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[Montgomery Gator]

Push me away. Curse at me. Hit me. tell lies about me. Make my friends think im dramatic.

Should I even be here

[moriarity]

Push me away. Curse at me. Hit me. tell lies about me. Make my friends think im dramatic.

Should I even be here

Yes! Of course you should be here! Everyone is put on this planet for a reason! Whoever does all those nasty things isn't worth it. They clearly can't see how amazing you are! They are probably just jealous

If you want to talk more send me a pm c:

[emoji movie]

Welp, I'm gonna try out band.
I'm scared ;-;

[storme]

Welp, I'm gonna try out band.
I'm scared ;-;

I'm sure you'll do fine! You're probably very good and good luck !! c:

[master of spaz]

wanting to make it but too tired to actually do it if I do make it. Scared of screwing up if I make it, yet terrified of being rejected. Golly, what did I do to myself? Screw you, basketball.

[lucas.]

sorry i'm asking for this again, but i'd really love a pm.

[MoonStone00]

Welp i flooded not one but two disposable cups today... I can literally feel my insides almost gurgling? The pains so bad ive got a heating pad and have take a slightly higher safe dose of pain meds.
Ive tried excersise and stretching today as well as some hot tea...

[dionysvs]

Is there anyone I can talk to in pm? I'm just really worried right now and I need to talk to someone

Never mind, I just fixed the problem... But I really need a hug...

[moriarity]

I hate feeling like this. Sometimes I can't help but wonder whether you find me irritating. If you don't want me there, just say, please. Don't pretend. I just want everyone to be honest to me. I'm always honest with you guys. I hate keeping secrets. I've started opening up a little more. Telling you when I'm annoyed with you is a big thing for me. I've always been afraid of telling people anything negative in case they think I'm biting at them. I promise, I'm not. I just want you to know. I don't want to lie. Lies are never good. If you ask anything, I'll tell you. But, if you don't do the same. I mean, honestly, something about me has to irritate you... My clumsiness; the way I go incredibly silent sometimes; the way I walk like a snail sometimes; How I put people before me too much (Even I find that irritating about myself, I need to be more firm). Anything, just tell me, please. If you need your space, I'm fine with that. If you don't want me around sometimes... We've hung around a lot lately, so I wouldn't be surprised if you wanted to hang with other people for a bit, without me. I'll be fine. But, if you don't tell me, that's when things build up and start breaking apart. Use your words. I don't care if get angry with me once in a while. That's good. No one's always happy. No one's perfect. I'm not perfect. Tell me my faults, please. Or else, how will I ever become a better person. I tell you when I need some alone time. I give you the chance to leave me when you want to. If you really do like me this much then I'm sorry for this. Lucky me. I'm sorry. I'm just so paranoid sometimes; all the time. I'm sorry. I'll stop now. Just understand you mean so much to me. And I want us to stay like this. But, I'm scared we're going to drift away. Please don't drift away. At least tell me if you're planning on drifting away, because then I can get my own raft and begin in the other direction. You don't have to bother about me. I'll be fine. JUST TELL ME. Anything... Everything... Just not nothing.

I was like that once. Then I found friends who would not hesitate to tell me what I was doing wrong. I'm not a very sensitive person in that area because I have pretty much been hated all my life, but I learned that if they don't like you for you, they arnt worth it. Maybe I'm not the best, but I try. I completely geT it. Things change. Sometimes change sucks. For sure. I just want you to know that your a strong person and you can make it. If you ever want to talk, I'm here for you c:

Please someone, I need someone to talk to so much...
So I just got one of the worst yellings of my life from my mom.
Why? Because when I got home, having very little homework I turned on Netflix. My brother got home half an hour later, and eventually got to his homework. He asked me to turn off my show in a fairly rude manner and (considering I had been in the room watching my show since before he had gotten there) I said no, he could easily move his homework to his desk or to the room literally right next door. He obviously didn't care enough to get up and move as he shrugged, did his homework for approximately 5 more minutes, and was done. Apparently this matter came up to my mom, however, because she started screaming at me about it, about how selfish I was and how disappointed she was in me. I don't believe I have ever been attacked more personally or more painfully.
She told me directly that she'd rather I was a good person than smart. Not only does that imply that I'm a bad person (I really don't think I am in any way, maybe I'm wrong..) but that all the effort I've put in was apparently wasted.
All my life I was pushed by her in ways that made me fear getting anything even close to a bad grade. I remember in middle school, I came home in tears because I got a B on a test. I was so, so scared of telling her, because I knew she was going to get mad at me. That's the environment I was raised in. Not caring, not supportive. Do perfectly or suffer.
And now apparently all that effort I put in to be perfect was wasted. The going-on twelve years of school where I never got a mark less than an A on my report cards. The scholarship money I got to multiple schools. The constant pushing. Being actually intimidating to many of my peers due to my marks and knowledge which has led to a lot of trouble socially. The constant stress. The constant workload. All that was wasted.
I don't even know what to do now. I have AP physics homework I should be finishing, but I just can't. I can't do it. I just want to give up on everything. I can't do this anymore. Apparently my entire life so far as been a waste. Worth nothing. Maybe this is just the final confirmation I needed to know that I was worth nothing as a person.
I want to give up so badly.

That's a rough environment to grow up in. I feel for you. But know, the harder the situation is, when you make it through, you know your able to do it. You can make it through. You don't have to give up. Maybe you could try talking to her? If that doesnt work, just try to balance both school and self time out to lower your stress and work load. You are not worth nothing, to someone one day, you'll be worth the world. Just remember, you are never a waste. Never worthless. You can do it. If you ever want to talk, send me a pm c:

I suppose being uncaring toward what I get for my pre-calc final counts as bad, but honestly I can't do good on a math exam to save my life.

What's the point? Stupid dyscalculia.

You are strong and you can do it. I know it's hard sometimes, and I know school is tough. But you will make it. I'm not the best at math either, but lately I have been getting better. Don't hesitate to pm me if you ever need a friend to talk to c:

Welp, I'm gonna try out band.
I'm scared ;-;

Good luck! I'm rooting for you! You'll be great!

wanting to make it but too tired to actually do it if I do make it. Scared of screwing up if I make it, yet terrified of being rejected. Golly, what did I do to myself? Screw you, basketball.

Oh man have I been there. Sometimes even the smallest of thoughts can be morphed into the biggest, baddest fears. You just need to go for it! If you don't make it? Try again! I'm cheering for you! Feel free to pm me if you ever want to talk c:

Welp i flooded not one but two disposable cups today... I can literally feel my insides almost gurgling? The pains so bad ive got a heating pad and have take a slightly higher safe dose of pain meds.
Ive tried excersise and stretching today as well as some hot tea...

Yea. It's hard. You can do it. You will make it because you are amazing and strong. Maybe if it's bad, you can go to the doctor and g et stronger pain meds. If you need to talk, you can always pm me c:

Is there anyone I can talk to in pm? I'm just really worried right now and I need to talk to someone

Never mind, I just fixed the problem... But I really need a hug...

Here you go c: pm me if you ever want to talk

[Konata.]

wanting to make it but too tired to actually do it if I do make it. Scared of screwing up if I make it, yet terrified of being rejected. Golly, what did I do to myself? Screw you, basketball.

You should try out basketball ♥ I mean, even if you get in you don't have to be that perfect player. We all make mistakes during our lives, and we can't help it. The human body isn't made for perfectness, and no human will ever be perfect. It's the fun in basketball that makes it worth trying out for. Didn't make it in? Well you had fun trying! Made it in? Congrats you can now have more fun and learn to improve!