TheComfortCorner | V.7

[root]

does somehow making everyone you meet hate you count as a talent

humans have too many emotions, its so confusing

[SilentMelody]

today my supposed "friend" and her group of friends made fun of me at lunch today since i usually sit with them. i thought they were really nice but apparently i was wrong...

they called me things like an "attention seeker" and "self-absorbed" as well as profane words...am i really all of those things?

maybe i am...

i'm just so low on self-esteem now and i feel as if i can't really trust anyone around me anymore. i'm always too open and i open up to the wrong people.

[Zexalii]

well, grades were sent home !
all A's, except for two A-s argh

they are in science & art; i had an A- in art last time, and although i improved my math grade from an A- last time to an A this time, instead my science grade fell from an A to an A-

what am i gonna do?? my teachers have a little section where they can put number/letter thingies that correspond to different things; i got an R1 in all classes except for science & math (R1 stands for "excellent" and i think it's based on how i act in class)

it sounds like i'm freaking out over nothing because i got R2 (stands for "good") in science and math and my mom is gonna surely interrogate me very angrily when she sees this and she'll start accusing me of not putting my heart onto studying and whatnot when i tell her i have no idea what i'm doing wrong

my mom is way too strict and she's always really ticked off that i got an A- last time in art because she has it in her mind that i'm some mini da vinci or something when really all i can do are some good scenery drawings and draw animals reasonably well

i'm really scared about what my mom will say to me?? my mom only thinks i tried my hardest when i get a good grade even though that's really not the point
the fact that my art grade has absolutely no improvement what so ever will only help support her claim that i'm not trying my hardest and i seriously don't want to be yelled at again
my mom and dad had a huge fight the other day so now both of them are in bad moods a lot of the time and that'll only worsen my mom's attitude

however, my mom is always very scornful toward my math ability (really slow when i'm solving problems) and she yelled at me the other day and ranted about how i'd get an awful grade like a B+ or something
well, (my school doesn't do A+) i got an A in math, which is very nice! last time, i had an A-;

my mom focuses a lot on my flaws and whatnot which is extremely annoying because she's generally quite strict
my english teacher dropped in a "your daughter is incredibly talented in the area of writing! undoubtedly one of the best in all of my classes"

ah, here's to hoping that comment from my english teacher and my improvement in math will curb my mom's anger.

I feel you! I had to sit through endless conversations with my parents because they were upset that I got a B on my report card. Everything else was an A. They always brag about how I'm so smart and my stress levels are going wayyyyy up

[hellebore]

He's too far gone, he can't get better, he's nothing I ever thought he was, he's full of such anger and hatred, he hurts everyone around him and doesn't care
I hate him so much because I could once not find anything in him to hate

[NovaPolitan]

I just started school and it's only recently just hit me
that I miss my parents so much. I have separation
anxiety and I'm about to be diagnosed for Aspergers-
Syndrome since I can relate to every single characteristic
of it. I haven't told my significant other about it since I'm
nervous that he'll reject me after 9 months of our
relationship. I'm so scared for what the future holds.

[rutilant]

I have kind of a long-ish story and I really need to rant about my one friend so :')

So, my one "friend" or more-so acquaintance I suppose because apparently she hates being called my friend. But she loves hanging out with me, but whenever I'm like "heyy friend" she flat out says "I'm not your friend." I don't know what I ever did, but because of her behavior like this, and for this specific topic, we've been in a few fights lately. We used to be best friends, you know. BFFs. But now she claims someone she met online recently (a few months ago) is her new best friend (I've known her for 4/5 years) and I'm not even her friend at all anymore. But she still talks to me. Messages me. Hangs out with me. But she's rude to me. I always tell myself it's a joke, because friends sometimes joke around with each other like that, but it's getting serious I guess? Whenever I take my glasses off, she literally screams at me to put them back on because "I'm ugly without them." (And this doesn't help my self-esteem one bit, thank you). She told me about how much weight I gained, and she also yelled (because she's a generally loud person with friends) so pretty much everyone around us could hear. She always calls me ugly. However whenever we get in fights, she blames her family and her "mental disorders". She self-diagnosed herself, which meaning that there is no real proof that she has these disorders. She didn't go to a doctor for it or anything. As for her family, I get it. But does that make it okay to treat someone you've known for years like total crap? She's given me a chance to stop talking to her plenty of times. It just makes me feel worse. Because for some reason I can't let her go. I'd still see her everyday because she goes to my school and all (but I'm sure that could be easily arranged by her mother if she really wanted). I still want to be her friend but I want this to stop. I've tried talking to her about this and all, but it's no use.

[vulpes vulpes]

Is it selfish to want a best friend? Not just multiple close friends, one best friend who is above all?

[hellebore]

Is it selfish to want a best friend? Not just multiple close friends, one best friend who is above all?

Not at all; many people desire one. However, multiple close friends is a pretty good deal too. My advice to you is to avoid getting so desperate for a best friend that you let your guard down before you should or that you give less care to the other people in your life who still love you. If you have good friends but still feel a void, try to get to the bottom of what you're missing from them. Then, see if you can resolve it by what they have to offer or by how you can further your friendship.
Hope all goes well!

[Jailor]

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[Vincent Van Goat]

i have a school assembly on friday, and they have all of the kids screaming and stuff (you're supposed to be screaming, they actually encourage it). the last assembly (which was in december) was so loud that i couldn't hear for like two minutes after it. we also have bleachers to sit on for them, and if my class has to sit in the top bleacher i will be so scared. the bleachers at my school have those things in the middle of the bleachers where you have to talk on them where you go up and down, and there's no rails. i have an extreme fear of heights, and i had sit on the VERY top for the last assembly..... yeah, things did not go well. i can't stay home to miss the assembly and just fghjmnbvfcdertyujki,mnbvfdertyuj why.....