What? Me? Depressed? How? When?
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I'm sick of life right now, really just plain out sick of it. ene Its not just at home and school now, its everywhere else. I'm tired of people telling me everything will turn out ok. All I want is a little sympathy. Just a little. ._.
I've gone without the computer for about 5 days now... I'm kind of depressed. And annoyed.
Alright, first of all, it annoys me how teachers have that 'knowing' look about them. Take my principal for instance. She never really gets involved in anything if she isn't pulled into it by one of the students. But, even so, I th ink its only me, but she always has this look like she knows everything thats going on. She also has this weird tendency to look at certain people, then look away, then look at another. Even if they did nothing wrong or they aren't anywhere near her. She does that to me alot. ene Looking between me and John. And whenever I so much as walk past John or walk in her direction or if I say her name or anything, she looks at John.
It also annoys me how I cannot read people like everyone else seems to be able to. John is always looking at me, and opening her mouth as if she has something to say. I don't know if shes mad, if shes regretful, or if she wants to talk. And I don't know if this is me, or if its true but, she always seems to be around me (when I'm not intentionally near her ^^;) and is always talking to Ky-sensai or CoSol. Every time she looks at me. ene I wish I could read her mind. I wish I knew wether or not she thought about me at all, at least once. She just doesn't seem to care, and it makes it so hard to read her.
Also, miss-fat-america is coming back to school tomorrow. ene I don't think I'll be able to stand her in class. All the open seats are near me, so of course she'll be sitting there.
My class. It never shuts up. ene In class I'm always first to finish because I don't talk, and the teacher always calls me on that. ._. Its my honest opinion, from the way I'm treated besides my class by the teachers, that I'm probably their favorite student. I'm always the quickest in science, always the most active in history and english. I always get my math teacher's weird refferances to songs and movies. Yeah. I became the teachers' friend because I don't have any of my own.
The kids in my class that can't seem to read/say words with more that 5 letters. ene