TheComfortCorner | V.9

[Espresso. ༺]

I'm so terrified beyond compare to lose you, but I have no choice. I love you, I'm sorry nobody else will take you, let me take care of you like you did me. You weren't always kind, especially to me, but you were all I had. I guess now I'll have to be all you have.

[shadowplay]

I just wish for once I’d have a reason to stay happy

[marciplier]

shocked and appalled at the recent allegations to till lindemann. i went to see rammstein live last year and the band means so much to me. i dont know how i didnt learn about this sooner and its honestly made me feel... just horrible. i loved his music, both on rammstein and his solo project, im just.... im so torn. i really dont know what to think. im going to keep up to date and see what happens.

some of my old comfort music/media (example, in the past msi was a big comfort for me) came from bad people. and most of the time i do not know until years later or something comes up. i guess im just worried that somehow reflects on who i am and if im a bad person for enjoying things like that. if my interests are inherently problematic and bad. but i guess situations like this arent about me are they?

[viles]

• my phone got a new software update and now everything has changed. it has made me want to stop using my phone. i know it's stupid but i just,, ugh. it's got this weird animation and looking at it makes me like,, feel kinda sick??? and BRO my lockscreen clock is so ugly now :sob: i just,, my phone feels broken???? i know it works and im being dramatic but i just,, i wish it was broken so i wouldnt have to use it
  
  edit: i had to turn off all animations to get rid of the Offending One. i still dont like the way my phone looks when i interact with it, but at least it doesn't make me nauseated now.
  
  edit two: i downloaded a fake notification app so that i can have a Permanent Notification telling my clock how stupid it is (and also causing the clock to be smaller) i can't fix the fact that everything looks Different:tm: but at least i have ways to solve my biggest issues,, i still hate this update though lmao

[neapolitan]

why are things the way they are? why can't i just chill and have fun online? why do i feel the need to keep everyone happy, knowing it's a web and if you loosen one part, it will fall apart? you've somehow rooted yourself into all of my relationships and you could so easily just ruin everything i've built because you're angry. i don't want to feel like i can't do things cause it'll upset you... but i don't want to lose you either.. i just hope that if you get angry and never forgive me, whatever happens and knowing me something WILL happen-
don't... ruin things. don't give me a hard time out of spite. i don't mean to upset anyone but i can't always sit around and please everyone. i have a life and choices of my own and i'm not gonna make other peoples' choices my choices. i will not agree with any opinion thrown at me. i'm always trying to just keep myself sane and i can't handle the stress of knowing everyone i know could just straight up leave me.
besides, maybe i deserve that. i'm no saint, i'm just doing my best.. and it's not good enough. it never has been.

[The Shattered one]

I am quite upset and depressed now a days and I feel invisible online here too like everyone hates me by username and everything else I'm not a mean person I just am hated I suppose. (I suffer from high anxiety like everyone else probably on here.)

[eeep]

why am i like this? what is wrong with me? why cant i just let it go. i want to stop feeling. i should suffer. i am disgusting. i cant do anything to help the one person i really care about. if i wasnt in your life at all, maybe youd be better off. you dont really love me. why do you keep me around? i want to suffer. i need to suffer. its all i deserve.

[flooxii]

should I be happy you shared something with me or disappointed I listened?

[vist]

does anyone have experience with going to therapy as an adult .. ? perhaps could i get a dm,? ;^;
just having a really rough time , < / 3

[Soy Sauce]

I wish i was numb.
I miss her.
My heart hurts.
Im tired.
Its almost my birthday!