another. :3
I can't stop with these palettes.. Link~
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Mini Maned Mammoth's Name: Depeche
Mini Maned Mammoth's Gender: Bull (Male)
Why Do You Want This MMM?: The color palette on this boy is 100% perfect for me. <3 He really reminds me of a hyena, and I like all of the chocolate browns. Plus, who wouldn't love a boy with those handsome pink eyes? I'd marry him myself. |D
Story/Poem/Art: If anyone ever told you that life would be easy, they were dead wrong.
It's the most simple things in life that really shape your story. The tragic things fade away, but the smallest things, they form you as you go. Would you believe me if I told you that? Perhaps not. In fact, I must say that you probably believe quite the opposite yourself! I'm here to tell you that life is about believing what you want to believe, but getting judged for it.
Life isn't this thing where you "write your own story." You don't even get to chose it. The climax of your plot? Probably one of the worst things to happen to you. Don't tell me you'll never experience anything bad. If you haven't, you will. Why is this? Because the people around you; it is they who write your story. Like it, or not.
I was never particularly liked or disliked by anyone. Sure, I had friends, but they were few in number. I command few and submit to many. It's simply my personality, which is possibly in itself the very ruins of me. Me? Oh yeah, I'm a huge people-pleaser. What did you expect me to be? A holier-than-thou jerk? Or maybe a nerd that everyone shunned? Sorry about your luck, but I don't fit any of your stereotypes. I would get loud with you, but I don't choose when to get loud. You do.
Do you think that I honestly voluntarily handed my head on a platter to the world? Do you think that I wanted them to shape who I am? No, absolutely not! But the world is such a harsh and cruel place, that I could never see myself able to truly stand up in any situation. Sometimes it's just better to cry.
I live a rather casual life; a pretty normal one. Sports, academics... you name it. I'm just normal, after all. Is anyone nice to me? Not really. I think some of us simply feel very alone in this world. It wasn't until I was first told how ugly I was, and how worthless and stupid I wound up being, that I really understood the value of life itself. I realized how little my life and my impact mattered to some of the most ignorant people, and realized how much of an impact they had as to how I see myself, and how I should react to things.
Straight-forward? Me? Absolutely! I'm one of the loudest, most straightforward people you'll know. I have a loud mouth and a lot of opinions. I can be disrespectful, and I even mess up just like the rest of us. But I would never consider intentionally hurting someone to the point where they doubt their own personality and they doubt their own worth! I'm tired of crying. My gorgeous pink eyes are swollen from it, and it feels as though I've cried my tears so dry that they can't come any more. Isn't that crazy? Can you even fathom that? Truth is, I'm not afraid to cry in front of people.
I'm changing everything that everyone's ever expected of me. I'm turning my life around. Stereo-type me now, I don't care. I'm going from worthless to goody. If no one is going to notice me, I might as well recognize and respect myself. I don't want to be the kid trying to fit in that can't change his actions anymore. I don't want to be the person that everyone looks at and laughs at. The person that is hot-headed, and the one that can't take a joke. The one that gets so worked up and passionate. The one that can't find anything to do but grab their head and yell and scream until people understand what he means. Until they can just worry less about themselves and just sit down and listen!
But most of all, I'm tired of talking.
Fading into the shadows is best.
No one expects me to change.
No one will treat me any differently.
No one but myself.
Because it is not I that writes my own fate.
But they.
This story isn't truly a story about how Depeche's life worked, or even strictly about his past or personality. It's actually just more of a rant. I needed to get my feelings out, and I saw this boy as the perfect subject for pouring out my feelings. It is meant to be my feelings as well as his own. Yes, if I win him, he'll get a real story and personality, and some art. But for now, this will please me enough. It'll suffice, because whether or not I win this gorgeous boy, my venting worked, and I'll always love him.
Poem:
A broken heart,
Left from thieving.
Desires to start,
All over again.
Eyes quickly dart,
Begin perceiving,
All who are smart
Will flee.
Haiku:
Eyes pink, dark, and deep
A mourning heart of sorrow
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