Mario wrote:I'm crying right now... I need a hug, badly!!
*hugs* I hope you will get better soon<3
Mario wrote:I'm crying right now... I need a hug, badly!!
~TGenie- wrote:Mario wrote:I'm crying right now... I need a hug, badly!!
*hugs* I hope you will get better soon<3
Mario wrote:~TGenie- wrote:Mario wrote:I'm crying right now... I need a hug, badly!!
*hugs* I hope you will get better soon<3Thank you for the smile <333
Shippeh wrote:Someone help me. I don't know what to do.
Okay so in March, my mother passed away. She had schizophrenia and ended her life. She was my best friend, my other half, my mom. Now, yesterday my father passed. We haven't found out why, and my sister says a broken heart. ;( I can't deal with this. Two parents in two months? I... need some one to talk to. Please.
music7 wrote:So some of you all have read my past posts, or through PM know some of my problems. Well, {recap} I have divorced parents and see my dad every other weekend. Now, he's making us stay overnight. And it's really awkward. It'll be his weekend this upcoming one, and I really can't handle it{Mentally}. I'm a nervous wreck and am scared to death. Last time went alright, but still...
You see, I have trust, anxiety, and anger issues. I have a ton of trouble with my dad. Let me give you everything on this subject.
I moved quite a few years ago, because of my dad's job. It was okay then, we were all happy and stuff. Then I realized that I used to be popular there. {I realized this more recently} Here, I'm an epic loser. A couple years later, my parents sat us all down, and told us that they were getting a divorce. Now that I think about it, my dad didn't seem to really care then. They never got divorced. A couple more years later, when I started liking reading and became more nerdy and had to take a buttload of medicine{for personal issues}, my parents told us again that they were getting a divorce. My dad had been out of the house for a while, and I didn't see him as much as I used to then. This time, they really did get divorced. It was heartbreaking. I soon found out that my dad had a girlfriend, and was cheating on my mother, as they weren't legally divorced or anything. Now, divorce is against my religion, which I found out later on. And I'm a real "church girl", as some may say. My parents soon got divorced, legally. Around a year later, we had to move. Now, I shared a room with all of my sisters, and it's a tiny room, mark my words. It's about the size of my old room. I found out that the reason for that was because my father wasn't paying child support and we were poor. I wasn't able to go shopping like I used to, worry about how much something cost, etc. Now I did. When my oldest sibling left for college, he stopped paying money for her. Even poorer. My dad forced us to meet his girlfriend now. I'm not sure if it's the same one that he cheated on my mom with though.... She's okay, but it's really, really, really weird meeting your dad's girlfriend. My dad thinks that I hate him. Even though all of that, I don't hate him. I don't really know my emotions towards him.... My dad, apparently, was using the money that should be my mother's on a lawyer to have us more. I don't want to have to see him more!!! I can't say anything about that, because he hasn't said anything to us. So not right!!!
Also, I've had dreams about my father trying to rape me....
Anyways, does anyone have advice for this situation? I really don't know what to do, and I've been depressed all week, but I haven't said anything. Please don't tell me to tell my dad that I don't hate him; I just can't do that... I have also tried to make the stays there better by convincing my father to get a cat, but then my neurologist said that it's not fair to my mom because she's allergic, so I had to re-convince my father not to get a cat, which I blamed on my allergies... I mean, I could bring books, but my ADHD makes it hard to read for a long period of time. I can try to get on here, but I won't be able to use the computer the whole time I'm there, and my dad doesn't have Wi-Fi...
Also, I like this guy, let's call him A. He can tell something is wrong, but he won't ask me. I've told him that I'm fine, but I want him to say that I'm not fine and try to figure out what it is. I'm really frustrated that he doesn't ask. A's also been avoiding conversation with me too. He hasn't talked to me as much as he normally does, because we're good friends and sit on the bus next to each other.... It's depressing.
My mom has also been really quite mean to me lately, and I feel like everyone is against me. I'm already bullied enough at school {which I've told my mom about and she just thinks that they're not really glaring at me, and that they're jealous, but why would they be jealous of me?} and I don't need it from home. I already have enough problems with my siblings; I don't need my mom against me too! I don't know what to do to make it better. I think that she feels as though I'm a spoiled brat and get whatever I want, because I can be very demanding and stuff at times. I just don't know what to do!!!Please, please help me!!!
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music7 wrote:So some of you all have read my past posts, or through PM know some of my problems. Well, {recap} I have divorced parents and see my dad every other weekend. Now, he's making us stay overnight. And it's really awkward. It'll be his weekend this upcoming one, and I really can't handle it{Mentally}. I'm a nervous wreck and am scared to death. Last time went alright, but still...
You see, I have trust, anxiety, and anger issues. I have a ton of trouble with my dad. Let me give you everything on this subject.
I moved quite a few years ago, because of my dad's job. It was okay then, we were all happy and stuff. Then I realized that I used to be popular there. {I realized this more recently} Here, I'm an epic loser. A couple years later, my parents sat us all down, and told us that they were getting a divorce. Now that I think about it, my dad didn't seem to really care then. They never got divorced. A couple more years later, when I started liking reading and became more nerdy and had to take a buttload of medicine{for personal issues}, my parents told us again that they were getting a divorce. My dad had been out of the house for a while, and I didn't see him as much as I used to then. This time, they really did get divorced. It was heartbreaking. I soon found out that my dad had a girlfriend, and was cheating on my mother, as they weren't legally divorced or anything. Now, divorce is against my religion, which I found out later on. And I'm a real "church girl", as some may say. My parents soon got divorced, legally. Around a year later, we had to move. Now, I shared a room with all of my sisters, and it's a tiny room, mark my words. It's about the size of my old room. I found out that the reason for that was because my father wasn't paying child support and we were poor. I wasn't able to go shopping like I used to, worry about how much something cost, etc. Now I did. When my oldest sibling left for college, he stopped paying money for her. Even poorer. My dad forced us to meet his girlfriend now. I'm not sure if it's the same one that he cheated on my mom with though.... She's okay, but it's really, really, really weird meeting your dad's girlfriend. My dad thinks that I hate him. Even though all of that, I don't hate him. I don't really know my emotions towards him.... My dad, apparently, was using the money that should be my mother's on a lawyer to have us more. I don't want to have to see him more!!! I can't say anything about that, because he hasn't said anything to us. So not right!!!
Also, I've had dreams about my father trying to rape me....
Anyways, does anyone have advice for this situation? I really don't know what to do, and I've been depressed all week, but I haven't said anything. Please don't tell me to tell my dad that I don't hate him; I just can't do that... I have also tried to make the stays there better by convincing my father to get a cat, but then my neurologist said that it's not fair to my mom because she's allergic, so I had to re-convince my father not to get a cat, which I blamed on my allergies... I mean, I could bring books, but my ADHD makes it hard to read for a long period of time. I can try to get on here, but I won't be able to use the computer the whole time I'm there, and my dad doesn't have Wi-Fi...
Also, I like this guy, let's call him A. He can tell something is wrong, but he won't ask me. I've told him that I'm fine, but I want him to say that I'm not fine and try to figure out what it is. I'm really frustrated that he doesn't ask. A's also been avoiding conversation with me too. He hasn't talked to me as much as he normally does, because we're good friends and sit on the bus next to each other.... It's depressing.
My mom has also been really quite mean to me lately, and I feel like everyone is against me. I'm already bullied enough at school {which I've told my mom about and she just thinks that they're not really glaring at me, and that they're jealous, but why would they be jealous of me?} and I don't need it from home. I already have enough problems with my siblings; I don't need my mom against me too! I don't know what to do to make it better. I think that she feels as though I'm a spoiled brat and get whatever I want, because I can be very demanding and stuff at times. I just don't know what to do!!!Please, please help me!!!
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