TheComfortCorner | V.7

[fika.]

~ my desire to write but my inability to do so is breaking my miiiind, as per usual
all the brilliant ideas yet such lackluster execution, they're better off staying untarnished in my head
but damn, do I wish I could share them as they are, not the poor imitation that seems to come out of my pencil or keyboard when I try to release them

this is the eternal struggle of the overthinking perfectionist.

totallllyyy understandable. an overthinking perfectionist. it takes over your entire life at times and bleh it's horrible. but hey, you're such a strong writer. you made a post seem so poetic and i am really impressed because i couldn't even write a simple poem about butterflies when i was younger. maybe to help you you can write down ideas of what you want to write about.
sometimes that can get the brain flowing and going (it always helps when i'm thinking of blog posts to write!). although it doesn't feel like it, you'll come round to it soon! good luck!<3

yo anyone wanna help a fella out and tell me how to stop overthinking things all the time

i would love to think i have a solution but wouldn't the world be a heck of a lot simpler. to be honest i do not even have advise for this post because i can't even stop myself from overthinking so lord knows how i'm going to come up with tips for it. i guess what helps me to lessen my overthinking (of course, still overthinking) is to face the situation and figure out the 'pros and cons' of it if it is one of those kind of things. if not, well that's a darn diddly struggle because that's the hardest thing for me.
whatever it is, i hope it all works out for you soon! good luck!<3

i’m so done with today i don’t understand why i can’t have just one day where something doesn’t go wrong. honesty just ready to go back tk sleek and i’ve only been up like two hours. i’m so frustrated disgusted and crabby

that's me everyday but hey another day that's been lived! figure out what's gone wrong today and work on a better tomorrow. totalllyyyy easier said than done because if one bad day happens for me i just make the rest of the week bad and pretty soon that turns into the rest of the month but it's worth a try tackling the problems! good luck!<3

I just don't understand why this always happens to me. I really don't. Apparently I'm just really not meant to have friends. Every single time I think I have friends, they all just stop talking to me, for what seems like no reason. I can never figure out what I did wrong. And even when I make it clear that it's hurting me and that I want them to talk to me, they see it but never respond. It seems like they just don't care, they really just don't want to talk to me. And you know what? This time I really believed I may have real friends. After years of believing that there was really no such thing as friends - that no matter what, no one would ever like me and that I would just never have anyone who really liked or cared about me - I actually believed that they would be different. That lasted a few months. Now I don't know anymore. They just quit talking to me. I don't know what the hell happened. It's really only been a couple weeks but it feels like it's been months. But this has happened before, where no one talked to me for a few weeks, for no reason. Then everything went back to normal. I never figured out why or if I had done something. I just don't know. And now I'm starting again to believe that there is really no such thing as "friends," it's just something everyone wants to believe. Everyone wants to believe they have friends, but they're not real. Or maybe there's just something wrong with me like I've been told by every adult in my life for years, ever since I was little. Maybe that's why I have no friends. Because they're right and there's something really wrong with me. I don't know. I was just finally getting used to and accepting the fact that I didn't have friends and was starting to believe that I didn't need them and would be fine without them, then suddenly I had friends again. People who I actually believed I could really be friends with, I actually thought they cared about me. I'm just so sick of this. I'm sick of always being upset over them. I'm sick of always caring more about everyone else when they don't really seem to care about me. I want to message them but I'm just too scared to at this point because it's been like two weeks, and if they wanted to talk to me, they would have messaged me by now, right? Especially since they keep seeing me posting about how much this has upset me. If they cared and wanted to talk to me, they would have by now. And I don't want to bother anyone who doesn't want to talk to me. I just don't know anymore and I'm so tired of this. I'm tired of always getting upset because of things like this. Maybe it would be better if I stopped trying to even have friends. Then I wouldn't have to worry about losing them.

as much as the world seems to bite you and tear you apart and make you think you shouldn't do or have something or want something, it'll all be okay. i know some people don't think it will, but i can promise you it will. friends come and go, it's a fact. however, i wouldn't listen to the people that tell you you're the one with the problem and the reason you don't have any. i have always had that problem too. it's hard to find a balance in a friendship; one where you both enjoy similar things but you're not too similar. i wouldn't give up trying though, because someone out there is meant to be your friend-soul-mate and there is one out there for everyone. and i know i'm only on a screen, but i'd love to be your friend!! <3

i just really dont like myself

i don't really like myself
and i know that i'm not a good kid
but they're supposed to help me
not make me feel worse

it absolutely breaks my heart hearing this from people; i think it's because i feel the same with myself. but what always helps me is this: go look in the mirror and just stand there. think of the reflection of you, as someone else, a friend. if they started saying things about them that they hate, what would you do? would you agree with your friend? or would you say the truth and say how you think they are the opposite of what they hate, which is something you love?

what makes you hate yourself?? is it your appearance? your personality? the way you handle things? the best way to help is to pinpoint what it is you despise and try your hardest to find a way to fix it. i know it is so much harder said than done, because say if you hate your nose, it's not like you can get up and get a nose job. but you need to learn to love your nose!

i hope everything works out for you soon, it's all about self acceptance, and though it seems like a life time away it will soon come.
good luck!<3

~ 2 weeks since my dad last talked to me, he can't even respond to a simple "i love you"

i'm sorry he hasn't talked to you! that's horrible! are you able to call him and ask why he isn't responding? i can't really help with this much because i've never been able to relate but maybe try calling him, or maybe he's going through a few things and isn't able to come round to a response (but, saying that, he could take a minute out of his day to respond). i hope things work out soon! good luck <3

i have to go back to the doctor... it's a few days over a month since i got my appendix out and i'm having a lot of pain in the area and it hurts to use my stomach muscles which makes it hard to sit up. plus i cant eat without getting very sick and im losing weight.
i just want the health problems to be over...

good! you're going back to the docs. i hate the doctors, they scare me. sure, they're friendly, it's just the atmosphere. bleh. but, i am proud of you for getting through all of this! it must be such a painful experience and it's best you go instead of sitting and trying to wait it out. i hope everything is okay soon, you don't deserve to be in this much pain! good luck <3

I start my first ever real job tomorrow, and I'm just super scared that I'm going to mess it up.
It's only working behind the bar in a local pub, but I'm still pretty terrified, the closest thing I've had to a job before this was babysitting, and even that sent my anxiety through the roof.

I know I'll be fine, and it's normally pretty quiet on a Monday night so my boss will be able to help me through training and stuff, and he seems nice enough, I'm just a big overthinker and could use some word of encouragement.

ooh, how exciting!! i hope it's gone okay if you've done it already! it's so scary doing a job; i have never done one (unless a paper round counts) and i can understand the anxiety. a paper round is only shoving a newspaper through the letterbox and the first day i did it with my boyfriend i had a massive panic attack! but, the good news is i went through with it, and i'm a stronger person for it. there's my words of encouragement hah. you get through, and you'll feel more confident than ever and you'll be a lot happier and more independent! i am sure it will go wonderfully!! good luck!<3

Ah ha ha got/getting in another fight with my s/o. Making me so mad and i already have a headache and am feeling dizzy <_< not in the mood. nope.

I guess I should take my own advice that I’m always tellin people: you can’t help people who won’t help themselves. So w/e i’m over it.

Don’t know what to do yet but I’m not saying anything rn because I’m really angry. And I’m not nice when I’m not angry so taking a while to breath.

Is it monday yet? .-.

Oh fun here comes the anxiety attack.

Really just want to claw my eyes out at this point.

I tried to play an active game to distract myself and it didn’t work. Shaking and feeling nauseous fantastic.

I keep thinking of bad memories tonight, and i’m really missing my boy Elliot. my heart hurts

fighting is the worst! i hope you're both okay now! and that you feel better! i'm sorry about elliot, it's always so sad losing a family member (i class pets as family members because they essentially are), but know he is looking down on you and will always be with you! good luck <3

I feel like I come here every week with something else to whine about but, ugh, im just...so done.
I really want to cry, scream, whine, complain, do something to let out my frustrations but I can't, im just screaming at myself in my head but on the outside im doing nothing.
Why am I like this? I can even put my problems into words because its such a hassle and I just don't want to deal with it.

I just its easier to say 'im fine' than to actually deal with whatever's going on.

don't ever feel bad for coming on here to vent! the thread is here for that reason and how else are you meant to feel better? sometimes a massive vent is all that is needed. do all those stuff you said you want to do. cry, scream, whine, complain. even if you can't verbally, do it by putting a pencil on a piece of paper and scribble until the page rips. eat a slice of pizza angrily and chew chew chew. there are so many ways to express anger quietly. my personal favourite is just flaring my nostrils and breathing heavily. i hope you feel better and everything works out soon! good luck <3

i dont feel the entity anymore. it was like they were tormenting me so i could get it out and feelbettwr again. i dont feel threatened anymore.

at least you don't feel threatened anymore! i'm proud of you for getting through whatever you are going through.
another day is a new start! good luck!<3

theyre both gone
they never deserved this

in less than a week ive lost two people

i wasnt ready

i am so so sorry to hear this. it's always horrible losing someone. unfortunately, life goes on. and you have to remember; they wouldn't want you to stop your life. you need to carry on going, holding on to the days and think of them in your memory. i'm really sorry! good luck!<3

I really just wanna scream and throw a temper tantrum like a 3 y/o child because of how freaking messed up this world is
like I actually want to cry
I wish I could help everyone but I can't because I'm scared of rejection
I feel like a soldier on a battlefield who knows the battle is wrong but nobody would listen if I told them
you can't just tell your colleges "I don't want you to die and this war is useless"
and they just be like "oh okay m8 I wont fight anymore lets go eat some icecream"
I feel so betrayed by everything

i'm sorry about everything going on! there are times where you feel betrayed in life but then you know that they just weren't the ones you can go to for everything. you go throw a tantrum, it's what you need. or, have a day of treating yourself. run a bath. eat a whole tub of ben and jerry's ice cream and feel sick but have no regrets. watch your favourite movies. binge watch a tv series. sometimes doing that will help you a lot. good luck, i hope you feel better soon!<3

Hey, I could use someone to chat with about "relationship" troubles in PMs. >.<
I dont know if you could call it relationship troubles, but its definitely troubles involving feelings and other people so be prepared for that if you message me.

i can pm you! <3

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to help you smile:
list of little things - list of little things to help make you smile and be happy
cutest - cutest tumblr to help with your self esteem
smile things - cute colours and tumblr page to help you out
adorable - basically another tumblr that does the same as the ones above

to help you with anything else / distractions:
emergency compliments - if you ever feel poo, and nothing seems to cheer you up, this site is full of 'emergency compliments' which can make you laugh at how ridiculously brilliant they are.
automatic flatterer - you know what's cute about this? you put in your name, nickname, whatever (it doesn't save it) and it pays you compliment after compliment after compliment. it's the cutest idea ever.
the dawn room - do what it says. after doing that, loads of encouraging messages will come your way!
hugs - hugs is all i have to say.
thunderstorms - control them!<3
beautiful places - if you're looking for a sign, this is it. set a goal to visit one of these places. don't change that goal. you won't regret it.
how to change your life - just read it. it's amazing. too good.
player two - if you're feeling hurt or upset, visit here. it's a game. it's good.
koalas - if you're in need of a distraction that lasts a good five minutes, play this. it's fun, and if you love koalas it's even better!
stick man game - good distraction with a hopefuly message i made at the end!
just say yes - this blog was made by zoella and good for anyone who suffer with anxiety disorder, have panic attacks, depression, have social anxiety or are just a very negative or shy person this may be good for you!
random acts of kindness (video) - may make you feel all warm and gooey at how kind people are
list of things for those having a bad day!
more bad day remedies - is similar to the one above
how to love yourself - if you struggle with self esteem, pleasep lease read <3
quiet room - one of my favourite places <3
comfort box - i highly recommend looking at this because it's the most amazing idea i've ever seen
ground box - similar to the one above

to help you with panic attacks:
i have loads of things that can help with your anxiety and panic attacks.

facts !!!!:
what not to say !!! - to someone who is having a panic attack, do not say these things
facts- if you're confused about a few things

i've also made a tumblr! you can message me anonomysouly on there for advice if you don't want to post here. i also will start reblogging things (nothing triggering or sad !) so if you ever need someone, you can go to me on there! http://happinesscomeswithnoregrets.tumblr.com/

(i am so so sorry if i don't reply to anyone; it is due to chicken smoothie rules and i do not want to break them. it also may effect me in some way, i am sorry once again!)

[Vixem]

I was borrowing my Mother’s laptop today and when saving some school work
I came across some old files; they were photos of our family from a few years
back.

I started crying because we’ve changed and drifted apart so much. We aren’t
the same anymore, it breaks my heart.

Ever since my mother’s stupid boyfriend came along we have never been close.
The only things we’re used to are police, child safety and constant fear.

:c

[mean&gay]

oof oww my bones
dysphoria is killing me right now
and i don't know what i'm doing with my life
and my motivation to do anything productive is just gone
i hate sundays

i keep getting ideas for stories but then i just lose interest
and i wanna make music but i have no real talent
and i'm probably failing in most of my classes

all of my friends are so talented
a is so freakin hilarious he could make a career out of it
h is such a good artist it's depressing
e is super dang smart and will probably cure some sort of disease
l has the most beautiful singing voice
a, e, b, k and e are in a damn band

and i'm just over here with my mediocre everything

lmao what went wrong

[illusion.]

It doesn't matter anymore.

[Guest]

mm. i think i just need 2 vent a tiny bit..
i'm tired of waking up every morning feeling so sad & unable to do anything. no matter how happy or content or peaceful i felt the last night, negative emotions are the default that i wake up to. & i can think of things that will cheer me up, but if i think of just one bad thought, any bit of happiness sort of jst goes away like.. as if u were dropping an anchor, like i fall into this stupid pit of sadness i can't get out of again?? it's been going on for months, & i think i've been getting a little better; people have mentioned it to me, i go to a therapist, i'm even more confident in talking & want to do stuff more, but still.... there's this weird, negative place, that my brain just wants to like default to for some reason. i really just wish i was better, & happier again. like why do i have to put so much more effort into having nice emotions now, why can't They be my default, & sad emotions be the ones that can only be set off by things, like it used 2 b.. uuuuh.

i think school in all honesty has been putting a really bad amount of stress on me too. i always feel like i have to constantly be doin things, like, there's always always Something i have to do. i used to be able to just get the few things i needed to done, & then feel like i didn't have anything else to worry about, but now i just don't feel like i can escape it.
i wish i could have a big break from school, & i guess just everything that's been stressing me out. weekends aren't long enough usually. i need time to understand myself, to take my time to get better, do stuff to cope, but i'm always so damn busy & even if i don't do much by the end of the day i feel so overworked & tired, i don't rly want to do anything. i don't know if this made any sense, but i'm basically so sad??? i feel like it's gonna be a long time until i get better???? i just wish i was better now, though, it's been almost 5 months,,

whatever though i guess i'll try n make the best of today while i can. i know i have a lot of good things in my life, i'm grateful for the fact i can distract myself with all my interests,,,, + the few people that can make me feel better, esp my amazing gf!!, & i guess i'm glad i can still just enjoy stuff?? i know i haven't fallen too far down yet. i'll get better, i guess i just wish it was sooner. sorry for posting this but it feels good to get a bit of nonsense off my chest.

[Spearow]

Smol rant
I’m sorry I didn’t realize I’m not allowed to voice an opinion without you getting all pathetic and thinking I’m instigating a fight. Mb you must have forgot I don’t care. I would love to know what the vendetta is you have against me because its really annoying, and I don’t care about you in the least so why do you keep adding your 2-cents to everything I say or do. Do you have so little to do that you have time to lurk after me? Go get a life thx.

I’m so done with today <3
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Update on last post: I don’t know if we’re “okay”. Definitely not their priority & they don’t care about anything I say so that’s annoying. Its okay its only been 3 years. >_> Maybe they should take notes from my stalker. Still brooding, I didn’t blow up on them so thats a plus.

Gonna go breath fire some more

[crashedOut]

finally came back to ig so i checked my ex's page and she's moved on so easily and now im feeling sick because i havent moved on (probably because im just lovesick) hdndkfdfk i want to vent to someone but no
i suspected she liked someone else from the start
and i was right
that stupid "mocha"
stole her from me
hhdnf
she even said she had a crush on mocha for a while im still so mad about it but i was too broken to get mad at her,, i thought i moved on but no, and my current crush is never gonna like me back and im so stressed im failing math class and my band teacher keeps embarrassing me,, gosh im ready to cry rn im so stressed and sad but i dont wanna vent to anyone because ill be annoying,,,
but if you can handle really annoying people please pm me so i can vent i really need this off my chest
mocha isn't a cs player, don't witchhunt them
edit: im shaking now and i just cant seem to move, i thought i moved on from her after 2 months of being split.
probably because of my crippling attachment issues.
we were together from june to december, i guess that could be another reason why.
i guess my emotions are still really fragile, might as well watch AuSLove stream to make me feel better

[Athaerys]

You know, I hate being a mess like this.

I've been so desperate to have some companionship that comes in a relationship, yet everyone I try to get to know always ends up leaving/getting annoyed with me. Honestly I don't know why I even try to find someone anymore because I know no one will ever want me. I mean having a snake for a pet and having one for years really deters people from me anyways. I can barely keep any friends, let alone a relationship! All Im good for is chasing away everyone I meet...

[ℋoney]

i'm lonely and it hurts, i just want to be held, but at the same time i dont. i dont want to trust another person, i'm enough for myself. yet im still lonely, i still feel empty and it sucks.

what sucks more is my back pain, i told my mom i feel its making me loose in my mind in some sense. not "i'm going to kill the closest person" or slamming my head into a wall or harming myself. physically mentally emotionally, i break down at the slightest though of having to live the rest of my life like this, i sit and cry in my room at night wondering if ill ever be able to run like i used to. god. i miss running, i run but it hurts and the next day i wake with agonizing pain. i tried physical therapy but its gotten to the point were even if i'm just sitting and go to lean over to write someone on my paper at school i get a sharp pain in my chest, it happened a few days ago and ever since then my back pain has worsened.

[shuhalo]

why can’t i focus like a normal person why can’t i read like a normal person it’s not even that hard to stay still why can’t i not fidget
i just want to be able to focus on tests without spacing out