TheComfortCorner | V.8

[Winstalgia]

I hate myself.

Or.

More the fact I hate what I'm doing.

I'm sorry.

[okapi,]

I'm always a very happy person. And it's not that I'm not happy, it's just that I feel like I might be a little lonely.
I don't get to see my friends everyday because now I'm in college, and we all go to different schools. So we can only hang out every once in a while.
And I really want a boyfriend. I'm an adult and basically never dated anyone, and I really want to find the right person for me. I want to be able to have someone who wants to text me and talk everyday all day, I want someone who wants to hold me, I want someone to be intimate with.
Is it bad that I feel that way? I've never been intimate in any way with any guy before but I really want it. I've always wanted it and just suppressed it because I was younger and didn't think I needed it. I'm glad I didn't do anything when I was in high school. But now I'm kind of regretting the inexperience. I don't even know how to talk to guys or what I would do if someone even wanted to date me. I'd be so awkward!
It doesn't help that I'm also very picky. I have a very specific type of guy, looks and personality wise, and I feel like that makes it hard for me. I know I'm probably gonna find the right person for me soon, but it hasn't happened yet and I really want it to.
When I'm lonely I make mistakes that I regret. I try to find people to talk to in the wrong places and I do dumb things that could cost me a lot if they went wrong. And I've been feeling this way for a while.
What would I give to be the little spoon? What would I give to feel someone's arms around me and to sleep next to them? What would I give to kiss someone for the first time?
I would give a lot, I think. I need to be careful and just wait. If it's not the right time, it won't happen. It will soon. Just be patient.
Guys seem to like me very quickly. I just wish I found those guys attractive...

[ĸιттιe]

it was midnight twenty minutes ago and so it's my birthday. and within seconds of it my boyfriend once again ruined it for me.
he sent me a box full of gifts and i wanted to open it with just him. but he told my parents to be there, even after I told him I didn't want them there. and with my controlling horrible parents, once I told them this they started yelling at me, they didn't even care what I wanted. like wow babe. thanks for ruining everything. again.

[ĸιттιe]

so this day just keep getting worse and worse, it's literally just one ordinary day to me. I have been dreading it for weeks and this kind of proves why. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up until tomorrow xx

[foxvomit]

xx
me and my girlfriend are both out as lesbians, but not announced as dating. we know that if we come out everyone will just start teasing or ignoring us. it's also awful because we have two {straight} couples in our group and #1 our group talks about them behind their back and we know that they would say the same things about us, #2 me and my gf get jealous because they can cuddle and kiss in front of everyone but we cant. it sucks. i only get to hold my girlfriends hand once per week and it only last a few seconds. we've been together for 6 months, this sucks
xx

[skyline]

really? you're going to listen to him? he isn't even my father. i get the whole thing about "not wanting to deal with him" but you know how long i've been wanting this, and we almost got it done yesterday, and it didn't happen because we didn't have the form, and i didn't think it was possible today, but you ended up not having to work, and now you're just worried about what he's going to think without even batting an eye at how i feel. awesome! thanks!! : )))) i cannot wait until my birthday.

[symbols]

Slightly regretting punching that wall yesterday. My knuckles are still sore, and the skin is peeling off my finger.

[Mooshidog]

My life is going downhill again.

And I messed it up.

[hiero]

My eyes burn, my throat is tight, my stomach is twisting, and I am filled to the brim with an inexplicable feeling of immense dread. I now know the consequences of forgetting my meds for one day. I feel like I am being drowned every second and I cannot swim up for air.

[breezey]

if it was possible
i would take all the
pain away and see
your smile and laugh
too bad we don’t