TheComfortCorner | v.6

[aurora❅lights]

I know this is definitely not as important as other people´s problems,
but I´m so mad at myself for always procrastinating all of the time,
because it causes me to go to sleep really late which is now affecting
my grades. I had a math test today and I´ve been studying quite well
for about a week and I felt confident on it and everything. But you
know what? I was fine on the first two pages, and then lost my
memory how to solve certain problems/equations on the next page and
didn´t finish the next three world problems because I was stressing
myself out too much. The overall test is 72 points, making each question
worth six points. Considering I have two incomplete pages on my test,
I got at least six questions wrong. 6x6=36, so I get at least 36 points off
of my test, and I probably got a few more wrong as well. So I probably
get a D or an F and I´m so incredibly disappointed in myself. I want to
talk to my teacher how I studied and understood the concept, but once
I got the test- it´s like I forgot everything over stressing myself out, but
I don´t want to cry in front of my teacher because that is hella awkward.
I just need a hug ;-;

[Monomares]

As soon as I found this, I had an undescribable urge to get this out

Why.
I thought we were friends, best friends.
We had our squad. You, me, (Name redacted), and (Name redacted). We even had hats with our nicknames on them! I still wear mine sometimes, despite the sadness it brings me.
We were perfect together. Inseparable.
Sure we started growing apart, and sure I never really texted. We were still friends, right?
But, now, you act as if we were never friends, sometimes as though I never exsisted.
You barely talk to me, and when you do, it's because we are asigned to work together, or you need to ask me a simple question.
I can barely look at you anymore without feeling awkward.
Our Homeroom teacher has an old picture of our class. You and I are at the bottom, looking happy as ever with our arms around eachother's necks.
What happened? Did you get bored?
It all happened after he showed up in your life, your boyfriend. If only (Name redacted) would never have introduced you to him.
After that, you started ignoring me. At first I didn't pay much mind. We were besties, right? It would all blow over.
No.
You had to do it, didn't you?
Constantly bugging me to go to that stupid dance, saying you wanted me to meet your boyfriend.
I waited for you. Spent 5 dollars so I could spend time with you.
No.
You acted as if I was invisble. I tried talking to you, and your boyfriend had to answer for you.
He isn't a bad guy, to be honest, and I used to think you were cute together.
But you had to show me up, didn't you?
I cried.
So hard.
I feel so alone.
I do have friends, two very close friends.
But I've never even met them in person.
I try not to think about it. But it's hard.
Even my parents bring it up.
The loneliness.
I was joking about punching someone for going through my stuff. And my Dad.
Did he really have to say it?
He said to me.
No wonder you don't have friends.
Thanks Dad.
Thanks for nothing.
I can't confide in anyone, because no one will care.
And if they do, they can't do anything.
Try talking to her!
As if.
I've tried talking to my parents, asking why I don't have friends.
Why don't people like me? Am I ugly? Annoying? Maybe. But if I am.
Why couldn't you say it to my face.
You stood me up. I was arguing with someone and they said.
Hey (Name redacted), telling your friend to shut up and stop arguing!
You mouthed something to him.
He laughed. What did you say? Are you ashamed?
I assume you said something like.
We aren't friends.
Or.
She's annoying, right?
I just want someone to talk to.
To confide in.
To call a friend, a true friend.
I still think about you.
Just the other day, I had a dream.
You came to me, and wanted to be friends again. It was awkward at first. But we made it work.
You smiled at me.
I still remember the relationship you had with (Name redacted), our sixth grade teacher.
It was funny to see you two goofing around faking punching, joking.
I can't help but smiling thinking about it.
I wonder if you even remember him? I do.
He left that school, I heard some story that he got mad and quit.
He's not that kind of person. You would know.
But you probably forgot about him.
We had so much planned for this grade. But now none of it matters.
I wish we could go back.
Are you mad at me? Sad? Ashamed?
I don't care, but it would hurt less if you said it to my face. You abandonded me.
Our other friends don't talk to me either.
(Name redacted) and (Name redacted) still say Hi every now and then. But (Name redacted) doesn't pay me any mind. I don't really care.
But you.
Why?
What did I do? Was it something I said? Did?
Or are you just too good for me now.
I spent the last few weeks of summer worrying.
Worrying about asking you and the squad over for a birthday party, just like last year. Like we planned.
But, when I got there, I knew I didn't have to.
You'd moved on.
What about walking down to (Name redacted) to visit (Name redacted)? You two.
But you don't remember.
I wonder if you ever think about it
About the fun we had.
We had such good times.
That picture our Homeroom teacher has.
Everytime I see it I can't help but look at us.
What happened?
Do you hate me?
I understand moving on, but so fast?
And behind my back?
I just want friends.
I used to look forward to going to school.
It mean't I could see you, and spend time with you.
We did everything together.
I want to tell you everything, I want to be friends again. But I can't.
Not that I'm scared, I just.
Can't.
Won't.
Never.
Maybe next year, when we move onto High School. Maybe I'll meet someone there. Some new friends.
I never was could with new beginnings. You would know.
I have nobody now.
Because you abandonded me.
I don't blame you though. I'm surprised you were friends with me at all.
I'm not a very good person.
I'm annoying.
Ugly.
Too obsessed with certain things.
I don't blame you.
I blame me.
So.
I guess we aren't ever gonna be friends, right.
Heh.
It's fine.
I'm better off alone. No one can hurt me if I don't allow them to.
I've learned my lesson.
Thanks, I guess. I know what I mean to people now.
Nothing.
Never to be anything.
I just want someone to like me for who I am. I thought you did. I liked you.
You're my best friend, (Name redacted)
You're ny best friend too, (Name redacted)
I miss the times when we said this to eachother.
We'll always be friends!
No.
You never said that.
I said that, and believed it.
I'm so stupid.
I'm sorry.
Please.
I'm really sorry.
Even if I disappeared forever, you wouldn't pay anymind.
Why.
I miss you calling me (Nickname redacted).
And I miss calling you (Nickname redacted).
I'm sorry, (Nickname redacted)
I'm sorry.


I'm sorry this is so long. I just needed to get it out.
I feel a lot better. I even cried writing this. But hey! These tears are long overdue
I'll go before they come back though.
I doubt you even read it all. But if you did

Thank you, it means so much to me ;D

[joji]

my dog is gone now, not dead but shes not with me.. i feel dead. i miss her so much. i cant stop sobbing.

[winged-backpack]

just need to rant about my English exam
basically it went awfully
didn't fully understand the questions and blanked with my answers once I finally got my head around it
a levels are killing me and we're barely a quarter of the way through
ugh

[Jodjo]

It's nice to know that with my father, I will always be a child who's opinion and voice doesnt matter
If you are replying I will only be able to see it if you pm me

[food ☕️]

☕️ why am i so horribly awful at talking to people? i don't understand how humans communicate properly, and thus end up making myself super embarassed because i said something stupid and/or offensive. i'm a very funny person, but i'm also very stoic and sarcastic. lots of people take my jokes seriously and end up thinking i'm a jerk. like, take for example this new girl at school. i'm trying to be friends with her, and i thought we were hitting things off, we'll call her p, until she stated how she's boy-crazy. i laughed and said, "i think i got the memo on you being 'boy-crazy'," which my other friend, a, then informed me, "j! that's so rude!" p was saying, "oh, no, it's fine! i didn't think it was rude!" and she probably didn't until a brought to attention it could be. a apologized to me saying, "maybe i just made it sound rude," and we laughed, but regardless p walked away with a leaving me behind. i didn't know that could be offensive! sometimes i realize it later, but i still don't really see how it's rude. i- i just don't get it. i try to be funny, i try to fit in, and what happens? i mess everything up. i think it's time to stop trying. i was avoiding contact before, but p piqued my interest because she came up and talked to me. me of all people but i need to give it up. it's not for me.

[skypoppy]

ow
This stall
Aggressive school pony
was being a brat,
I try to halter her,
She lashes out and bites
Around my
ENTIRE
wrist.
It's swelling, and I can't
Move it.


i think it's broken

[.zombie]

Id appreciate some help aaAA
My teacher is pretty intimidating, and i guess he likes pointing out my wrongs which makes me feel super sad i guess??
Like once I arrived a few minutes late for a study session and he confronted me about it and like?? i felt really intimidated arghh.
Also, we have midterms this week and I never asked him any questions that I had because f past experiences with him [i know, im terribly stupid].
And now I told my mom that I dont understand everything and she emailed him about it . And now we're supposed to have some dumb meeting about my grades and im scared?? I know hes gonna say something like "But you came to my study sessions why didnt you ask any questions you dumb" and "You had so much time to prepare just take the L."
I just cant bring myself to say "Im scared of you alright??"
Grr im so so nervous help?

[.Spaceman.]

Id appreciate some help aaAA
My teacher is pretty intimidating, and i guess he likes pointing out my wrongs which makes me feel super sad i guess??
Like once I arrived a few minutes late for a study session and he confronted me about it and like?? i felt really intimidated arghh.
Also, we have midterms this week and I never asked him any questions that I had because f past experiences with him [i know, im terribly stupid].
And now I told my mom that I dont understand everything and she emailed him about it :|. And now we're supposed to have some dumb meeting about my grades and im scared?? I know hes gonna say something like "But you came to my study sessions why didnt you ask any questions you dumb" and "You had so much time to prepare just take the L."
I just cant bring myself to say "Im scared of you alright??"
Grr im so so nervous help?

honestly I hate talking to teachers too and this has happened to me so much aaa

First off, I get that you're nervous. There's something about asking questions that lots of people find difficult.
I know you're intimidated by him, but you'll have your mom at the meeting, right? Sometimes parents do some of the talking for you. But this is also a learning experience. You're learning that when you don't ask questions, you'll end up having to clear it up later. Plus, there is no way you can have a meeting with your teacher just so he can tell you your dumb. The teachers are there to help you get through exams, so while you've got your mom there with you, ask as many questions as you can. (without having to do it in front of the whole class!) I'm still scared of meeting with teachers, but it's never as bad as I make it out to be. You don't have to tell your teacher you're scared of him. You have to learn how to work with him to get you through midterms. Tests are important, don't not ask questions out of fear!
Good luck c:

[icemagyk]

my great grandma is in the hospital right now she's really old and she isn't doing very well. she's a very sweet old woman. i hope she ends up okay but i'm beginning to doubt she'll be okay