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Res with firefighter that specializes in wildfires
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i'm afraid of the dark.
yeah, yeah, i know... it's pretty stupid and petty and childish, but it's not because of the reason you think.
it's because of the monsters- not the ones under my bed or in the closet, no, but... the ones in my head.
i'm fine during the day. in the day, i'm happy, i couldn't care less about what happened. i just enjoy it.
but in the night- in the dark- it all comes rushing back to me.
all those memories i'd rather forget.
the betrayals, the nightmares, those... thoughts. those thoughts that everyone gets but they just pretend that they don't have them because they don't want anyone to know about the demons that run through their head every single day, or rather every single night. they want everyone to believe that they're happy, that everything's alright, that they're okay.
when really, it's not okay.
their whole world is falling apart but no one knows.
that's my experience, anyways.
i hate the dark, and that's the reason why. up until recently, i had no solution. i would sleep with the lights on, turn all the lights in my house on... and it worked, for a little bit, but the electricity bill got too expensive. i didn't have the money, so i couldn't pay for it.
i'd just have to deal with the demons in my head.
but then... i thought of something. what about a bonfire? that was a nice idea. not only did it provide light, but also warmth, and for some reason, i just found it super comforting. i'd always loved fire as a kit when my mom lit the fireplace, so why not try one myself?
one night, i decided to light a fire in my backyard. don't worry, though, it was totally safe and i knew how to put it out in case things got out of hand.
after i got the wood and debris and actually lit it, i sat back and watched it.
let me tell you... i've never felt more... i dunno, calmed, enlightened- truly, really, actually happy.
just watching it flicker in the dark of night so brightly, with the dark, black, scary sky in the background... it showed me something.
even in all this darkness, with all these horrible, scary, dark things happening to you, you can shine as bright as the stars.
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