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by guh-huh! » Wed Feb 07, 2018 2:21 pm
augh.
i hate being such an upbeat person. being so optimistic and seemingly happy has basically told everyone
that i'm okay and stuff. i just wish i could tell people i'm not okay without it seeming like a joke? it's
unlike me to be this sad, but i just can't get out of this funk and it's beginning to affect my work/relationships
with others. i just want to be okay, but i can't without people knowing. i can't let people know, because they'll
look at me differently. my parents have yelled at me for being so sad suddenly. saying that i'll get over it and
stuff, but spoiler alert- i'm sad all the time! i just never talk to them about it! and when i do, they get angry!
it's such an awesome cycle. nobody takes me seriously and i keep feeling worse and worse.
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by Sarish » Wed Feb 07, 2018 2:43 pm
dammit, I hate myself so much. So damn much. I am my own worst enemy and damn do I hate myself.
I hate myself so much that I can't allow myself to vent. Not really.
So. I'll keep this short:
I am sorry to anyone and everyone who has ever tried to compliment me or generally be nice to me. I am an ass and I like to sabotage myself and refuse or argue against a compliment. I always do this and I always sabotage myself whenever I can. They just make that self-loathing rise up like tsunami and crash down and drown me. The honesty means so much, so damn much, but then minutes (or moments) afterwards I'm beating myself up about it because I can't see myself as deserving of any of it.
I am my own worst enemy. Oh how different things could be. But they can't because everything I do disgusts me. I disgust myself and I wish I didn't, it's so damn difficult to wrestle with your mind constantly.
I am so sorry.
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by Vixem » Wed Feb 07, 2018 4:18 pm
I’m so angry and upset with myself.
I’ve had so many ideas as to what I’m going to write
for this post but I hate them all and they never look
good when I preview them.
I’m just going to shut my mouth and not make any
more posts, people could do without my ranting &
venting.
I’ve practically quit ChickenSmoothie because many
of the players don’t know I exist and the staff aren’t
too pleased with me, already existing.
So, I’m just going to leave and pretend I never came
on to ChickenSmoothie.
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by skorch » Wed Feb 07, 2018 5:16 pm
i'm actually about to email my math teacher to disable my parent's access to my gradesite because apparently, anything under an A+ is a fail in math.
i'm not even passionate in the subject.
i'm just scared she'll email back my parents that I told her.
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by dakotapaws » Wed Feb 07, 2018 6:46 pm
i dont want to do this
i hate being stressed
out by this work
i didnt want to be
enrolled in college
im crying now because
im so stressed
but i cant drop
out my.mother
would kill me and it
would put us in even
more debt that
we cant have
i want to disappear
i cant take this
its to much
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by nana » Wed Feb 07, 2018 7:34 pm
i've missed 4 days this year in school which isn't that bad since the school year is halfway done but still. i stayed home today and tomorrow because i've been sick and i feel so guilty for missing school. it's only 2 days but i feel like i'm a failure. i've just been doing painting for the past 42 hours which makes me feel better but it's litterally all i do. i can't find the passion to write anymore which really makes me sad. but i got some new acrylics which sounds terrible but painting and kalons is all i have right now. i've lost my reason and passion to live to everything i do either involves kalons or painting. and honestly
i'm not that even a good painter
sorry for the bad english my brain is having issues right now
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by dotdottdoot » Wed Feb 07, 2018 8:16 pm
Oh my goodness there are 3 police cars and 2 ambulances near me and they’re all going to the closest shop to me. I can see it and I’m terrified. I’m thinking something bad happens but I read crime a lot so I have no idea what to expect. I guess I’m just overreacting.
Omg now I hear shouting
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