TheComfortCorner | V.9

[Sullivan Maurus]

In the most fragile state I've ever been in and everyone is hellbent on making me even more uncomfortable. I hate that I can't even trust my best friend anymore.

[Soy Sauce]

Xx

[mcr]

i ruin everything i ruin everything everything everything everything everything everything everything everything everything

[pandaa]

It’s going to be alright, don’t listen to your head. Just breathe, shh.

[Soy Sauce]

xx

[×Seven of Nine×]

There are worse problems than me by far.
But I'm the worst of them all simply because it's me.

What's wrong with me again?
Oh right, I'm talking. I'm not supposed to do that.
I thought I was living in USA, not Russia. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[changbin]

removed

[viles]

• i just deleted a lot of my social media accounts. i want to do more, like delete my chicken smoothie,, but i'm too...attached, among other things. it's nice to feel like i'm back to my Destructive self, though, even if i'm really not.
  
  edit: im so dumb i always mess up i got a text about my parents' netflix account and it had a link and i without thinking put their account information into it but im so dumb bc its probably a scam and im putting my parents' log in and i just i dont think before doing anything im just causing big messes for them i had just woken up so i wasnt thinking that much and i just im so dumb and gullible and i dont recognize scams all that well like ive gotten scammed on roblox a lot and sometimes im able to be like 'this person is going to scam me' but a lot of the time i just like trust people for no reason and this text looks so suspicious it just threw me bc it was a text and ive caused such a big mess i hate this i always make a mess like this i wanted to be destructive ig so here i am im just why did i mess things up this bad im so scared

[Sullivan Maurus]

Universe really loves kicking me while I'm down huh.

[Lycancore]

i guess i ultimately, legitimately, cant see people the way i want, huh.
people like this i talk to just will never get how restrictive and borderline abusive my living conditions are, and i just will never be able to do what i want to until i get out of it - which isn't going to be for quite a long time - something i started to try and accept, but its not working to just say to myself "i can do this for a little longer".
i keep getting ignored by job applications, I keep getting harassed by my parents,,
i tried to contact someone i was very attached to and they respond only around 10% of the time. when they finally responded just a few moments ago, i immediately broke down in tears and kept thinking i dont want to talk to them anymore.
stop doing this to me. stop doing this to me! i cant run away because my car is blocked. i cant talk because theyll hear me. just because you can imagine me getting out of the situation doesnt suddenly make it possible. i hate when people talk to me like this.

edit to add some thoughts i want to offload to the void

I think a lot about the whole "try not talking to people unless they talk to you first" thing. I think a lot about the type of people who would actually try that. I think a lot about the type of people who suggest or believe in it.
it ticks me off. ive inadvertently tried it when ive isolated myself. i dont get how its supposed to do anything. i am quite literally always the one who speaks first in interactions. . i cant take it.