TheComfortCorner | V.9

[rover]

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Edit: i feel happyyou've given up on me
gsnuins ecstasy and i break into asmile
heart pounding
you're so muchcloserto lettinf me go
Abandon me

edit 2: just gave myself a horrible haircut
hahahaha
just snipping at random
it looks awful
i love it
hair everywhere
surprising how much i lost
i'll have to go to a salon and see what they can do for me
"yo can u fix whatever this is" HAHAHAHA
leaving it as is sounds funny

edit 3: i did it
i broke up with him
i did
we both knew it was a toxic rs
mm i feel bad that it had to be me
he really loved me but i was horrible
if he fell in love with someone better
how happy would he have been
he deserves better
i hope he will become an individual one day
and be in good health....

[LaceWhiskey]

Depression has been hitting me harder than usual. I'm thankful I have people I can turn to, even if I can't open up to them or really talk about it. I still feel horrible in myself, but one person told me something that moved me, and I'd like to pass it on here. I think it could help to hear.

"Do you want to watch the rain with me?

Close your heart to it, breathe. Enjoy the rain, and imagine yourself surrounded by your favourite things."

[CyberneticVampire]

I want to break down crying but I can't cause it gives me a bad migraine hahahaha but I feel like no one cares. I made a new friend recently on Instagram and we would talk every day but now I'm left on seen and they don't talk to to me anymore. Everyone does that.. they say they care but then they get tired of me and I'm all alone again. This is why I hate making friends. They always leave no matter what they say or promise. I'm meant to be alone. I just need to accept that already.

[cainhurst]

i just need some sleep tbh. i'm overthinking again

[yharnam boy]

my soul is in agony LOL LOl LOL lol LOL

[Guest]

i feel so alone.
but i did it to myself.

[bubbaberriboo]

what is the point of trying if i know i can’t do it. i can’t do something as simple as talking to people. i can’t make friends. i try and i fail and i feel worse about myself. every time i go in public or try to talk to people and i freeze up or have an anxiety attack it just makes me want to try less and less. i haven’t even left the house since thursday and i have no plans to besides go to therapy tomorrow. i don’t even want to do that.
i keep letting everyone down. no one even cares anymore. i am a complete lost cause. i’m so sorry i can’t be what people want me to be. i don’t have the energy to keep trying. i’m doomed to be alone and the only thing i know how to do is punish myself by isolating myself from the few friends i do have. and even then, i think i could disappear and they wouldn’t care. what value do i even have in their lives? probably not much.
i wish i could just be normal. i hate how my brain works.

[CyberneticVampire]

I feel like I just keep chasing temporary happiness.

[Soy Sauce]

I really don’t feel good

[flooxii]

making this transparent because I feel like it.


it's getting worse.
what even is the point anymore?
I can't do it.
I don't believe in myself.
I don't believe anyone anymore.
I feel like they're all lying to me.
I don't want this.
but at the same time..
I..
I don't mind it at all.
I'm trying so hard to have a grip on my emotions, to not let them go away.
it's too hard.
I usually get good grades.
they're running away now.
I get bad grades now.
is it bad that I don't care?
is it bad that nothing seems like it matters anymore?

I can't do this.
whenever I talk to someone about it..
they make fun of me.
they laugh.
they.. hurt me.
thinking that I'm just joking.

the mask is slipping.
I can't hold onto it no more.
everyone's making fun of me.
they're thinking that this version of me is my mask.
heh, it's not at all.
rather, the opposite.

people are doing everything I don't like.
they don't know I don't like it all.
but this one person, I'll call him Jake.
he knows I hate being shipped with my friends.
so obviously.
he ships me and my friend.
he teases us, whenever we're hanging out together.
stuff like "awe, are you two lovebirds having fun?".
god, I hate it.
for some reason, my friend, I'll call Emmett, always starts smiling when he says it.
not full on grinning.
just a small smile, with a pinch of blush.
he's not gay though.
I'm a bit confused.
plus he's already 'dating' someone.
he's told me he's not actually dating her.
just one of those friendships.

but whatever.
his life, his choice.

I wish I was happier.
I wish I wasn't like this.
I just..
I don't want to do anything anymore.
don't see the point.

but I don't care about anything, as long as my friends are happy.
I'm trying so hard to make him laugh all the time.
to smile.
it seems to be working.
he hasn't shown anything, like if he's sad or somethin'.
but I don't believe he is.
his laughs.. they're always just so genuine.

wish I was more like him.
happy.

just why?
why am I like this?
why can't I be normal?

it hurts.

I keep seeing 'in 3 seconds imagine you *whatever*' in my IG feed.
one I keep seeing is 'in 3 seconds close your eyes, imagine you're hugging that person'.
god it feels so good.
I don't love anybody.
so instead of 'that person'.
I imagine myself hugging myself.
it's embarrassing.

I've found a small cheat code though.
to make Jake slow down on all that 'lovebird' stuff.
it's kinda helping.
not too much though.

I feel like I need help.
I don't want to be like this.
and the longer I wait.
the more it gets worse.
'it' as in my depression.
it's a huge pain in the ass.
but sometimes you need pain, right?
it's what I've been told.
I'm such a wimp.
I'm believing everything people say.
well not.. everything.
but I don't care anymore.

I just wanna be happy.
y'know?
maybe you don't.
that's perfectly fine.


can I tell you something?
I'm proud of you.