Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[f1owercrown]

Dear ...,
I'm so extremely shy to talk to you outside class, and summer classes are ending and I may never get to talk to you again. I wish you'd start a convo, any convo with me, but I can't tell if you're shy too or you're just not interested in me. I hate how easy I fall in love, but there's just something about you that makes me happy. I think it's your sense of humor, or your cheery personality. God, I love guys who can make me laugh, and guys who also laugh at my jokes (pfft).You're sweet, and I can tell you're the kind of person I'd love to have a heart-to-heart with someday. In fact, we kinda had a heart-to-heart once before class, didn't we? I'm down for more, if you are too. I have so much to tell you.


Best of wishes,
one of your (best?) groupmates this summer class.



P.S.: Yuck, I can't believe I admit to myself that you're cute.

[crabs!]

hey, d..
our relationship was amazing at first
but nowadays, i can't tell if i feel the same.
you treated me really well, and made
me feel really good about myself for once,
but you've changed, and it's really strange.
i can't describe my feelings for you right
now, because i don't know where my head
is at. i've only been a committed relationship
with one other person, and sadly, i wasn't
ready for commitment, and i broke their
heart.. i thought i was ready, but turns
out i wasn't, and now, you're going to
end up like him, and i'm sorry for that.

what i'm trying to get across here is that
there isn't a nice way of saying this but...
i don't think i love you anymore.
"i hope we can still be friends"

[thorn.]

Hey babe,

Since you've left for boot camp I've felt beyond depressed and lost. I go from 6 wonderful months of constant contact with you, to suddenly being cut off for two months not knowing how you are, if you're ok, and if you still think about me time to time. I know I can send you letters, but in them I can only put on a happy face so I don't stress you. I know boot camp is difficult and stressful as is, and every person says to remain happy, supportive, and strong for you. That including any statements that point towards my unhappiness or worry may cause unnecessary grief and that I shouldn't say anything that may bring you down. So I don't. Sadly you don't know how much I've cried, how much I've longed for you, and how depressed and out of touch I've felt since the day you left. A little over dramatic? Maybe. However being told you don't leave until early 2018, and then suddenly "hey, I'm actually leaving in a month", is a big jump. I didn't have as much time to mentally prepare. When I was with you I hardly thought about it, but it made it worse for me when you left. And after you're done for boot camp, you leave for a school so quick afterwards... either the night of graduation or the following morning... Then you're on the opposite side of the country from me for one and a half years... I really hope I can come with you. At least in school you can text and skype me...

I wish the morning you left I sucked it up and gave you a bigger kiss... A better hug. I was trying so hard not to cry that I gave you a small hug and kiss before you left so I wouldn't burst into tears in front of your recruiter and boot camp buddy; and not be a big baby like you always tease me for. I really wish you'd write me or give me a call, but I don't think you have those rewards earned yet... so here I wait.

It's only been one week and it's already felt like an eternity... I can only hope my depressed thoughts leave soon, and I come back to reality... 7 more weeks to go... What I would give to be squeezed or bitten by you again. I always laughed and "complained" about it, but I would give anything in the world for it again...

I love you, and I am so damn proud of you even though it's going to be a tough handful of years. I will always support you and follow you wherever you end up. We'll travel the world thanks to your deployments... ha. What's funny is while you've been gone, even though I'm an emt I've been considering becoming a navy corpsman now... maybe we can work on the same carrier.

I love you, many kisses,


Your bg

p.s. you suck and I hope you get extra IT, nerd

[ryan!]

dear universe of next year,
please please please i'm getting ready but i know i'm not going to be ready you're like a tsunami just... please don't ruin everything i want to at least enjoy myself just a bit, if that's cool with you, universe.
this is basically me asking if:
keep my ex away from me please
keep my grades up please (haha)
give me a cutie to kiss pls
and make me happy at some point

okay <3 stay cool
love, sage

[katarinabluu]

dear n,
you're so annoying and lazy stop blaming other things that get in the way of your life as the reason you are where you are in your life. those things are supposed to make you stronger.

no love,
aylin

[hellebore]

I was only quiet today because I was researching a million things at once. I'm sorry it made you anxious and I'll try to remember to say something next time. You can message me whenever you please; don't feel you need to wait for me. It makes me very happy to see a message from you.
Everyone has bad days and bad moods. If you think it's in your nature to be mean to people, then the only advice I know to give is to try to be mindful of being kinder and understanding. As I've said, I'll only leave those who treat me unkindly. And I can forgive, too. I am patient. I am forgiving. I know you won't take advantage of that; I'm stating it to reassure you.
I actually care about you. I love you. I am not very good at being helpful, but I do care.
I'm super tired so I guess that's all I'll say for now. I love you and I'm sorry I don't know how to convince you.

Good mother of god, this is such a deja vu. I said these exact sorts of things. Idk judging by the end, it didn't do anything I don't think, so I'm sorry if it doesn't help you, it didn't teach me how to be helpful. It just taught me a lot of
I don't want to fail you the way I did him. I don't want to fail you the way I did him!! I'm not good at this, but I always try my damnedest! What good that does. Help me god
Let me learn how to be successful this time. But then it shall only make me cry for what I didn't know before, make me cry for what good I could have done

[iinhaling_hobii]

I love you so much and I fear that we're breaking farther apart, you've met new people and had a great summer, while I'm here having a horrible summer, no new friends and almost every night I think about our future together and what's happened to us. I fear you don't love me like you used to, seems like you've had other people with you, too. I'm just wondering why you'd get with somebody you barely know on the internet, yeah, I did it too, but I just needed to try to get over you. That last day of school I went home thinking about the first day of school and how I'd hug you to death when I saw you. I cried for almost a week straight. You didn't seem to care that much after that, you've messaged me like we were never together, like we're just old friends. I just don't know how to take this, one second I'm fine, then the next I'm crying. You were my first love, you caused me to 'come out' to my mom on accident because I had you as my background on my phone. You're also the reason my mom doesn't look at me the same,and I got 'bullied' at school for 'being lesbian'. But I still love you. Just wishing you'd see how much.


~Your Ex, Maggie.
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[Echo Revna]

Please quite pushing me away, it hurts. Because of you, I am having depression for the first time in my life. So, 2 of your best friends are getting married and moving far away, you'll still see them, they are your family. Stop ignoring me! I thought we were friends, or more than friends. Just cause I talk to your brother a lot doesn't mean I like him more. Good grief! I thought girls were supposed to be the complicated ones, not guys! Please just talk to me.
I love you Jay!
Your Mallabia

[calculator]

lol hi,
just thought id let you know
i still love you
- ur local w.

[Gladis]

Dear Eun,
I can't believe how much time has passed. It feels like we only met yesterday, but sometimes I remember how the "yesterday" me was so naive & immature. & yet, you stayed for me the whole time. You stayed for me despite my unstable emotions & sudden mood swings, & you always encouraged me.

I still have the beautiful message you sent me when I told you how much I wish I wasn't me. You stayed even when "bagel boy" broke my heart & I became someone so different. You even "hype" me up 24/7 even when I'm feeling the worst; you never fail to lighten my whole day up. I feel like we've changed so much since, but you were here all the time. Hecc, people barely even stay with me for long once they find out what a mess I really am. Thank you for encouraging me & always being there for me & accepting me for who I truly am. You honestly do so much for me & you don't even realize it.

Thinking of you <3