i do NOT feel like me right now and like i dotn want to say this out loud to anyone because i feel like im not allowed to do that but like. idk i definitely od not feel like me LOl. i feel like voicing this to someone else would e really weird. idk my head is all foggy rn i cant realy thinkg straight but i just feel like . i dont know. somethjing is differnt something really is. im not realy usre whats upo thought. i dont want to tell our uh what do i even call them? partner? i want to say partner but i feel like thats not right and they (not the person i referred to as partner, i think they would be fine with it, probby, idk, im now worried. im sorry) would not like if i openly called them that but at the smae time it feels right. idk liek partners in crime or something. like. i dont want to tell them because i feel like thats realy weird. and i feel like i shouldnt. ????? i wasnt expecting that thing to make me break down and dissociate this severely thats actualyl; kind of crazy, i dont think it was that bad now tbh like. i feel like i just made it up and made myeslfupset???? im putting this here so maybe they will like see it. im assumign they will remember this though? i dont know? `itw so.. weird! like . i dont know what is making me have this urge to say these thigsd lololol. and i like wnat a different name. except i dot really, beacuse im like basil. but im not basil. i am not. but also im like,, mkaing it up. lol what in the world is going on this is kind of crazy. i guess this is like the proof i wanted, idk , depending on how i feel tmorrow? my heads allll .. muddy and fuzzy...

( it feels so fuuunnyy....very silly and uh. whats a good word. idk. rambunctious. yes.
dont like, read this im literally just gong insane lol this will either be proof that i have a dissociative disorder that i cant realy deny for the first time or just me realizing i am compltely off my rocker insane!!!! but its okay i like being insane. i feel so funny actually like this is insane