| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[fika.]

ahhh sorry I'm posting on this thread again i really need to get this out

(Let’s just call these friends A and B, shall we?)

Okay, A has been getting really mad at B lately for a really childish reason. I too have been having problems with A, and she’s becoming more and more of a bully to me. One day, B decides to come to me for advice, and of course I give her some. B ended up telling A what I told her, and I didn’t say anything negative toward A, I only gave B advice on what to do and how to handle the situation. Now, A is really mad at me and she’s making me feel really guilty by saying I said she was an awful friend (which I have not at all done). A is quite popular around the school and word has gone out to quite a lot of people, except I look like the guilty one, and A looks like the victim. My problems with bullying have been getting worse since this. I have people turning on me, calling me disgusting and a monster and etc. A has been saying awful things to me and constantly making me feel guilty about something I have not done. She knows exactly where it hurts most, and she's been hitting all of those spots, making sure not to miss a single one. I can’t take it anymore. It’s not my fault. I’m constantly anxious and I feel like everyone hates me. But I haven't done anything wrong, or have I? I know there’s people that care and I know I have people that are there for me, but how long will it be before they’re influenced by A’s poison?

sit her down and tell her that
you never said that crap. you don't deserve
hate for something that you didn't do!!
A needs to realise that she shouldn't listen to
rumours.
gosh some people do indeed make me mad :c
just ignore everyone and tell a
to stop spreading rumours about you when
you never did anything.
you're better than ALL of those bullies.
good luck <3

/vent/

My boyfriend asked if we could take a break and I assumed that a break isn't necessarily a bad thing. I've been overwhelming him lately so I understand why he wants a break and I didn't think it was a bad idea. Although I didn't think we should take a break I agreed because I knew he needed one. I would've rather just given him a week or two to think things through rather than calling it a break because calling it a 'break' sounds very negative.

In short, he's the only person that I've felt like this about. Ever. I've had crushes before in high school, but he was totally different than all of them. He's the only person that has ever loved me for who I am. I was bullied pretty badly in middle school and emotionally abused by someone until around Christmas of last year. The only person that has ever been there for me is my boyfriend and two of my friends.

He lives an hour away so we don't have the capability of talking every day. We see each other usually once or twice a week, and I love him more than I've loved anyone else.

We decided to take a break yesterday and it's breaking me. I am trying to give him space by not talking to him and it hurts. I cried for hours last night, almost threw up and cried myself to sleep. I woke up this morning in tears because I was having an intense nightmare. Then I realized that he wouldn't be there to comfort me and I started crying.

The thought of losing this boy kills me. If this is how badly it hurts to only be taking a break, I don't ever want to lose him.

I honestly just need a hug so badly.

/end aggressive venting session/

mini cat hug
listen, as you said, it's just a break!
don't worry about losing him, you guys can
make this relationship work!
don't overwhelm him so much, try not
to text him too much. if you can get through these couple weeks,
your relationship will most likely be stronger than ever.
you'll be fine <3
good luck <3

dipped into my own head again
been swallowed up by sickness
its all my fault
i did it
me
nobody should've drunk as much as i did, both times.

hey hey you'll be fine,
just take a lie-down and drink a lot of water
and think things through
don't feel so guilty
good luck <3

I'm extremely depressed.

I actually don't know how much longer I can stand feeling like this. I'm hurting emotionally so badly and it's starting to affect me physically. I feel like I'm going crazy because the pain is unbearable. I can't think and I'm incapable of doing anything.

I've literally spent the past 12 hours staring at the clock watching the time pass agonizingly slowly. That's not even an exaggeration. I actually spent the entire day watching the clock. Every minute that goes by feels like an hour. I don't even know why I'm counting the time, but it's all I can do. I'm too sick to my stomach to even eat. I have literally done nothing today because even the thought of watching TV or something like that sounds overwhelming.

I can't say much more without breaking the forum rules. I'm just in such a dark place right now. I've tried getting help but it's all just a temporary solution. When I relapse, everything stops working and it's like it was all for nothing. I can't talk to the people I care about because they get very angry with me for saying these kind of things and accuse me of saying it to make them feel bad. I pretty much have to keep my mouth shut unless I want to feel even worse. Right now, I would do just about anything to feel better.

i want to pm you about this, so a pm is coming shortly.

I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone or anything

psst. wanna know a secret?
you are good enough
you're good enough for you you're good enough
for that person you're good enough for anyone
and everyone and everything.
you're doing just great in life, okay?
good luck <3

I just feel sad. All the time. And I feel not good enough, and I'm really done with everything. I need a hug and someone to talk to.

you are good enough (as i said above to oceantree),
please don't ever think you're not!
you're so important in this world so don't
ever give up!
you can get through this <3

I will never get a boyfriend.

don't rush through life!
you're so young!!
you can get through this!!
you will get one!
it takes time c:
the right person will come one day!!
good luck <3

Lately I feel like I've been more rude, cynical, and more easily angered then usual and I don't know why. I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings, but I feel like I'm unintentionally pushing people away. I don't need a response, I just wanted to vent because I feel like I'm going to explode.

that is fine to vent
and i want to give you a response!
it's okay to be feeling like that, we all
have our off times
(sadly, i'm like that 24/7 tho)
but maybe next time you feel like
you're getting angry, try rubbing your index
finger and your thumb together in circles.
it helps loads!
good luck <3

Ok seriously
I had to see a person to deal with my 'worries' if you can even call them that
And by the time I was done I wanted to smash through the door and trash the waiting room
He talked slow like I was an idiot
And worst of all, at the end he wanted to talk to my mom so he sent me in the waiting room alone??
Like, I had already been through enough that day and as soon as he said it I started crying aka a sign you're bad at your job
I think my doctor meant another person when he said 'oh, all the other kids love him'
Oh, and I have to see him again.

h elp plz

hey, you might hate him but just remember
he's only doing his job!
he wants to help you
he wants to know you're wanted and wants to
keep you calm that's why he talks slowly
just go to the next scheduled appointment and if you don't like
it maybe schedule for a different doctor?
good luck <3

my parents seem to think i am completely addicted to my laptop and my phone ;-; i got late at school today and of course it is because i was on my laptop till midnight..... now they suddenly take away my laptop , phone everything. i was making homework and my friends will be pissed tommorow that i diden't do my part for an assigment.
i know that this might not seem a big deal to most of you but my parents never do anything with me... and whenever i ask why not they say that i am at my room the howl time... when i actualy sit in the living room with them they are all on their phones but pf course i am addicted just because i get late at school. it seriusly hurts me that my parents do this. when i was 8 i asked if i could go to the zoo with my mom and i keep asking every year but she says that we don't have money. a dog? sure , why not! my sister going to england ? sure! but when i want to go to the zoo wich she promised when i was 8? nope not enouch money. and now when i have people i talk to on the internet because they don't talk to me i am addicted......
ashita wa kitto ame da

ahh, parents
my dad says "i'm the worst" yet i am
rarely on my phone compared to him ??
i get you, don't worry!!
maybe just when you're around your parents
don't go on your technology, if you know what i mean.
it's unfair you get in trouble for this kind of stuff,
but good luck on everything (and the assignment!!) <3

think something is wrong with my head but my mom won't take me to get an mri and it's been a few years. i get so many headaches and strange pains in my head and my scalp gets super sore. now i'm having so many panic attacks because i get super paranoid and i just want to make sure nothing is wrong

depersonalization/disassociation has been happening to me so much it's gross
bpd is awesome too. acting up while all this happens

my god this is awful

not only that but i feel like a boy and i don't look like a feminine boy so i'm mad atm

ehhhhhhh end me

you don't have to reply i just vented because i honestly thought i was going to die a few hours ago

oosch
that seems horrible
maybe sit your mum down and say
that it's really making you paranoid and would
prefer it if you make an appointment?
she should understand
i'm sure you'll be fine though!
good luck <3

i hate my panic attacks. i loathe them.
everyone thinks that i'm just acting out to get attention while i feel like im dying.
the teachers at my school have even start to ignore me when i have them thinking that i'm just trying to disrupt their class.
I don't even want to mention my classmates' comments.
i just wish i could be 'normal'. i'm sick of this.

ohh and panic attacks just a barrel of fun?
(plz hint the sarcasm)
you are normal c:
so many people get them
including me
don't worry!
i have loads of things (breath with it) that can help with your anxiety and panic attacks.

each word has a different thing to help you.
i hope you're okay soon <3

[Lincoln]

Pfff
No one wants to help me with a piercing anxiety/wound.
Hah.
Knew I wouldn't get a reply.

[Lillybear]

Could someone please PM me who has lots of experience with owning an adoptable Oekaki species, please?

Hopefully I'm being clear, I mean like I'm the owner of this species, not that I own one of this species.

@everyone, you are amazing and beautiful, stand strong, you'll be okay.

[Zambeah]

I'm just so fed up with this, really. You don't have to reply and it's really long, I just have to get this off my heart now though.

My class (most of them are 4-5 years younger, a few are my age, it's a type of school to get a degree that allows you to visit university after two years) - we were about to write an exam and everybody was like "OMG WHAT DO WE HAVE TO DOOOO" and I told them we have to learn topic A aswell as just B+C.
Everyone then goes crazy over me, because, well, the teacher didn't do the work for us (which she doesn't have to anyways btw) so, we had to write out all the important informations from 10 pages of a rather small book on our own and everyone then jumped on me because I said it's pretty normal that you have do to some work on yourself and that it really is not much and done in 30-45 minutes - they threw me out of the class whatsapp group back then.

The one who threw me out of the group tried to talk to me on the next day, clearly scared of me (I don't even know why, I am 4 years older, okay, but still, I am a friendly, relaxed person and always in a good mood and never do anything to anyone) and apologized like 10 times and that it wasn't meant like that, apparently another person of my class (my age) got mad at the one who threw me out because, yeah, they threw me out because of such a childish reason. I was pretty happy not to be in the group anymore, they just started to get annoying and started to complain about teachers and stuff.

But, I mean, come on! You threw me out of the class group because all of you clearly-not-able-to-help-themselves-kids (sorry, but, it's just so immature to cry about writing informations out of a book!) cried over writing out some informations of the book, bashing a teacher who clearly is NOT the fault with some disgusting statements and then trying to bash me too because I helped you. I am okay that you guys don't wanna hear that you have to do some work by yourselves, but that's just how life goes. Some of you want to go to university and there you have to learn 800 pages of presentations by heart, how are you supposed to survive that when you can't even write informations out of a book?! I said that in a very nice way to encourage them to do the work since there are much worse things you could have to do and much more exhausting things, to get them some motivation, but that was actually the sentence that made the group admin throw me out of the group.

Well, after that I promised to myself not to help them anymore in the group and the group admin invited me back in immediately after we talked to each other.

A few weeks later (about 4 weeks ago), they asked again, like before each test: "OMG WHAT DO WE HAVE TO DOOOO".
So I asked: "Why do you guys don't write that down yourselves? =D *insertwhatwehavetolearnforTOMORROWStest*" because every teacher either tells us what we have to do or writes it on the board for us to copy 2-4 weeks before and all I got back was "Just go away when you are so annoyed and shut the f* up". Didn't even say thanks, nothing. I mean, ARE YOU SERIOUS?! I helped you to get a D instead of a F and you treat me like that? Why so rude?? I asked in a nice, humorous way, too.

That was the point when I just said to myself: survive on your owns. I am NOT going to help them anymore again, I don't want to get my butt kicked as a thanks when helping someone. And it already happened 4 times now that NO ONE knew what we had to learn for a test, except me of course. I mean, I am the one getting the A's, you are the one's getting the D-F's, I don't rely on any help, you do. And you scared the only person away who could help you. I am at least happy I can laugh about them now, silently and secretly, but still.

So, I thought that just my class was acting like that. But today I've had another "nice" conversation.
I talked to someone I knew from my voluntary social year, she is about 20 years older, we are, well, were pretty good friends. I even sitted her dog and threw her household for over a whole week 24/7 when she was in holidays.

So, her son is at the same school as me but in a parallel class, studying for the same degree. We have to do some internships which are always 3-6 weeks. She told me her son would do his in this and that location and I told her that I asked my teacher earlier that day because I've had the same idea and the teacher said that we can't do that because we have to stay in one group and can't change around all the time, what you would definitely do at this lovation. So she then told me that I just should hush now, that he would do whatever he wants to do and that it's none of my business. I then told her that I don't care what he does, but if the school doesn't accept where he was he would miss 5 full weeks of internship so he would have to repeat the whole year because of that, so he should definitely ask his teacher about that. She then got mad at me and told me to shut up now, it would be none of my business and I am not better at all, I was really shocked because she was always like a big sister/friend and usually super nice.

But uhm. I AM "better", at least I won't have to repeat the year since I ask my teacher if I can work in a company before I apply for an internship to prevent such things. I mean, I just gave some advice, again. I just wanted to help, I said it in a neutral, informative manner because he obviously doesn't know that he can't do his internship there and what do I get? RUDE BUTTKICKS! AGAIN!

I am just so fed up. I try to help people and they either get mad at me, they ignore me, they get rude towards me.
Why do I even help people. Maybe I should just stick to my things, which I am definitely going to do because, obviously, no one appreciates my help.

The one who laughs last is the one who laughs best, right? It still hurts though, especially when you are nice and as a reward you get yelled at immediately...
Sorry for the long rant, I just had to get this off my chest, it's stressing me for two months now. x.x

[ghost queen.]

lmao g8
parents are probs getting a divorce
i had to stay up all night separating them so they didn't fight
mom's pregnant
dad said rlly rlly hurtful things to me and im having that stupid urge to destroy myself and it's winning
i have school tomorrow but if i go i'll probs end up having a mental breakdown
i have a stupid crush on this girl in my last class and i stg if she's straight im gonna scream
we might end up moving seven hours from here back up to virginia if/when my parents get a divorce and i don't want to move. even tho people hate me here, i have a couple friends i rlly don't want to lose
i haven't eaten today and i feel like im slipping into old habits
i rlly just want it to stop

[fika.]

Pfff
No one wants to help me with a piercing anxiety/wound.
Hah.
Knew I wouldn't get a reply.

i'm sorry?
not quite sure what you mean but
i never saw you post here, otherwise
i would have replied!
hope you're doing okay <3

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i kinda just want to.. let this all out. i'm not looking for
a reply or anything so don't worry.

i hate january's, but this one is by far the worst.
in 2014 we decided that my brother will finish school
in amsterdam, the netherlands and live with my father
and that my mother and i would move back to england, uk.
we've done it, in the middle of 2015. keep in mind my parents are
still together. well, idk since i find january's depressing this is
extremely hard on me. i rarely cry when saying bye to people yet
this weekend i found myself almost crying when i dropped my dad
and brother off at the airport for their weekend visit? i mean we
see each other on the weekends and on the one-week breaks that
i or my brother have but i'm finding it hard not having my brother
around me constantly. we argue so much yet he's the only person
i can actually stand arguing with.
and i have this anxiety feeling from an offsite trade and even though
it isn't happening anymore this stupid feeling won't go and it takes
forever to leave my body and i just don't like this feeling.

//rant.vent over//

[dead poets society]

i just screwed up really badly. i got this new job and i've been so excited for it because i hated my old job. we had orientation on saturday and my boss told us to be at the store at 3.30 for training. but of course, he didn't actually say 3.30. he said 3. so i showed up 30 minutes late today completely by accident. he came and asked me why i was late, and i told him why. he looked at me and said "at this point i have nothing to say, so call your mom or whoever and go home." now i'm at home sobbing because of course i screwed up this job. i screw up everything. i have such a hard time not feeling like a failure anymore.

[quitting,,]

I'm tired of feeling so upset with everything I do
and the fact that no one in real life or on the internet even
cares about me except for pretty much two people

school is horrible and the internet is starting to turn into that too
I hate feeling lonely and then seeing people
having amazing friends everywhere I look
tbh I wish I was just likable and respected and not some sad,
introverted person who doesn't seem to know when to shut their own mouth :')

[epsil]

i'm supposed to be happy on my birthday

[trans]

i hatem ys self ; )))))
im so ugly and my family always reminds me how ugly i am and how im fat and overweight whe n i weight 102 pounds fand say i eat too much and remind me i have bad memory problems,,,,,
why cant they le ave me alon e,,,,,
my sister verbally abuses me and my c at,,,,,
i always look stu pi d and dum b kin fron t of my friendss,,,,
i hate this i,,,
i just,,,
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