Dear friend,
You're moody and rude, and when you hit me today, yeah, it hurt. I know you're going through stuff, I'm guessing another bought of depression, which sucks I'm really sorry. But that's no excuse to be mean to me. Especially when you purposely are loud and obnoxious to me to attract others attention. I don't appreciate it. Or your mood swings either. Please stop.
-apollo.
Dear world,
I need you to be like the movies.
I need you to throw me into a dystopian society, preferably like sword art online, where I get to become a complete hard core bad dude, and everyone respects me for my abilities.
I want you to give me a guy, who loves me so much, and would do anything for me. I want him to be amazing, and show his love in some kind of profound way.
I want to have a cool backstory that transformed me into some hard core bad dude, who is tougher than almost everyone and proves everyone wrong, despite the fact she's a girl she can still fight.
I want to go on a quest, and be like Annebeth, life's never quiet, but never boring. She has a bunch of people who love her, and would die for her though.
I want any of that. But none of it's real. I gotta stop watching these movies. They fill my head with ideas, that one day I'm going to get a guy like that, that we'll be thrown into some tough situation, and fall in love. That maybe I was a demigod, and I admit I believed I was for a while, when I was older than I should have been. That I'll get stuck inside a video game, and I'll get to train hard, and out play everyone with my sword skills.
Dear world, if I have learned anything in the last month it's that you're not like the movies. I wish you were but you're not. I don't blame you though.... Ok we both know I do..... I just wish you could be different. I believe in the good in people, and I've always had a hard time seeing the bad. I'm starting to see it. The bad people are right beside of me. People are cold and cruel. I never thought it looked like this, but it does. Wow.
A heartbroken and incredibly nostalgic apollo