TheComfortCorner | V.9

[.destiny]

waking up most days just seems really pointless. there's no one to wake up to, no one to spend my day with. just no one. whenever i reach out to friends, it just feels like i'm bothering them whenever i speak. that my own existence is bothersome to my own friends. i'm trying my best to just live but i don't even feel human most days. just a thing composed of illness and pain.

i've been working on myself to be more physically healthy but that also seems pointless. even if i look the way i wanted, if it's not for someone's satisfaction then there's no reason to be. happy i guess ? i don't know why i even feel like this. but it just feels like i have to do things based on whether or not someone else would be happy. i just want to mean something worthwhile to someone, i guess. i don't really know.

it's hard to accept that i'll just be alone for a good portion of my life. i miss being in a relationship despite both of them being toxic for me. but at least it felt like someone loved me. i'll take anything at this point !! i just don't want to be alone.

[marciplier]

just... sad
unmotivated, drained, and defeated. id do anything to be with her

[LittleMaple]

My hose broke and at first it was like "haha funny mistake!" And I was fine about it! Drew up a silly little post and laughed! Then tonight after doing some minor landscaping I open the new hose we got. I'm excited to have one and it looks very nice, even blue instead of green. But after unraveling it and going through the nightmare that was getting it set up, I see it's too short. Yhis is just an inconvenience, of course. No real big deal. But I'm so unreasonably mad about it. Mom was trying to help and was showing that it'd be fine and that this was why we kept it in a bucket (it would shrink off of the porch when I drained it) but idk. I was really mad about it. I still am. I freaking hate change and the fact I have to water the flowers makes it worse. It's such a dumb thing to be mad about but I am and idk why. Ugh this is so stupid it's just a hose!!!!!!!

[flooxii]

I wish you loved me like I love you.

[neapolitan]

isn't it funny how absolutely terrible you can feel..
i have friends to comfort me but this feeling won't go away. am i supposed to just live like this? just tolerate that i don't want to be here and would rather just sink into the ground forever?
i wish i could just be upset over small things... this is too big to handle

[Guest]

I hate being sick and useless. This is the worst I have ever been and I can't get out of my bed or eat properly because everything just comes out. I considered going to the hospital but i'm terrified of needles and just the thought of having a catheter inside my veins makes me even sicker

[amaoretto]

definitely a hard day,,,
my best friend of 16 years is moving across the country today and i miss her so terribly. i’m so happy for this stage in her life, new job, new surroundings, but i’m so unbelievably sad.
her going to school was one thing, she was only 1.5 hours away, now it’s more like 2,000+ miles hahahaha,,,,,,,

not like i won’t visit her, but now hanging out with her will need to be planned way in advance and not just a text.
being an adult is so fun :,)

[kal!]

all my best friends have someone else thats bester than me

[CyberneticVampire]

I feel so unwanted and alone in this world. Why am I even here? Like seriously, I have no purpose, no energy no nothing. Nobody cares, no matter if I express how I truly feel or not no one will talk to me or be there for me. But I would drop everything to be there for anyone who needs me. It feels so unfair and I just want to lay in bed and cry until I can't anymore. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. How do I get someone to care about me? I really don't know what I'm doing here. My chest hurts and I just want to be loved and cared about. Am I asking too much? I don't know anymore. Just make this pain and loneliness stop. I don't know how much more I can take. Please. Help me.

[eeep]

everything feels bad :]
i really need to vent to someone