TheComfortCorner | V.9

[scottermite]

i am a social failure

[sodatab]

it feels like a physical wear on my mind and body, being this alone

[cainhurst]

i've avoided it all this time, but i went on one damn business trip and now i feel like death and have two positive covid tests. why the hell NOW. i'm gonna throw hands with the bastard who infected me

[Fleetwood]

so I have a welding class tomorrow and I really don't want to go
like I really do want to learn how to weld. at this point in my life, I don't see too many paths open to me.
but I want to scream. I am not ready. I only managed to get the supply list three days ago!! and I still can't sign in to my account so I don't know if there's any additional information. and I'm too anxious to reach out to the school for help. and I'm too anxious to show up without knowing if there's something I'm missing. I don't want to look stupid. I don't know. I didn't even sign up for the class, my mom did it for me. that's how pathetic I am. my anxiety has just completely ruined my life and keeps me down constantly. my job has me so worn out and miserable, the only thing I've looked forward to is the weekends. and now I dread tomorrow more than I dread work, because at least I know what to expect at work. I feel sick I'm so sick of my anxiety just ruining every aspect of my life.

I was hoping to just maybe relax this evening, but I had to finish up my shopping. and of course I couldn't do it alone, I had to have my mom help me. but she lost it by the time we left and now I feel horribly guilty. I knew she'd have issues in that store because it would remind her of her ex, but I really needed the help. and I just don't feel ready.

I'm overthinking my clothes and my bag and my supplies. will I be the woman? will they treat me different? is my stuff right? will I look stupid? I just want my brain to be quiet. I want to wake up one day with no anxiety. I didn't ask to be this way.

[LittleMaple]

I love her
I want to be hers and for her to be mine
But I dont think I deserve her
No one does
She's like...
A goddess

[mrs]

i mean idk i'm not good tbh, i'm just sad. i'm always sad, but the "what can i do to help" and things like such that make me feel worse. im sad and tired of everything wearing on me. and i'd just..rather let people see me as cheery and crap like that because that's what people NEED to see! it makes my mental stability like erosion to a rock

[CyberneticVampire]

I'm literally at the end of my rope and I can't take this anymore..
I can't stop crying and I wish I could disappear forever.
Being yelled at by my mother and having my feelings invalidated by her is pushing me to the edge..
I just want to run away, I'm sure it would be better that way.
My head hurts so bad from crying..
I can never say or do anything right..
I can never please her..
What the hell am I supposed to do?
Because I don't express myself in the way that she wants I'm apparently just an awful person..

[eeep]

sometimes i forget what happened to me. its nice for awhile but then it all comes rushing back. ive been alone for almost all of my life. i had a single mom and my sister who was supposed to take care of me, hated me. and all i ever wanted was for her to love me, be my friend. but now i realize that i didnt want her, i just didnt want to be alone. is this why im like this? the reason i was happy 2019 was because i finally had friends, i got to spend enough time with my mom, and i would see my sister once and awhile. i wasnt alone anymore. but then it was all stripped away from me. my mom was cold, my sister stopped coming, i had no friends. i got a taste of happiness and it was gone now. i had to become independent, grow up, at a young age because all i had was me. i never got a childhood. and now im becoming older and its sinking in that, ill never have that. things are changing. ill never get what normal people get. i just want to be a kid again.

[marciplier]

crampy and in pain :( im going to a concert tomorrow for my mom but im in so much pain today i really hope i feel better tomorrow or i cant deal with a 5 hour drive there

[LittleMaple]

:( I know it was good to hide it so no kid would see it but god. That was someone's fur baby. They saw it and their heart lit up. The water just... was too strong... I hope it died peacefully. Fluffy, grey and white, pink and grey beans. I'll never forget today.