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[nervousdog]

Just seeing that my best friend thinks that I'm talking trash about her hurts me. I would never talk trash about my BEST friend T.T when ever I posted on one of her threads ot would always be somehing like a "good job, I miss you and can't wait for you to come back to colorado" kinda post. Jist seeing that she would even think I would stoop low enough to talk trash about some someone...

[thє dσctσr]

Just seeing that my best friend thinks that I'm talking trash about her hurts me. I would never talk trash about my BEST friend T.T when ever I posted on one of her threads ot would always be somehing like a "good job, I miss you and can't wait for you to come back to colorado" kinda post. Jist seeing that she would even think I would stoop low enough to talk trash about some someone...

Hunny, it will be ok. Talk to her. Explain you havent talked bad about her.

[downtongabby]

Just seeing that my best friend thinks that I'm talking trash about her hurts me. I would never talk trash about my BEST friend T.T when ever I posted on one of her threads ot would always be somehing like a "good job, I miss you and can't wait for you to come back to colorado" kinda post. Jist seeing that she would even think I would stoop low enough to talk trash about some someone...

Oh you guys, you don't need this drama :c One of you needs to just call each other on the phone, and get this whole thing straightened out, or at least attempt to talk to each other <3

[Kaliyana]

I apologize for the long rant...

Did you just.... Did this really just happen? Or am I having a really, really bad dream?

You were my best friend for four years.
You were the only one who knew the horrible things about my past, and the horrible things in my head and didn't run away screaming.
You were the only one who understood exactly what I was saying when I stuttered so badly that everyone else looked at me like I was some kind of freak.
You were the only one I would drop everything for.
You were the only one that, when you lost one of your good friends, skipped classes with you because you couldn't stand to be alone. I almost failed all of my classes, because I was too busy making sure that you were okay and not hurting yourself anymore, had to make sure you weren't drinking yourself into a coma. All the while dealing with own crap at home, and in my head, and my own terrible thoughts.
You were the only one that I had loved since her, and the only one who "loved" me back no matter what.

And you tell me now, that after everything we've been through, after all that I've done for you, I was just annoying you the entire time we were friends? I was driving you nuts with my constant babbling and stuttering, and laughing every time you burped, and asking if you wanted to hang out because I needed to be away from my father?

I meant nothing to you?

You kissed me!
You made me feel like someone loved me when no one else did.
You made me feel like I was important to at least one person in the world.
And now you tell me you were just using me, screwing around with my feelings because you needed to know if you were gay or not?!

And worst off, you don't even understand how wrong that is.
You think you weren't doing anything wrong.
Like it was okay to kiss me when you knew how much I liked you. Like it was okay to tell me you loved me, when you didn't.

This, this right here, was the exact reason why I don't trust anyone.
I told you this was why I don't trust anyone, why I'm afraid to let anyone get close to me, why (when they do start to get close to me) I push them away by being a jerk.

I can't even understand this.

So now, not only did I just lose the person I thought I was going to end up dating, but I lost my "best friend" in the process.

And the saddest part is, he actually was the best friend I've ever had.
I think I need to make better friends...

[Yuki.]

I feel really down.
I.. I just dont know. Im stressed. Im jealous. Im tired.
It seems that everyone except me gets babied through life. Everyone at my school, especially the kids I end up around, always cry when something happens, like a small bruise or their knee feels funny. Shut up already. I feel like **** all the time and you dont see me getting a ride home from school. I can have a 104 degree fever and my parents will still make me go to school. I can break my leg and I wouldn't be allowed to cry.
And my brother, who is six years older, gets babied every day. He's an adult for crying out loud! My parents are paying for his gas, his little college funds, his books, his girlfriend, his food, and is letting him stay at home for however long he wants. While I get all the lectures about how were tight on our money so I can only go to college if I get a scholarship. And how If i want something besides food from the fridge Im paying for it myself. I have my savings account, and they have to take money from that to pay for the bills.
If were so broke, then stop buying him everything!

Im tired of everyone saying how poor their life is. How their so depressed and need attention. There is nothing wrong with you! Especially when you have a large supply of food in your cabinet, a loving family, and money to get whatever you want. Your not depressed. I don't care how mean your friends are. Thats your fault for hanging out with them. Thats why I dont hang out with you. Well, most of the time. I have to sometimes otherwise im afraid the school therapist will find me again.

Im just sick of everyone. There is only one person who I don't get migraines from but he hates me ini and his ex too. She tries her best to make my life hell as I try to stay as far away as possible.

Im just really sick of being the loner who sits by herself in the corner at lunch.. everyone always calls me the stereotypical emo or goth. I dont believe in emos or goth, for those are the same things as calling yourself a b**** or a prep. Im just really sick of everything right now, and i can't wait any longer to turn 18

[Lake Petal]

I'm so sick of life.

I'm sick of my phony friends who are only there for money or to get me back later.
I'm sick of my parents who don't give two ticks about how I feel.
I'm sick of this homework that I have been slaving my butt off all day to complete.

I'm sick of this websight, how everyone bullies one another.
I'm sick of my feelings, always getting me down.
I'm sick of trying to be what you want to be.
I'm sick of this hollow void people call emotions.

I'M SICK OF LIFE.
I'm sick of all its downs.
People say it gets better but guess what? I'VE HAD MAJOR DEPRESSION FOR 8 YEARS BECAUSE OF THESE STUPID DRUGS I AM FORCED TO TAKE. That's not "getting better" Nothing is going to get better. I'm sick of waiting.
I'm sick of all the times I have tried to end all the suffering only to be called a freak.

You know what I am sick of most?
Knowing no one cares. Knowing that no matter what happens, my life is but a minority. Who cares about some stupid kiwi, who's dreams where crushed in an instant the other night. Who cares about this one girl sitting at the corner of life, about to meet doom?

No one. That's who.

[DragonLoverHere]

I'm so sick of life.

I'm sick of my phony friends who are only there for money or to get me back later.
I'm sick of my parents who don't give two ticks about how I feel.
I'm sick of this homework that I have been slaving my butt off all day to complete.

I'm sick of this websight, how everyone bullies one another.
I'm sick of my feelings, always getting me down.
I'm sick of trying to be what you want to be.
I'm sick of this hollow void people call emotions.

I'M SICK OF LIFE.
I'm sick of all its downs.
People say it gets better but guess what? I'VE HAD MAJOR DEPRESSION FOR 8 YEARS BECAUSE OF THESE STUPID DRUGS I AM FORCED TO TAKE. That's not "getting better" Nothing is going to get better. I'm sick of waiting.
I'm sick of all the times I have tried to end all the suffering only to be called a freak.

You know what I am sick of most?
Knowing no one cares. Knowing that no matter what happens, my life is but a minority. Who cares about some stupid kiwi, who's dreams where crushed in an instant the other night. Who cares about this one girl sitting at the corner of life, about to meet doom?

No one. That's who.

Hehe... No One, huh? Well, pleasure to meet you Petal. I'm No One, the person that cares.

*hugs tightly* Pming you.
DLH

[GoldShadowDragon]

I'm sure you get scenarios like this quite frequently, but here it goes.
My friend is dating my crush.
I just recently changed schools. It was against my will, but apparently my brother needed a larger, more hectic school were his grades could inevitably fall to a bottomless pit. My parents continue to believe that this school is better, even though I went from straight A's to straight B's. -.- I don't have any motif to do good at that school...
But, that's besides the point. Before I switched schools I developed a crush like any other high school girl. We had so much in common... I tried to resist but I couldn't. He was apparently depressed for a while after I left, getting a bit cold towards people. I didn't date anyone at this school because of one reason: him! But I just recently learned that he started to date my neighbor/good friend who has absolutely NOTHING in common with him.
I'm pretty strong when it comes to emotions, but I'm just falling into depression. I don't even know what to do. It's pretty obvious that he hardly cares for me anymore. It's just... Ugh. :c

[zakki]

I've just been feeling so STRESSED lately, so much to do on and off CS, and so little time!

[mango sherbet]

I admire people who can keep their mouths shut, because I am not one of them. When I get upset, I just have to say what I think, you know? I'm sick and tired of it. It doesn't help that I get pissed off really easily, over the most trivial of matters.
I also seem to be developing a talent for unintentionally annoying other people. It's completely idiotic, and I don't even mean to do it. I'm not sure anymore how to hold my tongue and be polite. And I feel everyone respects me less because of it.
There's a lot more i'm unhappy about than that, but this is what's bugging me at the moment, so I figured i'd post. Even though I've tried to convince myself many times my peeves are too trivial to bring to a thread like this.