Since September or October, I've been fond of this guy. He gave me his number and I gave him mine. Well, we talked often. Time passed as we became closer, and about a month or two ago, we admitted we liked each other. He told me he liked me quite a lot, but that he didn't want a serious relationship at the time, because he was focusing on educational things. I was fine with that.
Our conversations became more flirty and all that, but we never dated or were actually "together". Once, he told me that we were practically dating, but that it wasn't official, because other people would get in the way of our relationship and ruin it. Again, although I was somewhat disappointed, I was happy that at least I had found someone who had truly made me happy and that we hadn't rushed into a relationship where we barely knew each other. We never held hands, kissed, etc, heck, we never even hugged. We sometimes went a month without talking because I was too nervous to talk to him, and well, before the other day, I wasn't sure why he didn't talk to me more often than not. I brushed that off as him being someone who prefered to be left alone, because there are times I feel the same way.
Needless to say, my feelings for him were strong and continuing to grow stronger. I can't say for sure because it never happened, but had we decided to, y'know, actually "date", I think I may have liked him more than any guy I've even been with before. I won't say I loved him, but there were times I had to stop myself from thinking that I did love him. He was nice to everyone, he had a great sense of humor, etc. The only major downside he had was that he was always asking for sexual pictures. I declined every time, and he never got mad, and being in the state of "omg I'm in love", I failed to see that he wasn't as amazing as I thought.
On Thursday night, we were texting. I asked him what he liked about me, and he didn't want to answer unless I sent him a picture. When I said no, as I always do, he said he was kidding, that he didn't want a picture, and that he was going to bed.
He had never reacted like that before, so I was confused and a little hurt. I told him I was sorry, but that I didn't know what I had done wrong.
He said he wasn't mad at me, but that he just wanted to say what was on his mind. I told him to go ahead and do so.
He admitted that he never actually liked me, and that he never did want pictures, but that it was his way of trying to push me away. He said he wished that I didn't like him, and that it would be best if we didn't talk anymore. He ended the text by telling me it was annoying when I talked to my best friends about him. He said I was not to tell my best friends about what he had done. Basically, he had led me on and lied to me for six months. I turned down other guys because he had told me we were more or less together. I even ruined a friendship with someone over him.
my name is fae and i use they / them pronouns. 
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some boys like you for who you are, but some boys will try to take advantage of you. Eventually though, you'll find the right person.
