TheComfortCorner | V.9

[basil!]

i feel so mentally exhausted ugh
trying to fiogure out how to make it better
i think i genuinely need a sensory room or like a small and dark crawl space that i can hide out in lol
i think this is autistic burnout

[stellulite]

Nothing ever goes right.
No plans ever go through.
I reach out with effort and never receive the same.
I'm so tired.

[StarWithRockDots]

I just feel like I'm not good at friendship, and it's kind of making me feel guilty. Talking about online friendships, for context. I just feel like doing my own thing most of the time, and I almost never go out of my way to personally message people or anything like that. I enjoy hanging out with people in public discussion areas, and I want to believe that counts as hanging out with a friend when there's one there with me and we're literally talking to each other, but I'm so worried that it doesn't for some reason. I'm concerned that I might be making people feel neglected. I really really don't mean to. Even worse, I'm worried that people might think I've tricked them into believing we were friends and then bailed on them. I'm just not generally the direct-messaging, privately-conversing type. Not so good at birthday/holiday wishes or knowing what to say when people are going through tough times either. And then there are times when I just totally disappear for a while when I feel like doing things other than socializing and uggghhhh I don't know

I don't think it was always like this. It might have something to do with me actually trying to avoid making friendships for many years (and I STILL DO a lot of the time). Maybe I just forgot how to do friendship

[bug]

Why does this pain still hurt? It's been long enough.. why won't it just go away, I'll never get him back like I used to have him.. idk I think it's harder to focus when thinking about the things that'll never happen, I just wish I could tell him that I miss him..

[Grayson.]

i can't seem to do much of anything, life is tough like trying to crack a coconut at 4 pm yet somehow i keep on keeping on. i want to make art but im not that good at it
suddenly i want to draw things and be good but it takes so much time and its hard to break away from what you're used to
i want to do something nice for someone but cant figure out what
i feel as though i may be a little disappointing. i certainly know i am to someone. old things like to creep back up, im always looking for new people and shutting out family to avoid the toxicity. i crave cheese sometimes, but im lactose intolerant. im too afraid of people in the real world and i dont know how to deal with it. The anxiety is severe, but online its so easy. I still cant decide what i want to be. Therapy sounds great, i think im good with people in that sense but not entirely normal conversation

[strawberrylament]

He acts like he didn't do anything. That it was all just some other stupid joke. That he didn't shatter my emotional and mental health for months.

Screaming, crying, running to a teacher, getting him removed from my class, nothing seems to work. Nothing can get through to him.

He continues to say it. Sends his friends after me like I'm the villain here. Now I have random people mocking me, calling me horrible things because he told them some twisted, delusional version of the story.

He turned my entire friend group against me, because I was stupid enough to have the guts to stand up to him.

I've tried to act like it doesn't affect me, tried to snap back with a clever retort. But he never stops.

I'm just glad I'm transferring out of here next year, I cannot deal with their people anymore.

[pandaa]

this isn’t really a vent, just dk how to react

so i have a young cousin, and me and my mom were on video call with my aunt/other cousin and my mom brought up that she noticed him flapping. i have a cousin who is autistic and she said it reminded her of him.

and so i brought up that i do it too sometimes, like i’ll make a fist and shake them when im excited/happy and she just sorta acknowledged it but didn’t say anything else.

but i felt kinda weird after because my autistic cousin i mentioned before had pretty bad meltdowns and outbursts when he was younger, so i think my mom sorta just has the association of autism = loud and destructive (which is obviously not the case for everyone) but yeah it just felt kinda iffy

[flooxii]

can't believe I did that.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry..
I'm so stupid. why did I do that.
I feel like you don't like me anymore.
I'm such an idiot.

[ryo asuka]

i always feel like a goober using this thread but whatever! yolo! Im actually so devastated over moving out of my dorm & going back home. i dont want to. at all. my life has gotten so much better since ive been away and im going to miss my friends and my professors and my classes and generally im just going to miss my freedom :( . maaaan this sucks
edit: ok so this got so much worse my bearded dragon passed away a bit before i moved back home and my parents told me on the car ride back (i respect this decision btw they didnt want me to be grieving when i was trying to survive finals) and im so devastated . my poor little guy was only 5 & died rather abruptly before the vet could even figure out was wrong with him . it wasnt anyones fault . theres no reason for me to feel guilty. but i still feel so bad i couldnt of been there for him before he died. and im so upset hes gone i love him so dearly

[heepheep]

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