TheComfortCorner | V.9

[×Seven of Nine×]

i just wish i can get treated for my physical problems.

i miss the days when i could. you know. before covid hit.

but now, if you dont have covid, nobody cares about you.
i try to seek treatment, they ask for symptoms of covid, they do very little effort to see what my issues are, and send me home with "nothing to be found". hello?

i hate it here (irl)

[azemyc]

Realizing you're everyone's secondary , third, fourth, choice
Then realizing you're the common denominator
No wonder.

[rover]

i make my art worthless

[viles]

• i want to delete all of my accounts sdfkkhdfh nothing's happened my brain's just being Silly (/neg) trying to post here to be like 'look shrimpy!! look at how much you use cs you can't let that go' and like sjfkhf idk if it's working or not,, tbh idk if it would be such a bad thing if i just disappeared off the internet,, like might be my brain talking but like dkshfkshf hmm...the idea of just Poofing my online persona out of existence is very appealing rn :eyes:
  
  edit: cw for medication
  i just, idk. i get so anxious about Everything and it's so damn exhausting dsjkhsdkf it's focused on my online accounts, particularly discord and cs,, and i jus twant the source of my anxiety out of my life even though i would be anxious anyway!!! litreally hate my brain but what can ya do,,, i messed up my chance to take anxiety medication like i was like 'oh yes i am more depressed than anxious obviously' bc like, my therapist sent me to the doctor bc i was depressed and like i didn't know ksfjhdkjfh i am so dumb i literally trusted my therapist without question and just did whatever she said and i just,,, aaaa anxiety medication might have genuinely helped me but idek if i need it!!! like yes i am anxious but idk if im Anxious:tm: ykyk??? like sjhdfk idk idk this is all so stupid and pointless bc i'm not gonna do anything i'm just gonna sit here and complain about it like i always do ksdhkshf i hate myself so much like kjhkdhsf,, Ugh:tm: i want to do something, to go somewhere, to Mess Something Up,, kjfshfkh like idk what to do when my brain gets like this,, there is no reasoning with it,, there is only just white knuckle gripping the steering wheel og my brain w hile i try to keep myself from doing something i will regret dskjhsfh
  
  edit two: my cat is sitting next to me and i just- aaa i want to cry i don't deserve such a cute cat and i'm sitting here with my brain being a mess and he's being so sweet and it's making me like happy but in a bad way?? like i love him and he's so wonderful but also i am so awful and i don't deserve to even be in the same building as him i just,, im trying to focus on him bc sometimes that helps but rn everything is going back to messy thoughts and idkw hat to do

[rover]

"Within 2 business days"
It's been 4 days, mr. Psychiatrist. Get back to me or i'll do it myself. I don't care.

[acronymm]

he promised he’d stop doing it ofc he lied ! now everythings gonna just get worse again in this endless cycle.

[Paprikat]

my best friend texted me hours ago begging me to get online saying her cat is in danger. I can't believe I didn't see the message. I'm such a jerk. She needed me. Her cat, her life, could be gone. I hate this so much. I wish I'd just gone to my phone. Now my messages aren't delivering. I'm going to cry. I'm going to cry please help he's going to die

[clues]

so sick of being in treatment and missing important experiences. i feel like i’ve been stuck in limbo with no direction for the past two weeks. completely numb, because it’s not safe to feel anything in the environment i’m in. trying to get to a more comfortable place but my doctors are always so vague. i wish i had a clear goal. i just need someone to tell me some good news. i miss loving and feeling loved.

[marciplier]

i am actually so stupid i made the wrong choice now i feel like garbage for supporting this. i dont think i want to be involved anymore

[mourning dove]

shoutout to mina for possibly ruining my relationship!!!!!!!!!!!he doesnt talk to me as much now mina my boyfriend is too busy in thats tupid server. god. GOD why me. i just want to be loved and love someone. why????why did this have ti happen to me. we all know what gabe did. why jot gabe? he did so much. why??? me????? i fixed everything when you asked. why do you hold tour grudge on me.