| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[vitya]

I feel awful.
I thought I was getting a hold on this ptsd thing.
I used to be in a bad relationship
And my current boyfriend held a bottle up over his head, just dropping water on to me
And my brain went "Hes gonna hit you with it"
Of course he wouldn't
He wouldn't
I know that
So why did I just burst out crying?
christ I hate being mentally ill

i know that feeling. only thing that helped were meds when i went nuts.

[fika.]

I feel awful.
I thought I was getting a hold on this ptsd thing.
I used to be in a bad relationship
And my current boyfriend held a bottle up over his head, just dropping water on to me
And my brain went "Hes gonna hit you with it"
Of course he wouldn't
He wouldn't
I know that
So why did I just burst out crying?
christ I hate being mentally ill

hey hey it's okay
your boyfriend knows what to expect
right? he'll be there for you
through thick and thin
you don't need to worry about another
toxic relationship like your old one
you'll be okay <3

[onion]

i almost dont like postinh on this thread anymore because i feel like people just reply to feel better about themselves. they dont actually care about me

[fika.]

i almost dont like postinh on this thread anymore because i feel like people just reply to feel better about themselves. they dont actually care about me

hey,
I don't reply to make myself feel better.
I just like seeing people feel better.
Don't ever feel bad about posting,
That's what this thread is here for.
I care about you!
If you ever want to talk my inbox is open c:<3

[Montgomery Gator]

My beloved fish.. My betta fish..
I just noticed that he'd drowned.
How long was his body just sitting there?
I miss you, Pluto.

Mine passed to today.. And I beleive drowned . I thought he was alive... i feel ya.. This stinks but hes in fish heaven now.
*hug*

[nyalatea]

ahhh sorry I'm posting on this thread again i really need to get this out

(Let’s just call these friends A and B, shall we?)

Okay, A has been getting really mad at B lately for a really childish reason. I too have been having problems with A, and she’s becoming more and more of a bully to me. One day, B decides to come to me for advice, and of course I give her some. B ended up telling A what I told her, and I didn’t say anything negative toward A, I only gave B advice on what to do and how to handle the situation. Now, A is really mad at me and she’s making me feel really guilty by saying I said she was an awful friend (which I have not at all done). A is quite popular around the school and word has gone out to quite a lot of people, except I look like the guilty one, and A looks like the victim. My problems with bullying have been getting worse since this. I have people turning on me, calling me disgusting and a monster and etc. A has been saying awful things to me and constantly making me feel guilty about something I have not done. She knows exactly where it hurts most, and she's been hitting all of those spots, making sure not to miss a single one. I can’t take it anymore. It’s not my fault. I’m constantly anxious and I feel like everyone hates me. But I haven't done anything wrong, or have I? I know there’s people that care and I know I have people that are there for me, but how long will it be before they’re influenced by A’s poison?

[Lazy9248]

/vent/

My boyfriend asked if we could take a break and I assumed that a break isn't necessarily a bad thing. I've been overwhelming him lately so I understand why he wants a break and I didn't think it was a bad idea. Although I didn't think we should take a break I agreed because I knew he needed one. I would've rather just given him a week or two to think things through rather than calling it a break because calling it a 'break' sounds very negative.

In short, he's the only person that I've felt like this about. Ever. I've had crushes before in high school, but he was totally different than all of them. He's the only person that has ever loved me for who I am. I was bullied pretty badly in middle school and emotionally abused by someone until around Christmas of last year. The only person that has ever been there for me is my boyfriend and two of my friends.

He lives an hour away so we don't have the capability of talking every day. We see each other usually once or twice a week, and I love him more than I've loved anyone else.

We decided to take a break yesterday and it's breaking me. I am trying to give him space by not talking to him and it hurts. I cried for hours last night, almost threw up and cried myself to sleep. I woke up this morning in tears because I was having an intense nightmare. Then I realized that he wouldn't be there to comfort me and I started crying.

The thought of losing this boy kills me. If this is how badly it hurts to only be taking a break, I don't ever want to lose him.

I honestly just need a hug so badly.

/end aggressive venting session/

[mr.robot]

dipped into my own head again
been swallowed up by sickness
its all my fault
i did it
me
nobody should've drunk as much as i did, both times.

[trip ♡]

Can someone who has experience with emotional manipulation and abuse PM me? I have been dealing with it for years by my sister and she's not someone I can just.. throw away. It's more than just a hole she leaves when I don't talk to her.

[arcticwolf]

I'm extremely depressed.

I actually don't know how much longer I can stand feeling like this. I'm hurting emotionally so badly and it's starting to affect me physically. I feel like I'm going crazy because the pain is unbearable. I can't think and I'm incapable of doing anything.

I've literally spent the past 12 hours staring at the clock watching the time pass agonizingly slowly. That's not even an exaggeration. I actually spent the entire day watching the clock. Every minute that goes by feels like an hour. I don't even know why I'm counting the time, but it's all I can do. I'm too sick to my stomach to even eat. I have literally done nothing today because even the thought of watching TV or something like that sounds overwhelming.

I can't say much more without breaking the forum rules. I'm just in such a dark place right now. I've tried getting help but it's all just a temporary solution. When I relapse, everything stops working and it's like it was all for nothing. I can't talk to the people I care about because they get very angry with me for saying these kind of things and accuse me of saying it to make them feel bad. I pretty much have to keep my mouth shut unless I want to feel even worse. Right now, I would do just about anything to feel better.