There's this guy I've liked for about three years now. Back then, it was just a simple 'Oh he's so cute!' kind of crush. I don't know what happened to me along the way, but it intensified every year. So, this year, my new years resolution was to get over him, since I didn't have the guts to talk to him and he didn't want to acknowledge me. Usually, whenever I talk to him, I get butterflies, I'm nervous, I can't think straight, and I'm somewhat shaking. But today, he was just lounging on some grass with his friend and when I happened to walk past him, he asked me a question. I looked at him, dead in the eye, and just said a calm response as if he was someone I don't know. I though I had gotten over him then and was so happy.
Now, here I am, in the late hours of the night, feeling like crying myself to sleep. Why? Because I feel this emptiness inside me and it keeps eating me away faster every second. Usually, whenever I felt this a few months ago due to other things, music made me better, but now it's not helping at all. I have a feeling it has something to do with him, then again possibly not, but has anybody ever experienced this kind of thing before? Any advice as to how I should take this?