by *~.Imagination.~* » Mon Jun 15, 2015 3:37 pm
I feel like im an annoyance. Like i know my friend likes me as a person, but when he doesnt reply, or when i have to be the one to start the conversation /every/ time, i start feeling like im just a nuisance, and like im being pathetic by trying to keep these conversations going, and that i should just stop.
But at the same time, i miss him and i dont want us to stop talking. He lives halfway around the world and i wont get to see him again until winter. I like talking to him and sometimes we do end up spending hours messaging eachother and making plans that will never happen and debating and its perfect and i love it.
But more times than not, he barely seems interested in speaking with me. He'll stop replying, even though it says that he's online and saw it. And then i'll wait a few days, and he still wont say anything, and so i try again, with a new conversation. But it makes me feel so pathetic and so annoying and all i want to do is talk to him, but he doesnt seem like he wants to anymore, so im stuck between virtually giving up on a friendship that im already heavily invested in, or feeling unwanted and annoying in my attempts to keep it going.