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[slipp67]

So, I, uh..
I had a dream.
I had just moved in with my fiance.
Next, I dreamt I went out to buy her something.
There were TVs in the store and they flicked to the news station.
It reported a lady dead, shot in the chest.
It was our apartment building.
I ran back and our door was blocked off.
My angel was dead on the floor..
I can't sleep now..
I'm so so scared.
;v;

That must of been a scary dream, I hope you feel better soon...*hugs*

[ika;]

I don't want to be here anymore. I'm just so tired. I grew up with abuse, and just when that finished, I'm straight back into it again- only this time, I can't tell anyone. I have to choose between my own sanity and my family's happiness; and I lose out. People just don't understand how hard it is to get out of bed in the mornings, let alone survive the day- and I don't want to anymore. Every time someone 'cares about me', they just leave- for someone better, or just because I was never good enough for them. They don't realize what that does to me. Sure, they don't know how unstable I actually am, but if they ever loved me as much as they said they did, why would they do that? I'm at the point when I don't ever want a friend again in my life, or any relationship at all; because over and over again I've had people leave. Over and over again. Hey, I'd leave me too, if I were them. I just want it all to stop now. I'm finished, and I can't keep going like this. Someone to talk to that isn't going to be scared off by serious topics would really be appreciated.

[-_____-]

;u; the time is creeping closer and closer for me to start the process of moving in with my parents. i am so terrified to leave my fiance here, alone. not alone...her parents are here....but i am always worried that something bad is going to happen to her if i'm not around to protect her.

it makes me unbearably anxious. how are we going to live like this? how am i going to be able to cope throughout the day when we have our own place and she is home alone while i am at work? i can't even stand the thought...it makes me sick.

[downtongabby]

Welp I've got a problem.

So I'm sort of stage managing a play, but not really because I was replaced but then called back. Anywho. There's this guy in the show, we'll call him T. T is super cute, four years older than me {a senior in high school, so I'll never see him again :c} and really smart. We share a ton of similar interests, and I have a huge crush on him. I auditioned for an improv group at the same theatre a few days ago, and he was running the auditions. I didn't get in. Now things are super awkward, not like we ever actually talk ever. I'm super embarrassed around him, but since the auditions it's been worse since I made such a huge fool of myself. I just... I want to get over it, but we have seven more shows that are each about three hours. I can't escape him, and he haunts my thoughts. I just don't know what to do :c

I'm sorry :c just don't act as if things are awkward, and they won't be. There's this boy who sat next to me in English last semester, and we always talked. I asked him to the dance, and he rejected me. But I didn't act awkward around him after that, and honestly, things weren't awkward between us. I know you're in kind of a different situation, but it still boils down to the same idea; if you show him that you feel awkward, he'll feel awkward too.
Hope that helped <3

[downtongabby]

I don't want to be here anymore. I'm just so tired. I grew up with abuse, and just when that finished, I'm straight back into it again- only this time, I can't tell anyone. I have to choose between my own sanity and my family's happiness; and I lose out. People just don't understand how hard it is to get out of bed in the mornings, let alone survive the day- and I don't want to anymore. Every time someone 'cares about me', they just leave- for someone better, or just because I was never good enough for them. They don't realize what that does to me. Sure, they don't know how unstable I actually am, but if they ever loved me as much as they said they did, why would they do that? I'm at the point when I don't ever want a friend again in my life, or any relationship at all; because over and over again I've had people leave. Over and over again. Hey, I'd leave me too, if I were them. I just want it all to stop now. I'm finished, and I can't keep going like this. Someone to talk to that isn't going to be scared off by serious topics would really be appreciated.

I'm so sorry *hugs* I care about you, and I promise I won't leave c:

[downtongabby]

;u; the time is creeping closer and closer for me to start the process of moving in with my parents. i am so terrified to leave my fiance here, alone. not alone...her parents are here....but i am always worried that something bad is going to happen to her if i'm not around to protect her.

it makes me unbearably anxious. how are we going to live like this? how am i going to be able to cope throughout the day when we have our own place and she is home alone while i am at work? i can't even stand the thought...it makes me sick.

*hugs* Being separated from each other is just testing your love. Being apart from someone is something we all have to go through at one time or another in our lives. If you have a webcam on your computer, try skyping her, or talking on the phone to her. <3

[Lydianna]

I don't want to be here anymore. I'm just so tired. I grew up with abuse, and just when that finished, I'm straight back into it again- only this time, I can't tell anyone. I have to choose between my own sanity and my family's happiness; and I lose out. People just don't understand how hard it is to get out of bed in the mornings, let alone survive the day- and I don't want to anymore. Every time someone 'cares about me', they just leave- for someone better, or just because I was never good enough for them. They don't realize what that does to me. Sure, they don't know how unstable I actually am, but if they ever loved me as much as they said they did, why would they do that? I'm at the point when I don't ever want a friend again in my life, or any relationship at all; because over and over again I've had people leave. Over and over again. Hey, I'd leave me too, if I were them. I just want it all to stop now. I'm finished, and I can't keep going like this. Someone to talk to that isn't going to be scared off by serious topics would really be appreciated.

i want you to know that in situations like this, you are not suffering alone, nor will you ever be alone. becoming one with overcoming abuse, and then entering into a hateful society is very common, and often may feel like a slap in the face because you felt like everything was going to become better, then boom, you get screwed over again.
it will not always be like this. you will not always be suffering and in need of a true friend. you cannot, under any circumstances, no matter how hard it is, give up.
people will always leave, people will always arrive. if someone leaves your life, they were not meant to be there.
however, there will people who are meant to be there, and who will stay there through thick and thin.
maybe you haven't found that special person (or people) yet, but you will, and i bet my soul on that.
i promise you there will come a point in your life where you are finally happy, and you dont feel lost and trapped in loneliness.
im not sure if you're looking for a friend, or people, a lover, ect.
but i am here. i am here and i will be your friend. i may not be a 'real life' friend, but im not sure if thats what you're searching for.
i will always be here for you and listen to you. even if you dont want advice, ill still listen.
i understand what you're going through, and i know its not fun.
/hugs.
let me know if you ever need anything, dont hesitate.

p.s. remember this: there's a reason life goes on even in the worst of times. its up to you to figure out that reason. :)

[a n d y.]

{ I-I *sigh* Is it really possible that my parents love my brother more than me? I think it's pretty obvious. And don't most parents say they don't have a favorite? Well, it's obvious mine do. My little brother always get what he wants, and when I ask for something, they say they don't have the money. Yet they have the money to buy a Nexus 7 tablet for him. It may sound like I'm 'ranting' but it's justr, they pay more attention to him than me. I at least want to be loved... you know?

[Lydianna]

{ I-I *sigh* Is it really possible that my parents love my brother more than me? I think it's pretty obvious. And don't most parents say they don't have a favorite? Well, it's obvious mine do. My little brother always get what he wants, and when I ask for something, they say they don't have the money. Yet they have the money to buy a Nexus 7 tablet for him. It may sound like I'm 'ranting' but it's justr, they pay more attention to him than me. I at least want to be loved... you know?

i went through something really similar. :l
dont doubt for a minute that your parents dont love you, though.
parents usually pay more attention to the little one (its normal).
but once he gets older they'll probably treasure you more because
you'll be the one more matured. haha
/hugs

[.musical.dragon.]

Shaking. Uncontrollable shaking. I'm shaking just a little, and am very jumpy. I can't stop it; I was just with my dad for the weekend. I wish I was little again and my mom wasn't busy so she could hold me... I think that my dad smokes, or at least one of his new neighbors... (my parents are divorced...) I have kind of bad asthma too, so it hurt, bringing my dad's stuff to his new apartment... I don't know what to do if one of them do smoke; I'd die or something if I'm around that nasty secondhand smoke... I'm going to tell my mom, but there may be no way out of it(going there every other weekend...)... You know, there's about 250 carcinogens (cancer-causing agents) in secondhand smoke... Any suggestions or just plain support? Help?!?