TheComfortCorner | V.9

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i am such a mess wow. i have no self control and no discipline. i feel pathetic

[viles]

• been showering at an obsessive rate (for me) the past several days (like three to four times per day) idk why but it just feels so nice,, i am worried if this is a sign of Decline:tm: but sjkdhfkjsh idk showering = good, right???? very confusing

[CyberneticVampire]

I knew if I just disappeared from Instagram without a word no one would care.

[azemyc]

i feel greedy even asking for a moment of your time
But you always have plans with others
And only come to me when you're upset

[CyberneticVampire]

I should just go to sleep instead of wishing someone would care or talk to me.

[Soy Sauce]

I turn on the lights and get out of bed. I clean my room and organize my things. I do my homework, play with my pets and spend time with my family. I do things to fill my days and my mind. But I can only do so much before im physically and mentally exhausted. But once I sit down then I cant get back up. I cant get out of my mind. I can’t escape. All the words and the thoughts and the lyrics and the music consume me. I cant breathe I cant move. I cant get out.
I just want to sleep
Im so tired
But if I sleep I will never get up

I dont want to die

[×Seven of Nine×]

People's relation with a certain character continues to make her more like me than I intended to be.
It's a little scary.

Continued affirmation of myself by complete accident is definitely something I never expected to happen.

Everyone treats her like they treat me.
It's hard sometimes to understand we're one and the same, but then things like this happen.
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You know what? You know...
Why can't I get top surgery because I'm schizophrenic, but literal kids can? It's not fair. It's not like they have a better mind state than me or something. I don't know.

Don't fight me about it. It's bad enough I'm forever blocked from achieving less dysphoria.

[BunnyBeam]

I feel so worthless, I feel so pressured. Everything is just going downhill in all ways.

If only I had friends who cared, if only I had friends to talk to about my problems.
If only I could talk about my problems, but no. My brain is just too stupid to be able to talk about certain stuff. I can not even really admit that I feel awful. I just can't.
Though, when I finally do, that one special moment where I actually say that I am not okay. Nobody cares or their problems are "worse" and I shouldn't "seek attention"
Whelp. Thanks, "friends"

[Paprikat]

i didn't think it would bother me much
but now it's happening
i hate this
it's terrible and i want to scream
but i will pretend im ok

[×Seven of Nine×]

Heh... Oh look I'm back.

Why?

Because my stupid dad decided to act like he cared, he asks.. how are you doing, are you well?
Of course, I answered no. I answered I haven't been well, I told him how I understood why I've been sick so much etc.

Silence. As usual.

My dude, I know that if this was in person you'd do your usual "it's all in your head" crap. Well I wish it was. I wish I can still use pens pencils and styluses. I'm getting to where I can't use chopsticks either. I don't use them much but when I try to it's a struggle. Luckily for me I don't need any expert holding to use Western eating utensils.

Sigh...