warriors rant, may contain spoilers
why did i ever think it was a good idea to wander around looking up hollyleaf's death and variations of such
i've been crying off and on all day and really just want to stop for a moment and cry really hard but i'm surrounded by family right now and have no privacy and jeez
why self
why
would
you
ever
ever
ever
imagine
that would be good for you
good god why did she even have to die? it wasn't fair. she already "died" once, and so what if, as i know some people might say, she died to join fallen leaves in StarClan? it's cruel to kill any character twice, but hollyleaf especially. her death is by far the most tragic, imho- worse that spottedleaf's, silverstream's, feathertail's or whitestorm's. it wasn't the most creative death, but by far the worst, and it wasn't even necessary.
and now the erins are rubbing it in by creating more books in the current arc. i know they don't intend to, but it's really painful to return to the Clans after your favorite character dies...
Well. I hope she makes an appearance in at least one of these two books, even a cameo one, or I might just go ragemode on the whole series.
edit ;; it's true that i didn't mention badgerpaw/fang. his death was awful and tragic, and i think his is technically the worst; i cry every time i read it, although it's the same with hollyleaf. i would've been fine with them killing ANY OTHER CHARACTER besides her, or Jayfeather. Lionblaze? Mistystar? Even Cinderheart I would have rather seen die. hollyleaf's death sucks, and you can't really compare it to badgerpaw/fang's either. but it's true that he did die a terrible death, and i do have to mention him for that.