TheComfortCorner | v.6

[CXIV]

i just feel like curling up into a ball, sitting in the corner of my room, and cry. nothing is helping me. i hate my life
at school, i hate my life at home, and i hate my life just about anywhere. the only place i feel like i truly belong is on the internet.
i feel like everyone just cares about themselves, and never anyone else. i know that i can care about myself a lot, but i have my
own issues. i just feel like at any moment, something could happen to someone i love and they won't be around. i just wish i could
go back a couple years and knew about everything i know today so i wouldn't be in this stupid hell that is my life. tbh i just need a
hug or something to reassure me it's alright, but i have too much anxiety when talking to people in pms now... it just makes me so
nervous that someone will judge me and think "oh, they act like that?" or "oh, really? why is this person randomly coming to me out
of no where?" this is why i just wish i could reset time to a few years ago. 2013 wasn't a bad year for me.

what i show on the outside and how i act on here isn't the real me. i'm a lot worse. i think worse things, i say worse things. i say
negative things about others, but mainly myself. if you've ever encountered me saying a nice thing to you, it may be meaningless. i
don't even know myself anymore. i don't know anything anymore. i just want to cry and go on and on to someone about myself, but
i don't want to be judge and for them to tell their friends and then everyone will hate me so much one day and it'll stress me out and
i'll just realize that only a couple people on this entire planet, a couple out of 7.4 billion people, actually care enough about me to
listen to anything i have to say, no matter how stupid.

have fun trying to read this. if you can, that is. i just want to vent so much....

[rutilant]

I just want to curl up in a ball and die

Awwe, dear. *Hugs* It'll be okay eventually, whatever is going on in your life that is making you feel this way. Life is a precious gift and you should cherish it as much as you can, no matter how sad or unfair it may be at times, it isn't worth losing it just yet. If you ever need to talk about anything, my PMs are always open <3

i shouldn't have to beg for your attention

That's right, you shouldn't. if someone is making you feel as if you need to beg for their attention just for them to notice/talk to you, then you shouldn't focus on them. There are plenty of other people out there that would probably love to talk to you, so why not try talking to some new people rather than just focusing on them? I get it might be hard to do that, making new friends and all, but I still think it's worth a shot to talk to try to talk to some new people if someone isn't treating you very kindly.

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I'd also like to thank everyone who has been trying to help me out with my grade situations. I really appreciate it, however my dad wants me to be on highest honors and I'm definitely not getting it this quarter :') Ahh, let's hope he spares me and I don't get in trouble. x.x

[autumnsoundtrack]

It's 2:30 in the morning.
I'm tired, but too awake to sleep.
I should be asleep.
I have an 8:30am class tomorrow.
And work I still need to complete for said class.
But here I am.
Wasting my time away, knowing I need to do stuff.
But I just don't have the energy in me.
And I feel so void.
I just need a smoke. .-.

[bravado]

my neighbor / friend died today. it really hasn't even hit me yet but i went to visit her mom and she was a sobbing mess and i don't even know how to feel.

[MoonStone00]

All I wanna do is cry; there's way too much stress right now.

I'm tired and just wanna sleep 8 hrs for once and I don't want to feel terrible.

[groenii]

I'm in such a bad mood .
I keep feeling stressed, as if I I have 2 deadlines tomorrow and I still have to start.
But that's not the case, so I should not feel stressed.
I hate this.

[chaney]

if anyone is feeling upset right now, please pm me

i won't be able to answer for a few hours, but i will listen and give you some comfort

[GIGABITE]

I have a dentist visit in 8 minutes ish, and though im usually super chill about this, this visit involves needles and i am very very phobic of them. S a v e m e

[Moiraine]

I have a dentist visit in 8 minutes ish, and though im usually super chill about this, this visit involves needles and i am very very phobic of them. S a v e m e

I sympathise! If you're comfortable enough with your dentist, tell him/her something to the effect of "I don't like needles so I'm going to shut my eyes and not look at it". It's a very common fear and usually if you let them know that you're anxious about the needle, they'll do it quickly without telling you what they're doing (by that I mean, they won't give you the whole "I'm putting the needle in now, yikes it's a big needle" script- they'll tell you just the bare minimum).

Good luck at the dentist's! You'll be great!

[Samael_3]

everything that used to make me happy doesn't anymore. am i broken? at this point i just laugh out of courtesy so no one knows. i don't know why i'm like this. i'm not happy but if i let anyone know, well, i'll be literally shunned. I feel so lost and alone. i want someone, anyone, who understands this and won't leave me. i don't want to be alone anymore. putting a stupid smile on my face is everything i don't want to do anymore. i want to be seen, damn it. but no one cares because i'm just a stupid useless emo kid. no one will see through my scars. they'll just shove me off as another self-destructive idiot.

I've felt this feeling before. I know what it's like to be left out, I know it. I feel it almost everyday. I was bullied in 5th grade and at that time I felt worthless. I felt like I was living on this planet with no purpose. You may be feeling this right now, but when I felt worthless, I realized something. That I wasn't worthless, if I lived my life with no point, then I was going to end up worthless. I knew that I had to make a point of my life. Life is short there's not enough time for you to feel miserable. But I also realized that these hard times we experience were meant for something. They were meant for us to grow. If you every heard of the saying "no pain, no gain" it is true. You won't become stronger if you do not go through pain. In another way of saying, this pain your experiencing now could teach you things, could teach you to become a person who doesn't feel weak. I know you may feel alone, but I do too. It's a feeling you can't help. But I also realized something today. I was in my English class and I was working on this essay about this one story we read. The essay was about theme. I realized the theme of that story we read was something like "Being different can make you feel lonely, but being someone else might not benefit to you." That I see may be the problem with you. Being different is good, but it has it's downsides. It has the downsides of making you feel lonely. Hopefully I helped. PM me if you like.