Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[tenor]

Dear Joel or Raina/Jessa,
You're in my sister's stomach right now.
I just found out that you're going to be born next March.
You have no idea how excited I am.
There's so many stories I want to share with you.
I have so many nick-nacks to give you.
Today, your father and I went on a golf cart ride.
I'm so surprised that he didn't tell me.
We even spoke about how excited we were!
You're going to be the most beautiful niece/nephew.
I love you, my sweet jitterbug.
~ Auntie

[wonpil]

dear k,
hate u ngl

dear m,
ur a true friend y'all others can't relate

[Jack Harkness]

dear j,

it's only been a day since my last letter and you've started to "drift" away from me.
did i do or say something wrong? did you finally realize how pathetic
i am?
i wish you'd just tell me that you don't want to be friends with me anymore
instead of just ignoring me until i'm done trying to talk to you.
what did i do wrong?

-gabby

dear family,

i wish you'd stop acting like my dad is a bad person.
sure, he did do some stupid things in the past, but
he's still not as bad as mom.
why did you just now tell us he was "leaving"?
was it his choice or are you just making him leave
because he does "nothing" while my mother sits
on her computer and talks to scammers on facebook?
you think that my sister and i would be better off with
mommy. but no. sure, my mom gives us some kind of care,
but dad at least doesn't speak to random scammers on facebook,
wishing for a random man/woman to come to our home and live
happily ever after like some fairy-tale like my mother.
at least he doesn't think about leaving us alone to fend for ourselves
in this war we call "life".
sure, he's immature. but he still knows when to be mature at the right
times.
he doesn't deserve to just be thrown out of the house and family with
no reasonable explanation.
i won't let it happen.
too bad i'm too scared to act upon anything.

-gabby

dear d,

why do you always act like your life is always bad?
at least you get to go to fun trips around the world during
summer. at least you have a functional family. at least your
parents don't scream at each other every hour of the day. i
know what your life is like. i've known you for almost my entire
life. your life is not like mine. and i'm not saying my life is oh so
bad, because in comparison to other situations, i'm lucky that i have parents,
a house, a bed and some kind of care.
please, don't try to make me feel "better" by talking about your own problems.
your father not giving you an extra slice of pizza is nothing compared to what
i have to go through at home. and you're lucky i refuse to show you it. or maybe
i'm just lucky. what if i showed you everything that happens on a daily basis? will
you think i'm too screwed up to hang out with anymore?
that's what a lot of other people thought before i never saw or heard from them
again.
i love you a lot, friend.
but you need to understand that i'm not looking to hear about your own problems
while i'm crying my eyes out, looking for some sort of comfort.
and i'm sorry if you think ranting about your own life is comforting to people.
but you should know that that doesn't help me in any way.
where have you been this entire month?
i see that you read my texts, but you never reply.
maybe i'm just being paranoid or clingy or whatever, but i would like
to hear from my only best friend. how is your dog? how is your life?
what are you eating for dinner tonight? how are you?
i'm starting to regret writing this specific part of my letter to you.
i feel like i'm slowly going mad because of this stupid situation.
i hope you never read this.
i hope you never find out how clingy and immature i am when it comes
to relationships with another human being.
maybe i have a fear of being alone?
i've basically been alone my entire life, though.
why now am i starting to feel so scared and helpless?
you're still my bestest friend in the whole entire world and i could never
ask for a better friend.

-gabby

dear me,

stop being clingy.
stop being immature.
stop being stupid.
stop being annoying.
stop being pushy.
stop being tired all the time.
stop ignoring your own needs.
stop trying to make everyone feel good.
they'll never return the favor.
so why bother?

-yourself

[strawbewwy.]

-
i love you to pieces but.
but i don't know how long
it's going to take for you to
realize again how aboslutely
horrible i am and how
undeserving i am of you
and leave again. i'm selfish
and terrible and mean and
i just wish you'd go away so
i don't hurt you because you
don't deserve that and everytime
you disappear for a time i get
anxious that you hate me and
are leaving but it's what i deserve
and you don't deserve to be stuck
'caring' for an anxious, horrible
to talk to, kinda clingy loser like
i am. just!! realize how bad i am
again!! leave me!! stop being nice!!
stop trying to get my hopes up it's
not fair i already know nobody loves me
just stop pretending like you do

[hiyorin]

dear m,
although we don't get to talk much, and during the very few interactions we've had i mostly tease you, i do think highly of you and i hate that you're not in a good situation right now and i can't do anything to help you. you're optimistic and outgoing even though you have a lot on your shoulders, and i'm proud of you for trying to stick up for yourself, because you deserve it. also, good luck on getting that girl ;)

[f1owercrown]

Dear ...,
I'm so extremely shy to talk to you outside class, and summer classes are ending and I may never get to talk to you again. I wish you'd start a convo, any convo with me, but I can't tell if you're shy too or you're just not interested in me. I hate how easy I fall in love, but there's just something about you that makes me happy. I think it's your sense of humor, or your cheery personality. God, I love guys who can make me laugh, and guys who also laugh at my jokes (pfft).You're sweet, and I can tell you're the kind of person I'd love to have a heart-to-heart with someday. In fact, we kinda had a heart-to-heart once before class, didn't we? I'm down for more, if you are too. I have so much to tell you.


Best of wishes,
one of your (best?) groupmates this summer class.



P.S.: Yuck, I can't believe I admit to myself that you're cute.

[crabs!]

hey, d..
our relationship was amazing at first
but nowadays, i can't tell if i feel the same.
you treated me really well, and made
me feel really good about myself for once,
but you've changed, and it's really strange.
i can't describe my feelings for you right
now, because i don't know where my head
is at. i've only been a committed relationship
with one other person, and sadly, i wasn't
ready for commitment, and i broke their
heart.. i thought i was ready, but turns
out i wasn't, and now, you're going to
end up like him, and i'm sorry for that.

what i'm trying to get across here is that
there isn't a nice way of saying this but...
i don't think i love you anymore.
"i hope we can still be friends"

[thorn.]

Hey babe,

Since you've left for boot camp I've felt beyond depressed and lost. I go from 6 wonderful months of constant contact with you, to suddenly being cut off for two months not knowing how you are, if you're ok, and if you still think about me time to time. I know I can send you letters, but in them I can only put on a happy face so I don't stress you. I know boot camp is difficult and stressful as is, and every person says to remain happy, supportive, and strong for you. That including any statements that point towards my unhappiness or worry may cause unnecessary grief and that I shouldn't say anything that may bring you down. So I don't. Sadly you don't know how much I've cried, how much I've longed for you, and how depressed and out of touch I've felt since the day you left. A little over dramatic? Maybe. However being told you don't leave until early 2018, and then suddenly "hey, I'm actually leaving in a month", is a big jump. I didn't have as much time to mentally prepare. When I was with you I hardly thought about it, but it made it worse for me when you left. And after you're done for boot camp, you leave for a school so quick afterwards... either the night of graduation or the following morning... Then you're on the opposite side of the country from me for one and a half years... I really hope I can come with you. At least in school you can text and skype me...

I wish the morning you left I sucked it up and gave you a bigger kiss... A better hug. I was trying so hard not to cry that I gave you a small hug and kiss before you left so I wouldn't burst into tears in front of your recruiter and boot camp buddy; and not be a big baby like you always tease me for. I really wish you'd write me or give me a call, but I don't think you have those rewards earned yet... so here I wait.

It's only been one week and it's already felt like an eternity... I can only hope my depressed thoughts leave soon, and I come back to reality... 7 more weeks to go... What I would give to be squeezed or bitten by you again. I always laughed and "complained" about it, but I would give anything in the world for it again...

I love you, and I am so damn proud of you even though it's going to be a tough handful of years. I will always support you and follow you wherever you end up. We'll travel the world thanks to your deployments... ha. What's funny is while you've been gone, even though I'm an emt I've been considering becoming a navy corpsman now... maybe we can work on the same carrier.

I love you, many kisses,


Your bg

p.s. you suck and I hope you get extra IT, nerd

[ryan!]

dear universe of next year,
please please please i'm getting ready but i know i'm not going to be ready you're like a tsunami just... please don't ruin everything i want to at least enjoy myself just a bit, if that's cool with you, universe.
this is basically me asking if:
keep my ex away from me please
keep my grades up please (haha)
give me a cutie to kiss pls
and make me happy at some point

okay <3 stay cool
love, sage

[wonpil]

dear n,
you're so annoying and lazy stop blaming other things that get in the way of your life as the reason you are where you are in your life. those things are supposed to make you stronger.

no love,
aylin