Halographic wrote:i want to suggest to my mum to get me checked for bpd/anxiety/depression because i'm not sure if my moods are natural,, but i know for a fact that she at least has depression herself and i don't want to have her deal with me having it as well if i do find out i have it. i'm also pretty young (early highschool??? mid secondary school anyways) so i don't even know if it would be diagnose-able..
i'm also scared that everyone will start ""judging"" me even more, and call me attention-seeking or something. i keep telling myself that it's just hormones or something acting up but i've felt like this for years,, before i would have unbalanced feelings due to growing up.
lastly, i've been trying to sound more confident in school.. and i guess it's working? if the teachers asks me a question which requires just one word or a number in response, i don't freak out, which is progress. but i kinda got shunned down for being more outspoken earlier and it kind of hurt.. a lot.. would people just prefer me if i stayed in the shadows? idk..
don't feel like a burden upon your mum, she'd rather you tell her and be able to help you than for you to keep it hidden. plus, hiding it from your mum may make you feel worse, it is best to seek help for it now while you can and not in a year when it could possibly not improve. don't worry about people judging you, it is about you. those who judge have no right,
and as i said to caticomarart earlier, no one is better than anyone. i used to live in sweden, and my family and every other person living in sweden live by "lagom". there is no direct translation, but it means that there isn't too much or too little, but everything is just right.
that is such a major step and i'm so happy for you! i am going through the same thing of confidence, and i am beginning to become more outspoken than with things that require more than just a word and i'm really proud of myself. you should be proud of yourself! every step is a small achievement worth celebrating. i'm sorry you got shunned down, but the thing you need to remember is you are being the bigger person. don't stay in the shadows because you are your own person and deserve your voice to be heard.
good luck!!<3
i<3 wolves678 wrote:Well if an already terrible couple of weeks couldn't get any worse my English book is lost because I accidentally left it on the desk in class, and the teacher said, and I quote, that she 'wasn't going to pick it up for me because she's not a slave.'
Uhm?? What did I ever do to you???
This is the first time I've forgotten to put my book in the box in literal months, and I was rushing because I was late for another lesson. I'd understand this sort of response if this was a regular situation, but even then, considering I'm in my last year of gcse's, and there is only less than three months until the final exams, this seems more than a little harsh??
Now a years worth of work is missing, and considering my anthology for poetry went missing in the same class and never turned up, I assume all this work is just gone?
This same teacher used to be one of the few who actually had sympathy, but not anymore I guess. This entire week has been nothing but her antagonizing me and my friends, and when other students literally harass us she sits and does nothing. It's not the first time a teacher at this school has suddenly changed like this, but considering what I've already been through this entire week, I really, really didn't need this.
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At least the doctors said I might be able to get some councelling this time, whether I'll have to wait a year to get it is another question though.
ahhhh, good luck with your gcse's! i recently sat mine and although the examinations have changed i have a lot of faith in you!! as for your book, it is a bit of a pickle situation. are you able to use another friends notes and ask for pictures to remake your notes?? afterall, it can be seen as extra revision for yourself. i'm glad the doctors are taking initiative and allowing you to (possibly) have councelling! i hope everything works out for you soon, and if you ever need advise on stress feel free to pm me!!
i started revising for my exams in the january, so i do advise to start revision now, it'll make it a lot easier in the long run. good luck!!<3
ryan ross. wrote:
im just always an outcast. im always a last choice,
people don't care if i am there or not, im nothing
special. i dont have anyone to turn to and honestly,
i don't see the point in trying. i am such a failure.
im sinking anf trying and i hate myself so much.
things aren't good rn, i feel like a burden, im all
alone.
you are valid and you're own person. don't feel like a burden please, you are definitely not. here is what i said to someone else the other day; i know it's hard, but you need to be celebratory for the small achievements throughout the day. don't feel like getting out of bed, but you do anyway? that's amazing, reward yourself. having a shower after the first time in days? (don't be ashamed, we all do it) that's great! reward yourself. the best way for a path of happiness, granted, takes a while, is to acknowledge the small steps you take each day to get there. you are not a failure. the smallest steps are the opposite to a failure.
there is such a large point in trying though, you may not see it but you just need to try for yourself. and hey, i care about you.
i know we don't speak much now, but i have always enjoyed your company so i have a lot of faith and hope in you. i know i'm just a person on a screen that you can't verbally talk to, but i am here for you like i was two years ago, okay?? (: good luck <3
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to help you smile:list of little things - list of little things to help make you smile and be happy
cutest - cutest tumblr to help with your self esteem
smile things - cute colours and tumblr page to help you out
adorable - basically another tumblr that does the same as the ones above
to help you with anything else / distractions:emergency compliments - if you ever feel poo, and nothing seems to cheer you up, this site is full of 'emergency compliments' which can make you laugh at how ridiculously brilliant they are.
automatic flatterer - you know what's cute about this? you put in your name, nickname, whatever (it doesn't save it) and it pays you compliment after compliment after compliment. it's the cutest idea ever.
the dawn room - do what it says. after doing that, loads of encouraging messages will come your way!
hugs - hugs is all i have to say.
thunderstorms - control them!<3
beautiful places - if you're looking for a sign, this is it. set a goal to visit one of these places. don't change that goal. you won't regret it.
how to change your life - just read it. it's amazing. too good.
player two - if you're feeling hurt or upset, visit here. it's a game. it's good.
koalas - if you're in need of a distraction that lasts a good five minutes, play this. it's fun, and if you love koalas it's even better!
stick man game - good distraction with a hopefuly message i made at the end!
just say yes - this blog was made by zoella and good for anyone who suffer with anxiety disorder, have panic attacks, depression, have social anxiety or are just a very negative or shy person this may be good for you!
random acts of kindness (video) - may make you feel all warm and gooey at how kind people are
list of things for those having a bad day!more bad day remedies - is similar to the one above
how to love yourself - if you struggle with self esteem, pleasep lease read <3
quiet room - one of my favourite places <3
comfort box - i highly recommend looking at this because it's the most amazing idea i've ever seen
ground box - similar to the one above
to help you with panic attacks:i have loads of
things that can help with your anxiety and panic attacks.
facts !!!!:what not to say !!! - to someone who is having a panic attack, do not say these things
facts- if you're confused about a few things
i've also made a tumblr! you can message me anonomysouly on there for advice if you don't want to post here. i also will start reblogging things (nothing triggering or sad !) so if you ever need someone, you can go to me on there! http://happinesscomeswithnoregrets.tumblr.com/ [/list][/list][/size]
